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Insights Into Human Consciousness

Chapter 22:  The New Architecture of Control: How Power Targets Women’s Autonomy (version 1)

Chapter 22:  The New Architecture of Control: How Power Targets Women’s Autonomy (version 1) The Architecture of Illusion: How Society Silences Women Every society operates on an invisible framework known as the collective consciousness. This shared set of beliefs, morals,...

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Insights Into Human Consciousness

Chapter 22: Breaking the Altar of Control: Liberating Women (version 2)

Chapter 22:  The Architecture of Subjugation: A Philosophical Inquiry into the Control of Female Autonomy (version 2) We exist at a profound and unsettling intersection of technological advancement, political regression, and spiritual manipulation. The women of this era are not...

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Death

Introduction and Conclusion, Part One July 6, 2018

Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our...

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Death

Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, Or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date Parts One, Two, Three

PART ONE:  INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Prologue: Insight Into The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date

Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Death

Parts One Complete July 17, 2018 20:00

PART ONE:  INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Di Di (Diane) McCloud

I wrote my first love poem in 1984, when I became lovers with a woman by the name of Diane (Di Di) McCloud.  I had first met Di Di while she was running with Gary, a cocaine dealer and friend Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Anxiety and the potential to heal from it

About ten days later, we were to meet our Arizona friends, June Thomas, and MIchael Barron, at Cannon Beach.  We arrived at the coast on a partly sunny Monday afternoon. We were quickly greeted by June and her ten year Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Employment At US Postal Service

I will try to cover my employment  with the US Postal Service, as well as my attempts at “higher education”.  I worked as a floor clerk, a letter sorting machine operator, and finally as a maintenance mechanic/electronic technician for a Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Michael and Diane Sutton, and The Miracle Experiments

It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable. – Maya Angelou The Miracle Experiment Find a family member, friend, acquaintance, or stranger Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Marsha (Masha) Feldman

In the continued interest of “finding my people”, I attend the INTA Conference in Portland In August of 1987 (International New Thought Alliance).  The person that I was most interested in seeing was Jack Boland, the recovering alcoholic who had Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Craig Allen Salter

Craig Salter was my next door neighbor in our new Milwaukie neighborhood.  He was of slight build, and he was a slow talker.   He may well have been a creative genius, but his “dreamy” state of existence was indicative of Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Donelle Mae Flick Paullin

I will now return to 1971, and I will try to develop my relationship with Donelle more fully.  Randy Olson found his first long-term girlfriend, a young woman by the name of Terri-Lynn Barr, a person that he met at Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Jiddu Krishnamurti

J. Krishnamurti’s Critique of Religion by Theodore L. Kneupper | September 2011 Theodore L. Kneupper is a Prof. Emeritus at the Slippery Rock University of Pennsylvania I. Introduction. Jiddu Krishnamurti was one of the most remarkable and interesting thinkers of Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Jobs and Negative Male Energy

I have even been on jobs where co-workers were threatening to throw “blanket parties” where there is a group beating of a boss, to drive home their twisted point of view.  Some people who I worked  with, and for, actually Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Couple’s Group

Beginning in 1997, Sharon and I joined a couple’s group with two other couples.  One of the couples was Eddy and Marty Crouch (Sharon had known Eddy since 1987 through the Living Enrichment Center, and Eddy also officiated at our Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Men’s Group

I discontinued participation in my men’s group experience of over four years after internal bickering and a lack of mutual commitment to our long term relationships ebbed.  The ongoing conflict between Patrick Pinson (my former AA sponsor, and owner of Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Eddy Crouch

I have a few perceptions about Marty’s wife, Eddy, which I need to share to finish this story.  Eddy considered herself a minister, and a teacher, and a leader, for those on “the spiritual path”, and had this understanding of Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Death

Chapter 25 – Recovery and Healing, Part 11 Relapse Redundant

Relapse, Recovery, And The Portland Water Bureau There is an “old saw” in the recovery movement, and that is “relapse is part of recovery”.  The definition of relapse (according to all addiction-awareness resources) is returning to drug/substance abuse after a Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago
Musings

Chapter Thirty Two-Conclusion-Moon Landings (revised)

All That Is Gold Does Not Glitter All that is gold does not glitter,Not all those who wander are lost;The old that is strong does not wither,Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall Read more

By Bruce Paullin, 1 dayApril 21, 2026 ago

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