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The Transformative Power of Spiritual Awakening
From 1971 to 1987, I lived a life marked by dysfunction and addiction. Peer pressure led me down a path of recreational drug use as a high school sophomore, quickly spiraling into a full-blown addiction to alcohol and drugs. The grip of addiction was so tight that I was convinced I would either succumb to it or take my own life by the age of 30. What I couldn’t foresee was a life beyond addiction, a life shaped by spiritual awakening and profound personal transformation.
The tipping point came in March of 1987, when I decided to leave Portland’s underworld community and the insanity perpetuated by substance abuse. While the decision to exit that life was made consciously, the path to recovery was not as clear. It wasn’t until I established a “conscious contact with the God of my understanding” that my old life began to fade away. The sense of disconnection from the world, from my fellow humans, and from the very essence of life began to dissolve. Yet, I had no language to describe this new reality unfolding before me.
Spiritual awakening has the power to reshape one’s life in ways that are difficult to articulate. For me, it was like being reborn. The chaotic noise of my past life—filled with disfiguring concepts and destructive behaviors—was replaced by a peaceful presence and a new ordering principle for my consciousness. The transformation wasn’t immediate but unfolded over time, like a guided missile, taking me to the right place at the right moment.
In the initial years post-recovery, I spent over six hours daily in prayer, meditation, and study of spiritual literature. This rigorous spiritual practice led to continuous states of bliss and a sense of divine guidance. It felt as though I was being taught by a Master Teacher, gaining wisdom beyond my personal experiences. The transformation was not just internal; it manifested in my interactions with others. I was no longer the dysfunctional individual my family and friends remembered. Instead, I emerged as an independent, conscious, and loving human being, making healthy choices and embarking on a fulfilling career.
The shift in my personal life had profound effects on my relationships. My family, initially scarred by my years of addiction, began to see the new me. The “new me” no longer required their constant concern. I was able to rebuild relationships based on mutual respect and love. My transformation also extended to new friendships and communities where I found acceptance and belonging.
The transformation provided me with a new lens through which to view life. I became active in activities I once loved, such as hiking, backpacking, cycling, and running. These endeavors not only enriched my physical health but also provided the language and context to communicate my spiritual experiences. The new life offered fertile ground for learning, allowing me to glean wisdom from life’s interactions rather than succumb to self-destructive behaviors.
Spiritual awakening is not a one-size-fits-all experience. It’s a deeply personal and often indescribable transformation that can lead to profound changes in one’s life and relationships. My journey from addiction to a spiritually awakened life has taught me that we all have access to inner wisdom that can guide us towards a more fulfilling existence.
If you find yourself yearning for a similar transformation, take the first step towards exploring your inner world. It’s a path filled with challenges but also immense rewards. Seek out your spiritual awakening, and you may discover a life beyond your wildest dreams.
Feel inspired? Connect with others on a similar path and share your stories. Your spiritual awakening could be just around the corner.
Knowing Thyself in a World of Theories
What if I were to tell you that everything you think you know about yourself is only a theory, and potentially an unproven one at that? Consider for a moment that everything you believe about your significant other, your children, your parents, and even your best friends, are similarly unproven theories. What if the entire world around you — the plants, animals, oceans, and even the rocks and dirt — is built on theories that are as fluid and changing as the currents of an ocean?
Now, extend this line of thinking to your beliefs about God, the Bible, Christianity, and other religions. Are these ideas and beliefs grounded in unshakeable facts, or are they constructs of the human mind, subject to the same uncertainties and evolution as any scientific theory? What if all we witness with our senses and reflect upon with our minds are merely evolving constructs, forever shifting under the discerning eye of human consciousness?
At the heart of this inquiry lies the ancient maxim, “Know thyself, and thou will know God, and the Universe,” a wisdom attributed to both Pythagoras and the Oracle at Delphi. This statement captures the essence of our quest for understanding — that true knowledge begins with self-awareness. Understanding oneself is foundational to comprehending the broader realities of life and the universe.
To grapple with self-knowledge, we must discern the nature of our beliefs. Are they rooted in facts, governed by immutable laws, or are they theoretical constructs shaped by cultural narratives and mythological stories? Often, our personal philosophies are an amalgamation of scientific observations, religious teachings, and cultural myths, each contributing to our understanding of reality and our place within it.
