Musings

Looking back, everything worked out just fine, I think.  Pursuing a woman overly concerned with appearances could not have brought long-term happiness to me, and there was little reason to hope that a love relationship with Masha would have worked.  Masha was 10 years older than I was, which did Read more

Evergreen High School Class of 1973 Photograph of Donelle Mae Flick (Paullin) My first wife, Donelle Mae Flick Paullin, suffered from what psychiatric professionals labeled as paranoid schizophrenia. I struggled mightily to help, and to understand her, over the many years that I stayed in relationship with her. I gained Read more

Bruce Oliver Scott Paullin —- The Early Years What is in a name, anyway?  I was given a name that had links to family members through both my mother’s and my father’s lineage, thus the two middle names, Oliver and Scott.. The English language name Bruce arrived in Scotland with the Read more

The oppression by our culture of our mentally ill continues to distress me.   The repression of the basic human spirit by our culture, and by many of those practicing their “mental health” professions, sometimes borders on witchcraft.  On that down side, there are those within our culture who misunderstand Read more

“Being male is a matter of birth Being a man is a matter of aging. Being a gentleman is a matter of choice” —Vin Diesel There has been so much discussion in the last several years about the differences between men and women.  Books have been even written claiming that Read more

  Prologue Chapter 1 – To Find Our Voice Chapter 2 – Beginning The Journey Towards Consciousness Chapter 3 – A New Formation of Words And Flying With The New Flock Chapter 4 . Insight ,Black Holes, And Healing Chapter 5 . Insight and Mindfulness Chapter 6 – Differences Between Read more

This story is a thumbnail sketch of my friendship with Randy Olson.  I first met Randy Olson when I was in fifth grade, after he moved up to Oregon from California. He lived about 3/4 of a mile down Oatfield Road from us, and we rode the same bus to Read more

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson The Sound of Silence (Original Version from 1964) (musical interlude) It remains no mystery to me as to why many people choose continued addiction, or suicide over recovery and healing. Invisible Read more

It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable.  — Maya Angelou Beginning on May 24th, and extending through July 21st, 1987, I had a series of three spiritual “events” which, to this Read more

  Jiddu Krishnamurti’s Teachings, and the Mystery Within Me While both attending college in the early 1980’s, and in my early stages of “awakening” in 1987, I had read several books by important authors on atheism, philosophy and a few of the important religions of the world, including Christianity, Buddhism Read more

I would like to write a bit about my mother, Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin.  She was one of the finest, most loving and reliable persons in my life.  I never doubted her love or caring for me, or for our family.  She loved her younger brother, Wayne, as much or Read more

Chapter 10 – Beryl Donald Paullin My Father, Beryl Donald Paullin My “search for Truth” would take a long detour through my relationship with my father.  I never had much desire to write about the “search for truth” that I had undertaken in the 1980’s, let alone the rest of Read more