Imagine unlocking the doors of perception, peering into realms of the mind previously unexplored, and discovering new pathways to healing and self-discovery. Welcome to the world of psychedelics. Psychedelics, such as ketamine, psilocybin, LSD, MDMA, Ayahuasca, and DMT, have long fascinated humanity with their ability to induce profound experiences.
Psychedelics have a rich history dating back centuries, intertwined with various cultures and spiritual practices. Ancient civilizations, such as the Aztecs and indigenous tribes of the Amazon, incorporated psychedelics into rituals and ceremonies, considering them gateways to divine realms and sources of profound wisdom. By exploring these historical uses, insight may be gained into the enduring fascination and reverence for these substances.
There are many personal stories and case studies available that provide powerful glimpses into the transformative potential of psychedelics. These narratives highlight the deeply profound experiences that individuals have undergone, often leading to insights, emotional healing, and personal growth. While personal stories should not be considered scientific evidence, they offer valuable perspectives on the impact psychedelics have had on many lives.
In the last two years, there have been several articles posted in Psychology Today, and in other scientific, spiritual and healing newsletters, about the possibility of some forms of psychedelics being useful in the treatment of depression and other mood disorders, as well as being an incredible aid to dying patients who may be facing the fear of death. Modern research may be confirming what has already been witnessed by many users of these mind-altering substances over the years.
Psychedelia comes under a different class of psychotropic experience than alcohol, pot, amphetamines, narcotics, or downers. They were referred to as mind-expanding drugs during the period when they were most popular, which began in the 1960s and extended through the 1970s period. I found psychedelics to be extremely challenging to use, yet they brought into my awareness some amazing and logic-defying experiences. I even had exotic, supra-normal types of personal events on several occasions.
The legal status of psychedelics varies across different countries and jurisdictions. While some psychedelics remain classified as Schedule I substances, impeding research and therapeutic use, there are signs of shifting attitudes. In recent years, breakthroughs in scientific research and growing public interest have led to legislative changes, allowing for expanded research and even decriminalization in certain regions.
In the early 1970s, I used LSD (lysergic acid diethylamide) close to twenty times. The trip would last up to 12 hours. I was also introduced to DMT, which was called “the businessman’s LSD” because it only lasted about 2-3 hours (who has the time for an all-day adventure?). I also used peyote once, and mushrooms on several occasions, but I had no extraordinary experiences with their use. LSD worked its magic for me in the 1970s, but I had no intention through its use to permanently erase the ego. Many who used LSD too frequently damaged their mental health, so there is a limit to suspending the ego chemically.
If you need psychedelics, natural or man-made, to get where you want to go spiritually, emotionally and/or physically, proceed with care.
Ram Dass would certainly approve.
Me?
I am not a businessman. I took the long path to my salvation. I know that we each are responsible for our spiritual salvation, not an ancient prophet or savior, or any new drug. My experience tells me that we each need to work long, and hard, to achieve our spiritual goals. No one will do this work for us. Our ego is not the enemy, as ignorance, self-delusion, and stupidity are the real culprits. Intelligence formed from listening to the silence within and having that insight inform our knowledge and memories will bring salvation to our planet, and to ourselves. Negating the value of the ego rather than fine-tuning it will not accomplish anything significant, other than further damaging one’s sense of self-esteem.
Work with integrity upon your traumas.
Work with integrity upon your spiritual path.
If you can’t find the sacred silence without Nature’s help, then, by all means, take advantage of her magic.
But beware of the consequences of bringing a highly chaotic mindset to this process. I recommend that you first have experienced a measure of healing. Otherwise, you may not find what you are looking for, except more chaos..
I never saw the use of LSD or psychedelics as dangerous or self-destructive, but instead as a delightful and eye-opening vacation from all of the dark certainties and crystallized structures of thought that characterized my troubled early life. It all depends on the state of the mind, and our intentions, to determine if the use of mind-altering chemicals is to be considered drug abuse or part of an evolutionary healing consciousness.
Psychedelics, and their use, could take a whole volume if I were to describe and define all of my experiences with them over the period 1972-1980. I used LSD and mescaline during my high school years over twenty times, from early 1972 through the summer of 1973. In college, I did not use them hardly at all, nor did I use them much after that, perhaps using them once or twice a year until 1980, when I ceased their usage..
The first time that I used LSD I was a sophomore in high school. I had no desire to ever use the drug as I was afraid of the potential effects on me. But, my sister Pam’s friend, Terry P., gave me a small pill that had been saturated with LSD liquid to give to her. Pam, at this point in her life, had no desire for the drug, so she gave it back to me and told me to return it to Terry. I kept it and then decided to try an ever-so-small amount of it, in case I had a dangerous reaction to it. I grabbed a razor blade, and scraped about one-fourth off of the pill, and ingested it, and then took a bus to downtown Portland, to hang out at the city library. An amazing feeling overtook me about one hour later. I became euphoric, and I had never felt so good in my life! I felt peace, and love for everybody and everything, and being only fifteen years old and having never experienced such an energy before, I thought that I had found the promised land. There were no visual or auditory hallucinations, because the dose was so low, and that was just fine with me. It took longer than usual to sleep that night, as my mind remained on high alert well into the early morning hours. There was no hangover nor did I regret taking the risk of using the drug.