Religion and spirituality have served as guides for humanity’s search for meaning and purpose. Yet, they can both illuminate and obscure the path to self-awareness. On one hand, they offer frameworks for understanding the universe and our role in it. On the other, they may impose rigid structures that limit our capacity for insight and personal growth.
Similarly, personal philosophies — the lens through which we interpret our experiences — can either liberate or confine us. To truly “know thyself,” we must scrutinize these lenses, questioning whether they bring clarity or perpetuate illusions.
The path to self-awareness is fraught with obstacles, chief among them being the cultural and familial conditioning that shapes our early lives. From birth, we are immersed in a sea of beliefs, attitudes, and values that define acceptable behavior and thought. Breaking free from these ingrained patterns requires a tremendous depth of desire to understand oneself in a more profound and holistic way.
This journey often involves confronting the suffering, ignorance, and indifference that has conditioned our responses to the world. It demands a willingness to wrestle with both personal and cultural demons and angels, navigating the dualities that exist within and around us.
Insight, the profound understanding of the self, has been the path to higher consciousness since humans first conceived of a unique self and a higher power. This path necessitates a strength of will to traverse the treacherous terrain of transformation, where old beliefs are dismantled, and new understandings emerge.
To develop this capacity for insight, one must cultivate a relentless curiosity and an unwavering commitment to self-exploration. It is a quest that requires us to venture beyond the comfort of our established beliefs, into the sacred silence where true understanding resides.
From the dawn of human civilization, the pursuit of self-awareness has been a central theme in philosophy, religion, and spirituality. The ancient teachings of Pythagoras, the philosophical inquiries of Socrates, the meditative practices of Eastern traditions — all echo the importance of knowing oneself as the key to understanding the universe.
In the modern era, this quest remains as relevant as ever. Amidst the noise of contemporary life, the call to “know thyself” rings with renewed urgency. It invites us to pause, reflect, and engage in the deep work of self-discovery.
In a world overflowing with theories and unproven beliefs, the quest for self-awareness stands as a beacon of clarity. It challenges us to move beyond the superficial understanding of facts and theories, into the deeper realms of insight and transformation. By knowing ourselves, we not only unlock the mysteries of our own existence but also gain a profound understanding of the world and the universe at large.
If you are ready to embark on this path of self-discovery, to confront the theories and beliefs that shape your reality, and to seek the deeper truths that lie within, join me and many others on this transformative journey. Together, we can explore the sacred silence beneath our internal matrix of memories and knowledge, and uncover the true essence of who we are.
Just another obsfucating theory.
The Power of Storytelling and the Search for Truth
“It is what it is, but it is not what it seems.” —Paul Hewson
Let us all be the best that we can be.
Let us all ‘lose our minds,’ and find our truth.
We all love a great story. Those who have developed real insight into stories, who can translate the essence of an experience and convey the emotion of all participating characters through words, become the raconteurs of our culture. These honored storytellers may become famous and beloved novelists, musicians and rock stars, ministers, writers of religious texts, comedians, and playwrights. Whether the story is real or fiction, personal or historical, as long as it entertains, it will keep our attention. The best storytellers know this well, often bending the truth to create compelling narratives.
Storytelling is a powerful tool that shapes our culture, identities, and connections with others. It transcends boundaries, bringing people together on a fundamental human level. Stories serve as vehicles for shared experiences, emotions, and values, forging a collective consciousness. They are a mirror often reflecting societal norms and aspirations, while also acting as a catalyst for change.
While authenticity is highly valued, the best stories often manipulate truth to convey deeper, more universal messages. This duality is inherent in storytelling. There are times when embellishing or altering facts can lead to a more profound understanding or a stronger emotional impact. This does not diminish the value of truth but rather enhances its resonance by making it more relatable and impactful.
The concept of “losing our minds” can be seen as a metaphor for breaking free from conventional thinking and finding personal truth. It’s about challenging the status quo and exploring new perspectives that lead to personal growth and societal progress. This process of deconstruction and reconstruction is vital for discovering deeper truths about ourselves and the world around us.
