Powerlessness and silence go together. We … should use our privileged positions not as a shelter from the world’s reality, but as a platform from which to speak. A voice is a gift. It should be cherished and used. —- Margaret Atwood There has been an epidemic of white middle-aged Read more…
Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners. —Eric Hoffer What if a real miracle was trying to happen in our lives, and too few people cared enough or were not aware enough to even attempt to look for it? This indifference or ignorance is Read more…
“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung “The unexamined life is not worth living” Socrates “The unexamined life” , or the life lived unconsciously, refers to a life lived by rote under the rules of others without Read more…
Anxiety, Marijuana, and the Path Towards Healing This chapter is directed towards the developing minds, and hearts, of all ages, who as yet have not achieved the fulfillment of their physical and emotional growth processes. It has been established that the use of marijuana by human beings under the age Read more…
Psychedelics, Healing Potential, and Religious/Spiritual Experience I debated whether to place this chapter in the “Damaged” section, or the “Healing and Recovery” section of this book. It all depends on the state of mind, and intentions, of the person using the chemicals whether such an experience is to be considered Read more…
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson The Sound of Silence (Original Version from 1964) (musical interlude) It remains no mystery to me as to why many people choose continued addiction, or suicide over recovery and healing. Invisible Read more…
It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable. — Maya Angelou Beginning on May 24th, and extending through July 21st, 1987, I had a series of three spiritual “events” which, to this Read more…
Jiddu Krishnamurti’s Teachings, and the Mystery Within Me While both attending college in the early 1980’s, and in my early stages of “awakening” in 1987, I had read several books by important authors on atheism, philosophy and a few of the important religions of the world, including Christianity, Buddhism Read more…
The Common Knowledge Game (CKG) is a newer name for a form of consensus social understanding used in collective consciousness since humans became social animals. The CKG informs our understanding of our own lives, how we see others, and how to use it’s often times twisted knowledge of poor self-esteem Read more…
This is only an exercise in writing for me, and I may as well be posting this to my bathroom wall, but I am back from vacation, so in the interests of personal consistency, and in speaking my truth, it is time for me to present some political and social Read more…
“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung I wrote this chapter as a direct reaction to my relationship with my father, my father’s friends over his lifetime, my male friends and acquaintances over my lifetime, and my Read more…
I would like to write a bit about my mother, Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin. She was one of the finest, most loving and reliable persons in my life. I never doubted her love or caring for me, or for our family. She loved her younger brother, Wayne, as much or Read more…
My Father, Beryl Donald Paullin My “search for Truth” would take a long detour through my relationship with my father. I never had much desire to write about the “search for truth” that I had undertaken in the 1980’s, let alone the rest of my oft-times irrelevant, isolated life. Why Read more…
Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. PROLOGUE/INTRODUCTION Presently, I am 62 years old, and I am Read more…
PART ONE: INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more…
We will either heal together as a country, as a world, and as individuals, or we will all die alone —–Bruce Paullin PART 2: THE PATH THROUGH COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS In this time when the anti-Christ seems to rule the United States, and when heartless terrorists, capitalists, and politicians victimize our Read more…
It has been said by friends and family that, at times, I have created quite the unique life experience for myself, though it certainly was not newsworthy or extraordinary in any obvious ways. I would now like to write about this life that I have come to know, Read more…
This was one of those most disturbing and amazing days in American history, as well as with my own personal history. Many citizens of our country had their hopes and dreams dashed, with the 7 American heroes who died 31 years ago today. Had it not been for an overly Read more…
After Dad had passed away, my sister Pam and I had to go through his house (last October) to prepare it for a remodel prior to a potential sale. While going through Dad’s desk, Pam found a birthday card that Dad had saved, which I had given to him well Read more…
Recently I had a dream, where I was trapped between the toilet and the bathroom wall. I screamed out in pain, and Sharon White woke me up, and I told her what I was experiencing. The next day, Sharon talked with June Thomas on the phone, and June, who was Read more…