Chapter 27 – Recovery And Healing, Part 13: Life, Love, Healing, Mystery, and Death

Choose wisely, oh mankind, the stories and secrets that we keep For by our choices, we may awaken, or just die alone and asleep —-Bruce Paullin Our lives are like a story that we write to ourselves.  Enhanced meaning and joy accompanies us when the sagas of others can be Read more…

Chapter 24 – Recovery and Healing, Part 10 Seizures

Truth, My Friendship With Marty, Seizures, and Death   Life Is Better With You What value is a story, if it is never told? What value is love, if it is never shared? What is the value of speaking, if nobody is even willing to listen?  According to the introduction Read more…

Chapter 21 – Recovery and Healing, Part 7 Psychedelics

Psychedelics, Healing Potential, and Religious/Spiritual Experience I debated whether to place this chapter in the “Damaged” section, or the “Healing and Recovery” section of this book.  It all depends on the state of mind, and intentions, of the person using the chemicals whether such an experience is to be considered Read more…

First Book ( for Melinda)-Never Published-Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date–Part One Latest Revision: July 17, 2018

PART ONE:  INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more…

PART TWO–THE PATH THROUGH COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS

We will either heal together as a country, as a world, and as individuals, or we will all die alone —–Bruce Paullin PART 2:  THE PATH THROUGH COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS In this time when the anti-Christ seems to rule the United States, and when heartless terrorists, capitalists, and politicians victimize our Read more…

Gary Johnson and Prayer

I am going to take a different direction with this blog for a moment. This photograph is from around 1991, when I was an apprentice with the Local 48’s Electrician’s Apprenticeship program(1988-1992). . Yesterday I saw David McElwie at the Oak Grove Fred Meyer’s (person in front, on the left Read more…

Death With Dignity and Marty

As I lie here on our driveway, and pet and caress our cat Patches, I marvel at the mystery of love and connection, and the diversity of life that expresses it, each in its own unique way. I also reflect on the life, and the death, of my friend. As Read more…

Eulogy for my friend, Marty

I never knew what I was getting involved with when I offered to you all of my heart in friendship this year, having withheld so much of myself over the years. 2017 was the year when I finally learned how closely two male human beings could connect, and ultimately become Read more…

Dad and Marty’s Death

  “As you have been with me in life, so I will be with you in death.” I “heard” this statement in my heart, and whispered it to Marty’s body at his graveside service Saturday morning, with Jo and Jim accompanying me to his graveside. Dad’s caregiver called me to Read more…

Happy Birthday, Randy Olson Jan 21 1955-Jun 3 2013 (RIP)

This story is a thumbnail sketch of my relationship with Randy, and with the recovery process from the human condition, including my suffering, isolation, insanity, loneliness, and ALCOHOLISM AND DRUG ADDICTION). Friends and family, there is nothing new here, so please do not feel obligated to read this again, I Read more…

DEATH’S BULLET HOLES

Notes to myself   Trump, and the NRA’s ideas around guns, are filled with holes, BULLET HOLES. I have written extensively about Toxic Masculinity, and there is a direct relationship between the damaged American Male, and the incidence of gun marketing, distribution, sales, use, murder and terrorism within our country. Read more…

Life Was Better With You

LIFE IS BETTER WITH YOU   Sharon White, Anne LaBorde, and myself attended the Michael Franti and Spearhead concert Saturday evening. Sharon and I look forward to his concert every year, as he is the musical advocate for all that we embrace with our hearts and soul. Sharing this common Read more…