In today’s world, modern raconteurs—whether they are writers, musicians, or digital content creators—play a crucial role beyond entertainment. They are influencers with the power to reshape narratives and challenge established norms. In an era where information is abundant yet superficial, these storytellers help us sift through the noise to find meaning and connection.
Technology has revolutionized storytelling, offering new opportunities for diverse voices to be heard. The convergence of digital media and storytelling has democratized content creation, distribution, and consumption. Platforms like social media, podcasts, and streaming services have expanded the reach of storytellers, allowing them to engage with global audiences. This technological shift has not only amplified stories but also enriched them with multimedia elements that enhance their impact.
We all create stories about our individual lives and our relationships with others and the world. We also listen intently to the stories told to us by our parents, teachers, religions, history, and society about who we are, who others once were or now are, and who we might aspire to become. Many of our stories, both individually and those created by society, are steeped in illusion, ignorance, half-truths, and outright falsehoods. Far too many stories are illusory dramas about our attempts to control others and our failed attempts at control over our own lives. Yet, these stories have a hypnotic appeal, especially to those who have not undertaken the process of insight and healing.
At some point in our lives, we must begin a “search for truth,” lest our entire life experience be lived without true integrity, the potential for healing, and alignment with reality. Some aspects of life elude effective communication and never get incorporated into our personal stories, adding to the collective conspiracy of silence. Other people’s stories and garbage fill the empty spaces within our own stories, adding to our internal confusion and chaos.
Life was never an easy journey for me. Had it not been for my deep need to understand my dysfunctional process and find the underlying truth amid my personal chaos, I would have long ago been silenced by the disease. Some wounds are so deep and primal that merely pasting new names onto aspects of the disease and creating new stories are not enough. It is each of our responsibilities as conscious human beings to bring our personal truth and stories, no matter how incomplete, to the collective experience. This has resulted in nearly 1000 blog posts, and 12 large books being written by me, so far. Unsurprisingly, the collective has shown very little interest in my experiences and writings about them.
Names and stories are conveniences for communication, never comprehensive enough to reveal the true natures of what they represent. The process of naming is our consciousness’s way of weighing and measuring new forms of life, ideas, and experiences. Naming attaches a dynamic process to a fixed point in time and space, always with a past frame of reference, thus lodging it permanently in the past.
Creating stories and context and conversing about life’s details do not dislodge the detritus from our consciousness. If we need change, we must find a way to see under the vast matrix of details that float on the mind’s surface. Those who choose to name processes and create stories must have personally explored and experienced movements through consciousness and found the Silence at the foundation of our being. Otherwise, the process of naming and the resulting stories are just more intellectual knowledge and entertainment for a superficial mind and will not pry open the healing doors to insight and wisdom.
“Once I had asked God for one or two extra inches in height, but instead, he made me as tall as the sky, so high that I could not measure myself.” —Malala Yousafzai
The intellectual and the atheist, though possessing finely tuned minds, can never explore the mystery and depth of the human soul and comprehend that we all have a connection with Infinity. The willing explorer of new paths of consciousness or the mystic both have access to the limitless territory of the Spirit, soaring to new heights and seeing sights rarely seen by the rest of mankind.
In the end, storytelling is not just about conveying facts but about sharing experiences, emotions, and truths—sometimes even those that lie beyond the realm of conventional understanding. It is an invitation to lose our minds, find our truth, and ultimately connect with the infinite tapestry of human existence.
So, What is Truth? A Journey Beyond Simple Explanations
In our quest for understanding and meaning, we often ask ourselves the profound question,
“What is truth?”
This inquiry is not merely an academic exercise but a deeply personal and existential exploration that varies with each individual’s experiences and cultural narratives. Sometimes, we must remain open to a mystery that far transcends the simple explanations offered by our past and our culture.
Truth is not a fixed destination; it is a continuous, evolving path. My own life has been a testament to this concept. From 1971 through 1987, as a practicing alcoholic and drug addict, I lost most of my freedom of choice. I was part of a group that lived lives of desperation, addiction, and mental illness—a collective march towards suicide.
During those dark years, I was trapped in self-destructive stories and realities that seemed inescapable. Yet, it was through this labyrinth of suffering that I began to understand that truth is a dynamic, ongoing process. It’s a personal journey where beliefs are continuously challenged and evolved.