Another time, while still a sophomore in high school, I attended a concert at Washington Park, where a man sold me something called DMT, which he called the businessman’s LSD because its effects only lasted 2-3 hours, versus the 10-13 hours LSD’s effects may cause. I became euphoric on this drug, and I had a fascinating experience. Every person that I would encounter for the next two hours, I felt an incredible kinship with. I also felt as if I could understand them at some level way beyond my normal capacity. It was as if I was able to feel all of their good thoughts, so to speak. So, it was an experience of the elimination of fear for me when dealing with strangers, and it gave me the sense of being connected with everybody at a level impossible to achieve while in a normal state. A more sedate and sane variation of this experience was to come to me more naturally fifteen years later, after recovery from drug addiction and alcohol abuse .
While a senior in high school I had another LSD experience worth commenting upon, when Marc A., Mike K. and I took LSD together. Mike had already dropped out of high school, and had his own “rat castle” so we enjoyed LSD’s effects at Mike’s place, out of public view. One amazing effect was that somehow Marc and I became entrained so that we would see the same hallucinations at the same time. I was now taking the drug in high enough doses that hallucinations were quite prominent. One of the biggest prolonged laughs that we all had together was when Mike turned into the Devil himself, with red horns, a tail, and a red face. Of course, Mike could not see it, but Marc and I saw him transform Exactly at the same time, and we could not stop laughing for ten minutes!!
One final experience that seems to have significance is one time I had secured a variation of LSD called Orange Sunshine while attending a summer concert at Delta Park in north Portland. The pill itself was a small phosphorescent orange color, and boy did it pack a wallop! Any kind of visual image or scene had the likelihood of changing into almost anything else, seemingly spontaneously. When I say that the walls were melting at times, if I was in a room, the walls did melt with the most wonderful synesthesia of blending colors and sounds. My psychological set was eliminated as well, meaning all of my personality was no longer accessible, so I was witnessing and experiencing the moment without my normal ways of experiencing reality through my conditioning. It was an incredible, disorienting, wild, and transformative experience while under LSD’s influence. I was to have a drug-induced awakening where I realized that I was the one controlling my very reality, and through the focus of my will and my heart, I could change what I was witnessing in the world. This took on rather bizarre manifestations, with colors swirling through new images, sometimes appearing as if some sort of internal kaleidoscope were projecting images out into my visual field, ALL UNDER MY CONTROL.
When I saw how I could also experience people in a thousand different ways, depending on the position of my internal kaleidoscope, I came to realize that I had a lot more say in how I experienced my fellow man than I ever realized. I can understand why Richard Alpert (Ram Dass), Timothy Leary, Bill Wilson, and so many other pioneers in the modern-day exploration of human consciousness have used LSD. LSD, under the right conditions, can reveal the awesome powers and potential of the unconditioned human mind. It can be temporarily transformational and quite beautiful, and, potentially, dangerous, as well.
I found that the older I got, the less of a positive experience that I had with psychedelics so I stopped all use. In 1980, I used LSD for the last time, sharing the experience with Dan Dietz. I had trouble coming down from the experience, and it took two days to return to my normal psychological set. That second day, I feared that I would never return to normal and that I would be stuck for the rest of my life in this in-between state of anxiety and mental illness. I was never tempted to use LSD again.
While there is a huge potential upside to the use of psychedelics, there can also be a downside to their use, and the person contemplating mind-altering drugs should research this subject, as if for an upper graduate degree. There are Ayahuasca excursions into the Amazon jungle, and now, local retreats, where shamans administer a concoction to the participants seeking a deeper understanding of their own life, and their spiritual connection with the absolute. Many, many suffering, dying people with death terrors, and addicts, alcoholics, and mentally ill human beings can greatly benefit from this form of therapy.
There are terminally ill patients therapeutically using psychedelics, which has been shown to reduce or eliminate “death terrors” for such patients, while also providing profound guidance for those terminally ill persons. Those seeking such experiences can find appropriate therapists who have access to these drugs and are willing to administer them to the appropriate patient, but they don’t advertise these capabilities on their websites.
I do not regret ever having used a psychedelic drug. As there are logical reasons for using them again, I am now considering them as viable therapeutic options. There are many great stories now available about the use of psychedelics in therapeutic and quasi-therapeutic settings.. It is not my intention to become just another cheerleader for those who want to use or continue to use them. Yet, through writings such as this I may become perceived as a proponent for the human experimentation of these mind-altering substances and their potential application for improving mental health and spiritual awareness.
