Part Two: Save for Edit

”  “You” Can’t Be Real”  – place this one with Pauli Exclusion Principle. In science, computing, and engineering, a black box is a device, system or object which can be viewed in terms of its inputs and outputs (or transfer characteristics), without any knowledge of its internal workings. Those black Read more

Mental Illness and Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date (Book #5)

“It is No Measure of Health to Be Well Adjusted to a Profoundly Sick Society”—Jiddu Krishnamurti Be mindful oh Mankind, of all the painful secrets that we must keep,By sharing with others we may awaken, or by our suffering silence just die asleep—–Bruce Paullin Our nation’s mental health status is Read more

Mental Illness and Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date (Book #5)

Published by Bruce on January 11, 2020 “It is No Measure of Health to Be Well Adjusted to a Profoundly Sick Society”—Jiddu KrishnamurtiBe mindful oh Mankind, of all the painful secrets that we must keep,By sharing with others we may awaken, or by our suffering silence just die asleep—–Bruce PaullinOur Read more

Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence–How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date (Extended Version)

“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society”—Jiddu Krishnamurti Powerlessness and silence go together. We … should use our privileged positions not as a shelter from the world’s reality, but as a platform from which to speak. A voice is a gift. It Read more

26th Anniversay

Here is a small clip from our two hour marathon commitment ceremony in 1994. Some of the most beautiful human beings we ever knew were there to help us unite as a couple, and as a loving community. We had over 75 members of our friendship, and family, community to Read more

Rehash of Baby in Garage

All that I ever wanted, since I was born, was to be able to love the world, and, in turn, be loved back from it. I wanted Peace to prevail in all of life. Some people seem to come by these capacities naturally. Others strive for their entire lives, and Read more

NEW BOOK !!!

Much of the following written material has been presented before, in my various Facebook and blog posts. Some people may think that Facebook or this blog site are not the places to present this kind of message. Well, truth is either ubiquitous, though ignored by many, or it does not Read more

The Pretender

I’m going to rent myself a house (I’m going to occupy a prison cell)In the shade of the freeway (in my cell block down the hall from the infirmary)Gonna pack my lunch in the morning (Gonna eat three slops before my nightly flop)And go to work each day (And go Read more

The Infinite Way

In 1987, I met Marie Schmidt, a practitioner of Joel Goldsmith’s The Infinite Way, which is a movement involved with mysticism and spiritual healing..  She was a woman about 87 years old, who taught every Sunday at the old YWCA on 10th Avenue in downtown Portland.  I had seen a Read more

Transition Story (yes, make this life story more personal)

I had been homeless since November of 1985, when my girlfriend of the time, Alcindia Ford, and I decided to split for good. My employment at the US Postal Service had finally been terminated, due to me calling in sick on July 4th, and me never returning to work, or Read more

Life Story

Bruce Oliver Scott Paullin —- The Early Years This is the part of the journey of exploration and personal writing that I don’t feel too comfortable about, which is the foundational information about my childhood.  Putting to words the perceptions and experiences around being a youth, from the current perspective Read more

Anger And Mastery: A Dialogue, And A Monologue, On Being Fully Human

“The world will heal, when religions, governments,  and men become willing to listen to the cries, and the anger, from women, children, and Mother Earth, and embrace the need to reduce all suffering”. I recently read a fascinating book.  The Archbishop Desmond Tutu and the Dalai Lama had an extended Read more

A New Take On Anger

At the centre of it all is the notion our feelings are adaptive: anger, sadness and pessimism aren’t divine cruelty or sheer random bad luck – they evolved to serve useful functions and help us thrive. Take anger. From Newton’s obsessive grudges to Beethoven’s tantrums – which sometimes came to Read more

Berylisms (My Father’s One Liners)

Down in front!  You make a better door than a window Close the door, do you live in a barn? With all of the lights on, you must own stock in the electric company! When I get to heaven, I am going to have a talk with the Old Man Read more

1984-1987: The Descent Into The Underworld

I finally undertook a crash course in insight, when, In April of 1984, I placed myself in the Care Unit for alcoholic recovery at Portland’s Lovejoy Hospital for a month. My initial intention was to maintain my job with the U.S. Postal Service, as well as, maybe, stay sober for Read more

Prophets?

I wrote this one from an imagined perspective of a “biblical prophet”. My best writing comes from my perspectives of our present times, however. I was really troubled with our country four years ago when I wrote this prologue to a contemplative meditation, and posted it to Facebook on a Read more

The Baton

There are two distinct movements of consciousness available to humanity, both within the concepts of time and our acculturated senses of what is our personal desire and order, and the potential for another experience, totally outside of the limits of time and rationality.  The primary movement is our experience of Read more

Beryl’s Place

In August of 2018, I rented a home in the Black Butte residential area for three nights.  I found the unit online, and I chose this unit because of its proximity to the golf course, as well as its ability to accommodate two couples.   Jo and Jim Hussey, and Sharon Read more