The stories we tell ourselves and others significantly shape our understanding of truth. When I was lost in addiction, the narrative I clung to was one of hopelessness and despair. These stories were not just personal; they were reinforced by cultural and societal narratives that kept me in a loop of self-destruction.
However, I also discovered life-affirming truths that transformed my reality. By consciously choosing narratives that empower and heal, we can redefine our understanding of truth. The power of narratives lies in their ability to shape our perceptions and, ultimately, our lives.
The process of recovery from addiction is a powerful metaphor for the pursuit of truth. Both journeys require support, self-awareness, and the courage to embrace change. Just as I needed a support system to overcome my addictions, we all need a community that fosters truth-seeking.
Recovery taught me the importance of honesty and vulnerability. To seek truth, we must be willing to confront our deepest fears and insecurities. It’s a path that demands relentless self-examination and the courage to accept uncomfortable truths.
Cultural and societal narratives play a crucial role in shaping our perception of truth. These stories often lead to division and misunderstanding. For example, the story of Armageddon—both as an individual and collective event—becomes very real to those trapped by illusions of powerlessness and despair.
We are susceptible to political and religious propaganda, seeking tribes that offer a sense of safety and purpose, even if it comes at the expense of others. These narratives keep us disconnected from our true selves and perpetuate a limited view of “our people,” reinforcing stereotypes and division.
Honesty and vulnerability are essential in seeking and sharing truth. My spiritual awakening process, which began in 1987, was marked by a newfound commitment to living authentically. I chose to live life more fully, with enhanced personal awareness, good health, and honest expression of all feelings.
By examining my life to its deepest core, I uncovered the sources of my spiritual disease and despair. This introspection allowed me to break free from the conspiracy of silence that had kept me and many others in bondage.
Another layer of the conspiracy of silence exists around the Divine, Higher Power, God, or Truth. Organized religions, intellectual savants, and political powers often obfuscate the truth that underlies all existence. When Pontius Pilate asked Jesus, “What is truth?” Jesus remained silent. This question was intended as mockery, and that principle continues today. Speaking truth to power is not easy, no matter how enlightened one might appear.
Truth is like continuous rainfall upon rocky mountains. It does not immediately displace all the sharp, dangerous edges of ignorance, but over time, it erodes the roughest terrains and exposes deeper layers of existence. Those who are not patient may find themselves mortally wounded by thrusting too aggressively against the monuments of stupidity and ignorance that often control religious, political, and economic powers within civilization.
Those who touch the Infinite relate back to the world the ineffability of the experience, though they are deeply impacted by that contact. The universe of Spirit defies rationality but will eventually speak intelligently through a healed human mind. First, the mind has to be properly prepared and willing to communicate, despite the struggle to interpret or express its energy.
However, if the mind is overburdened by education, knowledge, and cultural inculcation, the Infinite will speak through distorted measures of reality, creating illusion, deception, and delusion. To seek truth, we must unburden our minds and open ourselves to the profound mysteries that transcend simple explanations.
Truth is not a static concept but an evolving, personal, and collective journey. By examining our narratives, overcoming our addictions, and fostering honesty and vulnerability, we can move closer to understanding the profound mysteries of existence. Cultural and societal stories shape our perception of truth, but we have the power to choose life-affirming narratives that heal and unite.
In this ongoing quest for truth, we must remain open to the ineffable and be willing to confront the deep-seated illusions that hinder our progress. By doing so, we can contribute to a collective awakening that transcends division and fosters a deeper, shared understanding of our existence.
If you are on a similar path of seeking truth and overcoming personal and collective challenges, I invite you to share your story and join a community of like-minded individuals committed to growth and healing. Together, we can unravel the mysteries of truth and build a more enlightened and connected world.
A New Story for Humanity and the Planet
In the current age of unparalleled technological advancement and social evolution, we find ourselves standing at a crossroads. The narratives that have shaped our societies—the stories passed through generations about power, identity, and purpose—no longer serve us. Rather, they are leading us toward a path of self-destruction. We need a new story, one that transcends old dogmas and unites humanity around a shared reverence for all life and the planet Earth itself. This story must champion peace, harmony, and collective growth, or we risk losing everything.
