Prologue

Chapter 1 – To Find Our Voice

Chapter 2 – Beginning The Journey Towards Consciousness

Chapter 3 – A New Formation of Words And Flying With The New Flock

Chapter 4 . Insight ,Black Holes, And Healing

Chapter 5 . Insight and Mindfulness

Chapter 6 – Differences Between Men’s and Women’s Brains

Chapter 7 – Toxic Masculinity, Its Values and Principles

Chapter 8 – The Common Knowledge Game

Chapter 9 – Some Men, and Religions, Just Want To Watch The World Burn

Chapter 10 – Damaged, Part 1 Donelle

Chapter 11 – Damaged, Part 2 Beryl

Chapter 12 –Damaged, Part 3 Early Bruce

Chapter 13 – Damaged, Part 4 Randy, Dan, Alcindia

Chapter 14 – Damaged, Part 5 The Underworld

Chapter 15 – Recovery and Healing, Part 1 Meditation and Masha

Chapter 16 – Recovery and Healing, Part 2 Laurie and Marie

Chapter 17 – Recovery and Healing, Part 3 Sharon

Chapter 18 – Recovery and Healing, Part 4 Higher Power

Chapter 19 – Recovery and Healing, Part 5 Anger

Chapter 20 – Recovery and Healing, Part 6 Psychedelics

Chapter 21 – Recovery and Healing, Part 7 Prayer

 

Chapter  22 – Recovery and Healing, Part 8 Second Birth

 

Chapter 23 – Recovery and Healing, Part 9 Relapse

Chapter 24 – Recovery and Healing, Part 10 Seizures

 

Chapter 31 – You Can’t Roller Skate In A Buffalo Herd (Conclusion)

Chapter 32 – Life. Love, Healing, Mystery, and Death

Chapter 30 – Mystery, The Unknown, Memory, and Knowledge

 

Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin – My Mother

My Maternal Grandparents and Related Family

 

Couple’s Group

Men’s Group

June Francis Thomas

Sharon Ann White

Michael and Diane Sutton, and The Miracle Experiments

 

Questions Of Life and An Approach To Finding Their Answers

What Really Is Inside?

 

 

Categories: Musings

Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.