Chapter 25 – Recovery And Healing, Part 11, Relapse

Relapse, Recovery, And The Portland Water Bureau My relapse from drug and alcohol abstinence is difficult for me to document, as this story represents a particularly disturbing period in my life, a period when I limped away from recovery and its attendant Grace. There is an “old saw” in the recovery Read more

Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date–Part One

PART ONE:  INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more

Chapter 19 – The Miracle Experiment, Part 5: Anger, Love, and War

But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth to express unless we have gone into those rooms and Read more

Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date – Parts 1,2,3

PART ONE:  INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more

Healing Into A More Balanced Life-Living Life On The Widest Frequencies

Understanding the Human Archetypes of Divine Feminine, Masculine, and Androgynous for Greater Self-Awareness Human archetypes are time-honored molds forming the substratum of our collective psyche, shared across cultural and temporal spectrums. They are innate prototypes for ideas and may manifest in recurring themes or figures in mythology, literature, and within Read more

I Am Now A Writer, After All!

“There is a light that we can’t always see,  There is a world we can’t always be.    “ Apparently, a stuck kidney stone, or a prostate issue, has brought the greatest misery to me for the last few days.  Something unusual started happening three weeks ago when blood started Read more

Approaching Trauma Consciously-Living Life On A Wider Frequency Of Being

Approaching Trauma Consciously-Living Life On A Wider Frequency Of Being “It is no measure of good health to be well adapted to a sick society.”-—Jiddhu Krishnamurti Our civilized world has been built upon the backs of an unconscious, overachieving, traumatized humanity. Do we remain in the conspiracy of silence and Read more

Chapters 2-4: Living Life On A Wider Frequency Of Being

This looks complete( is this the same as chapters 7-9?) Chapters 2-4:  Living Life On A Wider Frequency Of Being “One is never afraid of the unknown; one is afraid of the known coming to an end.”  ― Krishnamurti Our present-day national consciousness continues to be heavily influenced by the dark Read more

Chapter 12:  Enlightenment (latest)

Chapter 12: Enlightenment (latest)- new stuff on bottom though! If we awaken from the dream of separation from our true and noble nature, we become spiritually healed, and life’s beauty, awe, mystery, and majesty can predominate. With our awakenings, the one true God witnesses life through our eyes with us.. Read more

Memoir:  Bruce Oliver Scott Paullin—-To Be Born In 1955, To Be Reborn In The Now

“Like sands through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives.”Thanks, Grandma and Grandpa Henry!You started me on many life-affirming paths.You inspired me with the presence of your Lord, and you spared me the questionable religion.You got me started watching Days Of Our Lives in 1967.You always believed in Read more

Chapter Three (Unabridged And Updated): Just Say No–Approaching Trauma Consciously

Chapter Three (Unabridged And Updated): Approaching Trauma Consciously “It is no measure of good health to be well adapted to a sick society.”-—Jiddhu Krishnamurti Our civilized world has been built upon the backs of an unconscious, overachieving, traumatized humanity. Do we remain in the conspiracy of silence and inaction, or Read more

CHAPTER 6:  INSIGHT AND MINDFULNESS—FINAL VERSION

CHAPTER 6:  INSIGHT AND MINDFULNESS–FINAL VERSION Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners—Eric Hoffer It is through deep introspection, contemplation, and the cultivation of mindfulness that we can unlock the doors to profound insights.  Engaging in mindfulness, self-reflection and deep introspection not only enhances Read more

CHAPTER 6:  INSIGHT, MINDFULNESS, AND BLACK HOLES (12,000 word version)

(12,,000 word version) CHAPTER 6:  INSIGHT, MINDFULNESS, AND BLACK HOLES Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners—Eric Hoffer .Know thyself, and thou will know the Universe, and the Gods-—Attributed to Plato, and also to the Oracle at Delphi All that we now see, and Read more

Chapter Six: Insight and Mindfulness (version #1)

Chapter Six: Insight and Mindfulness (version #1 In the honest seeing of our problems through enhanced and sincere insight and awareness, our freedom is ultimately attained- Variation on quotes by many spiritual teachers, prophets, saints and savants. We all can be spiritually erumpent, yet our lives will never blossom into the Read more

CHAPTER 6(?):  Anger, War, Self-Awareness, and Mastery

Author’s note:  I have unveiled an enlightening chapter on the role of anger, love, war and spirituality. My words challenge the notion that anger should be suppressed, offering the perspective that it can be a creative force signaling when something is wrong. I debate the use of anger in self-defense, Read more

Letter To Publishing House?

Letter To Publishing House? Well, this material in some form may appear on the inside sleeve of my new book. It has been prepared as.a possible introduction to a representative from a book publishing company Introducing, “No More Turning Away: Breaking the Conspiracy of Silence”. This new book is the Read more

No More Turning Away—Breaking The Conspiracy Of Silence

Prologue-Book #8. No More Turning Away—Breaking the Conspiracy of Silence If you want to become whole, let yourself be broken. If you want to become straight, let yourself be crooked. If you want to become full, let yourself be empty. If you want to be reborn, let yourself die. If Read more

Chapter 12 (Epilogue) I Will See You On The Other Side

Chapter 12 (Epilogue) I Will See You On The Other Side You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free–Jesus of Nazareth “You develop an instant global consciousness, a people orientation, an intense dissatisfaction with the state of the world, and a compulsion to do something about Read more

Chapter Eleven: Reimagining Our Journey Through Consciousness

Chapter Eleven: Reimagining Our Journey Through Consciousnesss “It is what it is, but it is not what it seems.” —Paul Hewson, etal We all love a great story. Storytellers are revered throughout society. And as humans, we all create stories around our individual lives and all of our relationships with each Read more

Book #9:  An Electrician’s Guide to Our Galaxy – Living Life On The Widest Frequency

Book #9:  An Electrician’s Guide to Our Galaxy – Living Life On The Widest Frequency (I’m turning this chapter into a full book, after publishing book #8) The number 42 is significant in the book The Hitchhiker’s Guide To The Galaxy, by Douglas Adams.  The number 42 is the answer Read more