Imagine a world where our guiding principles are rooted not in divisive ideologies but in a universal respect for life. This is not a call to abolish existing religions but to transcend them. Imagine a new world religion that honors the Earth as our collective Lord and Savior. This belief system would prioritize the well-being of all living beings and the ecosystems that support them. It would be a narrative that fosters global cooperation, innovation, and sustainable living practices—a path to a harmonious future.
The urgency cannot be overstated. Our planet is in crisis. Biodiversity is declining at an alarming rate, and ecosystems that have sustained life for millennia are collapsing. The current trajectory will lead to an uninhabitable Earth, not just for humans but for countless other species. A shared belief system focused on reverence for life and the planet can drive global efforts to preserve biodiversity and restore ecosystems.
A new story rooted in respect for all life can catalyze unprecedented levels of global cooperation. Imagine governments, corporations, and individuals united in their efforts to combat climate change, reduce pollution, and promote sustainable living. This shared belief system could lead to innovations in renewable energy, sustainable agriculture, and ethical business practices. The potential for positive change is immense, but it requires a collective shift in consciousness.
While global policies and corporate practices play crucial roles, the true power lies within individuals and communities. Each of us has the capacity to embody this new story through our daily actions, values, and decisions. By adopting sustainable habits, supporting ethical businesses, and fostering inclusive communities, we can contribute to a larger narrative of healing and harmony.
The fundamental oppressive force in the human universe is not merely our political, economic, or social systems; it is the human mind itself. If Jesus Christ were alive today, he would likely face crucifixion again. Muhammad and the Buddha would be ignored or attacked in today’s divisive, dark-money-controlled climate. Some argue that it’s time to “punch a Nazi,” in whatever form it takes, but the real task is to master the Nazi within our own minds.
The lies we tell ourselves can become part of our nature. They corrupt our consciousness and trap us in cycles of disease and dysfunction. Unlike TV dramas that resolve issues by the end of an episode, life carries these issues for prolonged periods, sometimes entire lifetimes. We must find ways to dislodge these lies from our bodies and minds. There is no freedom if we do not first see that we are trapped.
We all need a bigger story—one with more heart, higher accuracy, and maximum inclusivity. Pay attention to all narratives, as many have created the mess we must now sort through. Constantly question reality, seek out facts, and avoid accepting statements from authority figures without scrutiny. “Reality” is often just someone else’s opinion about “what is.” A cautious, probing mind is essential to maintaining or re-establishing personal integrity, healing, sanity, and reason.
What is “reality,” and who am I? These questions continually shape new stories. “I am what I am, but I am not what I seem.” Living this life has been both a challenge and a fulfillment. Articulating my unique experience of life and the corruption of human consciousness by selfish agendas has been my salvation. Finding my story and the supportive silence underneath it is the hero’s journey toward healing and integrity.
Leaders in various sectors must champion these principles and integrate them into their policies and practices. Environmentalists, spiritual seekers, and thought leaders have a critical role in co-creating this new narrative. By doing so, they can inspire others to join in the collective effort to honor all life and preserve our planet.
Our bibles, Torahs, Upanishads, and other sacred texts have proved that they are not the final stories of mankind, The need for a new story is evident. It is a story that must honor all life and the Earth itself, fostering peace, harmony, and collective growth. Only by adopting this new narrative can we ensure the survival of our species and the preservation of our planet. The time for change is now; let’s write this new story together.
Awakening to Your True Self: The Path from Darkness to Light
“Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”
— Howard Thurman
In a world overflowing with noise, chaos, and misunderstanding, finding one’s true self can feel like a Herculean task. We’ve been conditioned to live lives dictated by societal norms, often at the expense of our inner peace and true potential. My own life mirrors this struggle—an experience steeped in confusion, addiction, despair, and a relentless quest for meaning. Like many, I was lost, navigating a life that seemed bereft of purpose until a series of profound spiritual transformations redefined my existence.
What are the essences of self-awareness, the powers of personal transformation, and the potentials for broader societal change when individuals align with their true selves?. By weaving my personal narrative with philosophical insights, I hope to offer you a roadmap to a more fulfilling, purposeful life.