So be it.
Psychedelics worked for me with the intentions, or lack of them, that I entertained for their use in the 1970s. The positive aspects of mind expansion without drugs have occurred for me in adulthood, and I value all such mind-altering and expanding experiences that have led to enhanced insight, wisdom, and healing for me. From 1987 through 2022, I was satisfied with my connection to the higher power that I had developed through the practice of meditation and mindfulness, exercise, healthy food, and social connections.
Bill Wilson of AA renown, 20 years after his own recovery from alcoholism in 1935, engaged in psychedelic therapy for his chronic depression, beginning in 1955. He believed that this therapy would be of great benefit to those recovering people who could not find, or experience, God (or Cosmic Energy, Spirit, Higher Power, etc). Deepak Chopra, the ever popular spiritual teacher, is also a strong proponent of this mind opening intervention. Gabor Mate, Dick Schwarz, and other internationally known healers are firmly in support of this form of healing.
I attended my first PIR (psychedelics in recovery) meetings at the Alano Club, Portland on Thursday, October 12th, 2023. I also attended my first AA meeting in that same recovery house in 1981. I have attended nearly a thousand meetings there from 1984 through the early 1990’s. I have extensive experience and training in recovery issues. I have had a few relapses over the intervening years between 1980 and now, with the most dangerous ones in the 1980s while I was still unconscious. I have finally learned how to not fear alcohol consumption, but, instead, to practice mindful drinking, when I choose to consume such beverages. I still enjoy long periods of abstinence from drinking alcohol, whenever my spirit calls for a break. One of my longest breaks was 19 years, which ended when I had a malignant melanoma diagnosis in 2005. This led to a period in my life where I abused oxycontin to the point of needing two years of therapy to heal from that humbling experience.
Abstinence from intoxicating, mind numbing drugs and practicing mindful drinking is part of a new understanding of recovery for me. But the biggest and most profound part of recovery is enhancing my spiritual connection, and embracing an indigenous/shamanic, Christian mystical, personal inquiry and insight practice coupled with continued 12 Step work ,and a Zen Buddhist approach to viewing reality. This conscious work began in 1971 when I first practiced meditation, and 1972 when I first listened to Alan Watts, the Zen Buddhist master. Watts’ death in 1973, and drug addiction and alcohol abuse took me away from all practices when I entered college.
My usage of LSD in the early 1970’s revealed to me a vast, creative beauty embodied within the unexplored regions of my consciousness. But, at those late teenage years when I first used LSD, I did not have sufficient spiritual/emotional maturity with its enhanced context to support continued expanding consciousness.
Sharon and I have been studying therapeutic applications and the benefits of psychedelics for years. Microdosing of psilocybin began for my wife and I late in 2022. I had my first journey with a facilitator in October of 2022, with dramatic and healing insights gained into the wounds that early trauma, and then culturally acquired trauma, left upon my heart/soul. This has allowed me to explore new paths of healing from an auto-immune disorder that has recently plagued me. I am not rejecting Western Medicine, yet using expensive medications with side-effects for the rest of my life is an unappealing option. If I can reach in consciousness the source of my dysfunction, I may be able to remove the factor(s) that encourage the continuance of my auto-immune disorder.
We continue to move in greater circles of understanding and towards our own infinite unfolding as conscious beings. Inquiring minds such as our own want to know what are the best options for healing from trauma/ptsd, enhanced brain health, and continuous spiritual growth, while receiving positive social support, rather than negative judgments from others. We are now in contact, and have befriended, several facilitators of this mode of healing and insight. All the healing potential in the world has zero value, unless we access it, and put it into real-life practice.
While psychedelics show promise for mental health and personal growth, it is essential to be aware of potential risks and safety considerations. Psychedelic experiences can be intense and emotionally challenging, requiring careful preparation, adequate support, and a suitable environment. Risks include adverse psychological reactions, potential exacerbation of pre-existing conditions, and interactions with certain medications. It is crucial to approach psychedelics with respect, informed guidance, and a thorough understanding of individual factors and contraindications.
The potential of psychedelics for healing and insight is a compelling field of research and exploration. From their historical use in ancient cultures to the current resurgence of interest in therapeutic applications, psychedelics offer a unique lens into the human mind and its capacity for growth and transformation. As research continues to unfold and legal barriers evolve, it is an exciting time for individuals, mental health professionals, and researchers alike to explore the potential benefits of these substances.
Nature is a true healer. Mankind’s separation from Nature, and disrespect and disregard for its human/animal body is what creates many diseases, forms of mental illness, wayward politics and religions and Capitalism. Be careful when you follow the masses, for often the “m” is silent. When many are hypnotized by the same delusion, it is called mass hypnosis, which includes many religions, and, of course, Capitalism.
My advise to all is use extra caution when the latest trends, or even resurgence of ancient ones, captivate the attention of the general public, including within politics, religion, spirituality and psychedelic use.
