Musings

Touch this one with the deepest of thoughts

How many of you remember your first fight?   I sure do! My sister Pam was a fourth grader at Cedar Oak Park Grade School, and I was one grade behind her. I was small compared to some of the bigger boys for grade three, having been admitted to 1st Read more

Events from childhood, our first experiences, have the power to shape our lives. Some do so immediately, offering us challenges to overcome and encouragement to make use of our talents and interests. In the process character is built, and we make the first steps upon our personal paths. Other events Read more

Introduction:  Mythology, Religion, Liars, The Conspiracy Of Silence, And The Cloak Of Invisibility Chapter  : Trauma Chapter  :  Anosognosia Chapter  :  Notes To Myself Chapter  :  Knowledge, The Whim Chapter  :  The Pearl Chapter   :  To Reimagine Our Journey Through Consciousness Chapter :  Defender Dan And 1960’s America Chapter :  Read more

Sharon, if I should unexpectedly pass away, please end my book with an embellishment of this dream.  And, start the book with my 1963 Dream about the shaman and his village. Thanks!  I love you forever, Me. Driving on back country road, into deep wilderness,  road ends suddenly at precipice,  Read more

The Common Knowledge Game (CKG) is a newer name for a form of consensus social understanding used in collective consciousness since humans became social animals.  The CKG informs our understanding of our own lives, how we see others, and how to use it’s often times twisted knowledge of poor self-esteem Read more

I have had the privilege and challenge of going through and sorting a lifetime worth of writings and papers from my parents, and from myself. After reading some of my mother’s personal writings, I was struck by the pain that she experienced remaining married to my father. He was not Read more

  Before I enter the portion discussing the Common Knowledge Game in detail, it is beneficial to provide some information about the physiological similarities and differences in the brain between men and women, and how we process information and express ourselves, as a result of those differences and similarities.  I Read more

I never chose this uneven life path of recovery from trauma, life chose it for me. I choose how to deal with the sights along the way, however. The amygdala in our brains under duress from trauma creates new paths, leading in unhealthy directions, when these issues that arise through Read more

THE FOOLS You know who we are, there is no need for our names We may be outwardly different, but inside we are the same We vacation on ego trips, and with the world play strange mind games While striving for material success, and its dubious fame We remain graceless Read more

Chapter 1 It is what it is, but it is not what it seems —Paul Hewson . To “follow new paths of consciousness”, while knowing that “you can’t be real” sets up quite a transformational dynamic within consciousness. If “you” can’t be real, then everything that I associate with “I” Read more

Johnny Cash Hurt rendition, and my commentary

I don’t remember exactly when I first met Barbara, but Steve had introduced us in the late summer.  She kept turning up at after hours parties and other supposedly spontaneous happenings around se Portland that I had been invited to,  She was to become an emotionally unavailable running mate for Read more

For five nights late in the summer, I flopped in a house off of SE 37th street with three other men and two women.  I did not know any of these individuals well, save Greg, though we appeared to be accepted each other, and we actually quite friendly.  The house Read more

  Prologue: Mythology, Religion, Liars, The Conspiracy Of Silence, And The Cloak Of Invisibility (maybe Chapter 1) Prologue (alternate): The Miracle Experiment and the Conspiracy Of Silence Chapter 2:  Trauma Chapter 3:  Defender Dan and The Mind Of Man Chapter 4: To Be Born In Ancient Times, To Be Born Read more

My writing has been the major activity and challenge of consciousness for me since November of 2016.   I have attempted to bring insight into collective consciousness, individual consciousness, the sacred, the profane, and all of their intersections, and collisions within our human experience. I have never been a writer,

One evening, a Cherokee elder was teaching his grandson about life.   “A fight is going on inside me,”   he said to the boy.:   “It is a terrible fight, and it is between two wolves. This battle that goes on between the two wolves is inside us all.  Read more