The first step toward understanding our innate potential and purpose lies in self-awareness. This conscious recognition of our thoughts, emotions, and behaviors is crucial in distinguishing between our true selves and the conditioned personas we’ve adopted.
In my own journey, the transformation began when I realized that my misunderstanding of life and myself had driven me toward self-destruction. The revelation that there was a disconnect between my conscious and unconscious selves—between the “old me” and the infinite potential within me—was both jarring and liberating. This newfound clarity propelled me to explore the depths of my being, uncovering layers of my true self that had long been buried under societal conditioning.
When we undergo personal transformation, we not only change ourselves but also contribute to a ripple effect that can transform society. My healing experience in 1987 was nothing short of miraculous, leading to the rejuvenation of my body and mind. This newfound enthusiasm for life was palpable to those around me, igniting curiosity and hope in others.
Despite humanity’s collective struggles, my interactions with thousands of people during this period revealed a shared longing for truth and connection. These encounters underscored the importance of seeking out “our people”—those who resonate with our newfound truths and support our growth.
One of the most significant obstacles to personal transformation is the disconnect between our conscious and unconscious selves. This gap manifests as internal conflict, often reflected in our daily lives and interactions. My own experience with drug addiction and despair was a testament to this struggle. It wasn’t until I embraced the spiritual awakening within me that I began to bridge this divide.
During my explorations, I encountered various communities, including the New Age movement, which sought enlightenment through questionable practices and even external objects like crystals. While these tools can be entertaining and beneficial in the short term, they often distract from the true source of power—the enlightened mind itself.
Spiritual awakening plays a pivotal role in overcoming personal challenges and finding fulfillment. My encounter with the “Master Teacher” within me revealed that salvation couldn’t be delivered by external sources; it must be worked out within oneself. This insight marked a turning point in my life, guiding me toward a more inclusive and universal understanding of existence.
Conversations with individuals like Jack, a master teacher and a new age book and crystal store owner, further illuminated the complexities of spiritual and material existence. Jack’s pragmatic yet profound perspective challenged me to reconsider my approach to healing and contributing to the world. I had a truly miraculous healing, and wanted to give something back to the world.
Jack told me to just ignore the world and it’s stupidity, and enjoy my transformation with a respectful distance from the ignorant and uninterested. He told me to just laugh at the stupidity of the world, while living my best life. While working full-time it was fairly easy to follow Jack’s directive. In retirenent, the innate part of myself, the part that is always interconnected with all others, finally called to me loud enough to convince me to share my story with others and to be in our shared spiritual service.
To connect with your true self and live a more authentic, purposeful life, consider the following strategies:
- Cultivate Self-Awareness:
- Practice mindfulness and meditation to observe your thoughts and emotions without judgment.
- Journaling can help you track your progress and gain insights into your patterns.
- Seek Personal Transformation:
- Engage in activities that challenge your current beliefs and expand your horizons.
- Surround yourself with individuals who inspire and support your growth.
- Bridge the Gap Between Conscious and Unconscious Selves:
- Explore therapeutic practices like shadow work to integrate suppressed aspects of yourself.
- Use tools like dream analysis to gain insights into your unconscious mind.
- Embrace Spiritual Awakening:
- Find practices that resonate with you, whether it’s meditation, prayer, or spending time in nature.
- Read spiritual literature that challenges and expands your understanding of existence.
- Practical Engagement:
- Apply your newfound insights to real-life situations, observing how they transform your interactions and decisions.
- Share your experiences with others, fostering a sense of community and mutual growth.
The path to personal transformation and self-awareness is fraught with challenges, yet it holds the promise of profound fulfillment and societal change. By aligning with our true selves, we can contribute to a world that desperately needs individuals who have come alive.
Remember, the world may not always understand or appreciate your transformation, but that shouldn’t deter you from pursuing your truth. Engage with life authentically, laugh at its absurdities, and remain open to the endless possibilities that lie beyond the confines of conventional thinking.
Welcome to the illusion.
Enjoy yourself while you are here.
Discard known conclusions and live from a state of unknowing, where true insight and knowledge are born.
The world needs you—not as a savior, but as a beacon of authenticity and transformation.
(Condensed from a 209 page book).
