We ran into Bruce Fleming this morning, who was one of my running/road racing buddies from 20-26 years ago, on the Aldercrest portion of the walk!
He recognized me as he raced by (unlike me, he still has good eyesight, and good running legs, too!).. The last time I saw him, I competed on his Precision CastParts 2002 marathon racing team as a replacement for an injured teammate. I was recovering from a broken leg I had sustained at the 2002 Newport Marathon, in which I still limped into the finish line  in 4th PLACE overall, and because of the healing of my fracture in record time, and my competitiveness at that time, I decided to run with Bruce’s team anyway.

A very painful finish.

I won a Master’s division age group award, under someone else’s name. His team won the team competition, but then was disqualified when my substitution for the other runner was revealed by the injured runner, who was somehow offended, and professed “higher values”.
I could care less either way, as I was just happy to be able to run, coming back from my sixth serious running injury in 7 years.
I never received my award.
Oh, anonymity has no social recognition, does it?
And most of the races I competed in, and excelled in were not recognized by anybody but myself, and my wife Sharon 
That is OK.
I stopped all road running and racing in late 2006, after yet another fracture of a leg.  I was training hard, and my running/racing times were dropping dramatically to the point that as a 50 year old, I was ready to run with THE BIG BOYS.  The pain was too great for me and I began a two year slide into a near fatal experience of painkiller addiction, with another difficult two year recovery program of tapering with Suboxone, which was enlightening, while being extremely uncomfortable.. Twenty years of sobriety also broke its legs, as well.
I have boxes of awards left over from my running career that no one gives a shit about, anyway, including me.
I am happy just being able to walk without a limp, and to occasionally jog on the treadmill now.
The 1996 Road Runner of the Year award still looks great in my closet!
I am proud of my victory in the 1996 Estacada marathon (master division), a second place finish overall in the Columbia Gorge Marathon in 90 degree heat, third, fourth and fifth place finishes OVERALL in other marathons, and a near miracle finish in the Las Vegas International Marathon in early 2002 , as well as three of my ultramarathon victories, each of which the second place finisher was several minutes behind me.
My excellence has left the road, perhaps for the good of all.
Now, I am a writer.
And, my experience as an almost elite runner has prepared me well for the lukewarm reception that I am presently getting as a writer..

There are so many first place plaques and trophies, here. Not one of them could replace a healthy body, or a hug from a true friend, however.

Estacada Marathon victory, also in 90 degree temps.

Categories: Musings

Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.