Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keeps the law, happy is he.—Proverbs 29:18

I am still not sure what the greatest threat to our country might be: Donald Trump, or COVID-19.  If we continue to be exposed to both threats, we are fucked for sure! The corona virus, and Donald Trump, have much in common. They both threaten to tank our economy, and destroy hundreds of thousands of lives. Trump and the COVID-19 epidemic go together like a horse and carriage, don’t they? Their compromised relationship has the potential to destroy civilization, democracy, and our individual lives, and they are both inextricably linked to each other now. 

Where is integrity and truth with our POTUS, as well?

Why does America continue to support incompetence and treachery in their leaders? Trump’s callous disregard of the threat of covid-19, and his failure to marshal all of our national and international resources early on in the fight against this threat shows incompetence, and borders on treason.  Donald Trump has no vision other than the ATM screen of his own disfigured mind, so self-promotion, divisiveness, and dishonesty will continue to characterize his relationship with this deadly disease, and with the American public.  Hypnotism, cultism, and ignorance have grabbed far too many people by the short hairs, and their allegiance to this human devil takes what little vision from them that they may have had.  So many hopes and dreams are now being crushed by this disease, both from COVID-19 and Donald Trump, that our collective heart is vulnerable to breaking apart.

We are almost powerless in the face of this impending catastrophe. Our leadership has failed us. We must not now fail each other, and we must continue to support each other at the highest level that our hearts will allow for, and that we can be present with in total integrity and honor. We must continue to love one another, and to also be prepared to let go of all that once was important to us. Life is important, yet love and connection to our human family is of ABSOLUTE IMPORTANCE. Don’t ignore our neighbors, our friends, or our families, PLEASE!

Trump Related Extreme Anxiety STRIKES OUR NATION   (TREASON, in case you did not notice).

I have a pony in this race, as I have tobacco and marijuana compromised lungs (from my under age 30 excesses), resulting in susceptibility to bronchitis and pneumonia, and, now, covid-19, in my mid 60’s. Trump’s response to this crisis has been criminally negligent, at the most important of times. So has the response of many of my “fellow Americans”.

It truly is about to become a “survival of the fittest” evolutionary phenomenon. The man now leading our country is not fit to be president, and I AM FIT TO BE TIED that I have to continue to witness this lying sack of poo-poo who continuously tries to convince America of his own personal righteousness. His dog and pony show supporting his declaration of a national emergency and his “acts” of addressing this catastrophe has made me want to vomit. He lies, deceives, manipulates, obfuscates, cheats, and continues to be adored by the Fox news watching idiots of our country.
Survival of the fittest. Who will survive? What does it mean to be “fit”?

Stay tuned.

It is about to become the end of the world for many innocent people.

It is hard for me to feel fine about mass death and suffering.   

For a little musical interlude, I will let the rock and roll gods REM sing about their understanding of an END for you.

It’s the end of my world as I knew it. All future visits to athletic clubs, concerts, movie theaters, and groups of people greater than ten people, and association with people known to have traveled to virus infested areas are on full suspension.  My wife and I are now practicing self-quarantine.  I have just cancelled important eye surgery that was scheduled for March 17th.  I can’t see taking any extra risks that might expose myself or my wife to those who are carriers of the disease.

Panic buying with my fellow stressed Oregonians at Costco are now OUT! (Thursday’s shopping experience was just plain fucking amazing, and troubling, with hordes of people gathering products that they think will help them over the hump).

i am not ready to die, yet I know that all things, including death, are possible. Our country is woefully unprepared for this, and our corrupt President Trump must carry the blame for this one. This is happening on his watch, and he remains more concerned with economics and the preservation of his self-image, than with human lives. He monetized reality, and now WE ARE ALL GOING TO PAY THE COST.

In 2018 Trump Fired CDC’s Entire Pandemic Response Team.

The potential for an American tragedy is huge. Had Donald Trump not disbanded the CDC’s pandemic response team two years ago (to spite Obama), we would not be entering into this territory blind and stupid.

Trump is the anti-Christ, a demon in the disguise of our President. Mike Pence believes that the AIDS virus was created by God to punish homosexuals, and drug addicts (TRUE STORY, I did the research). I can only wonder if they think that COVID-19 is God’s punishment for a wicked world, the wicked Democrats and contrary media, or for the wicked seniors trying to collect their Medicare and Social Security.

As many of us are in the most vulnerable group of humans (60 years and older), becoming aware of the risks, and planning for constructive responses to the growing threat, is appropriate and necessary. This is NOT FEAR BASED behavior, but instead a rational approach to our new age. We all would prefer to live out our lives and die of other, non-corona virus related causes. With the Stock Market tumbling, the survivors may have to exit retirement, and return to the working world to recover assets.

I really am not yet ready to die, yet I know that such an outcome is now possible for me, and for many of those who I love.

A month ago I awoke in the middle of the night to a traumatic event. As I abruptly arose from bed, I grabbed a breath of air, with an extreme sense of distress, and then panic. I thought that I was dying from an apparent lack of oxygen. My mind tends to pick up the vibrations from other people’s life experiences through intense empathetic connection, so just know that you do not want COVID-19, and we all should do all that we can to avoid exposure. The last time that I had this type of unusual experience, one of our best friends died.

Our breath is just too precious to give up.. So is our lives. Please give up your excess public exposure for at least the next two to four weeks, and increase the time if it becomes apparent that the pandemic has not abated.  We all will eventually breath easier because of the sacrifices that are being made right now.

Our household continues to stay in touch with family and friends, especially the more vulnerable ones.  I continue to feed our ducks, our multiple variety of birds including crows and blue jays, and our squirrels.  Sharon and I are now practicing several workouts at home that we used to participate in group formats at our local 24-Hour Fitness Club.

I hope that I will be able to continue to help my spiritual companions, be they human, aviary, or mammalian in nature.  I am here to help, until I am no more.

And, I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE ANY OF YOU.

Trust in God, but tie up your camel!-—-Mohammed 

Do not trust in our government, or our national leaders.  Shelter in place, wash hands, keep a safe distance from others, and keep informed.  TIE UP YOUR CAMEL!

Click on the black rectangle for a clip from the classic TV program Cheers.

Categories: Musings

Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.