Exploring the Mystical Realms–Dreams as a Gateway to Self-Healing and Empowerment

     Have you ever found yourself captivated by the enigmatic world of dreams?  Are dreams just whispers from our biology, creations sprung from dreamtime imaginations, windows to our subconscious minds, hints of wisdom from our higher power,  portals to other people’s lives, or even remote viewing of our past lives?  We have all probably experienced vivid dreams that felt so real, they lingered in our mind long after we woke up. Or maybe we’ve felt an unexplainable connection with the spiritual realm, leaving us wondering about the mysteries of life and existence. By embarking on a journey into the mystical realm of dreams, spirits, and past lives, we can dive in and explore the extraordinary possibilities that await us.

     Since the dawn of time, dreams have been a source of mystery and fascination. They are the stories our minds weave while we sleep, tales that often escape the grasp of our waking consciousness. But what are dreams really for? Are they critical cogs in the machine of our biological existence or do they serve a purpose beyond the physical realm?  It is enlightening to explore dreams through various lenses – biological, psychological, neurological, and spiritual – to delve into the origins and value of this nocturnal phenomenon.

     Neurologically, dreams are a consequence of brain activity during REM sleep. Studies with brain scans have shown that certain areas of the brain – like the amygdala, involved in processing emotions, are active during this state. Some neuroscientists speculate that dreaming is a byproduct of these electrical impulses and serves no direct purpose. However, other theories suggest dreaming could be a way the brain processes emotions or encodes memories.  Research has even linked specific types of brain activity with the content of dreams. Scans have shown that the visual cortex’s activity may relate to the vivid imagery of dreams, whereas the limbic system’s activation might correlate with the emotional content.

     On a more mystical plane, many believe that dreams hold spiritual significance, acting as messages from the divine and/or the subconscious. Dreams often weave intricate symbolisms that many spiritual traditions interpret as signposts for guidance, warnings, or insights into one’s deep self.  Cultures throughout history have used dreams to make decisions or predict future events. A comparative analysis across cultures shows that despite the vast differences in interpretation, many agree on the potent spiritual value of dreams. Personal stories abound of individuals claiming that dreams led to life-transforming realizations and decisions, implying a higher significance to these nighttime visions.

     What then are the origins of dreams? Evolutionary theories suggest dreams might have assisted our ancestors in survival, giving them a ‘safe space’ to simulate dangerous situations and practice responses. As cultures evolved, so did the understanding and appreciation of dreams, imbuing them with religious and spiritual importance.  Yet the real value of dreams might not lie in any one perspective but rather in the interplay of all. They can be as much about biological programming as they are about confronting psychological truths or connecting with the universe’s deeper mysteries.

     Clearly, dreams are multifaceted in their significance and importance. They are a nexus where our biological, psychological, neurological, and spiritual selves meet. Well beyond mere scientific curiosity, this intersection offers rich insights into the complexities of human consciousness and experience. With each dream we remember upon waking, we glimpse a reflection of our inner workings – and potentially, the essence of what it means to be human.

     We all dream, whether we recall them, or not.  Often, those who can recall their dreams have no context with which to interpret them, and the dreams are often  just casually dismissed.  But there are many of us who have developed a context of understanding for our dream works, and pay keen attention to them.

Sharon found this note that I had written while “asleep” in 2007. It was hidden in a dream journal that was found in our suitcase on our trip to Japan in 2019.  Since then, I have had several experiences touching the psychic and occult levels of human experience.  I prefer to “project” into happier environments, in both waking and sleeping environments.

    My dreams have always been an important part of my life, and I consider them as messages from the many facets of my Self. Dreams have long been regarded as a window into my subconscious and a channel for personal healing. They have illuminated hidden emotions, offered guidance, and even facilitated profound personal transformations. In two.  I have encountered instances where I felt a deep and inexplicable connection with a spirit of a deceased friend or family member in my dreams. The experiences I’ve had, along with countless anecdotes from others, reinforce the belief that dreams can serve as a conduit for spiritual connections.

  In two separate instances, I had dreams that seemed to reveal fragments of past life experiences. These dreams were so vivid and emotionally charged that it compelled me to seek interpretation and explore the concept of past lives further. I have stepped into a dream and found myself in an unfamiliar time and place, experiencing events that felt oddly familiar. These dreams, perhaps, offer glimpses into our previous incarnations, or even into the lives of others who we never knew.. Some believe that these dreams provide insights into our present lives, shedding light on unresolved issues or patterns that continue to influence us. Exploring dreams as windows into past or other lives presents an opportunity for self-reflection, self-discovery, and a deeper understanding of our existence.

      It is important to remember that dreams, spirit connections, and past lives are deeply personal experiences. Each individual’s journey is unique, and interpretations will vary. What may hold profound meaning for one person may not resonate with another. Embracing the infinite possibilities of the mystical realm encourages us to approach these experiences with an open mind and a sense of wonder.

    I am not a religious person, though I have joined with the community of many theologians who believe that dreams are one of God’s (or, Higher Power, Universe, Healing, Spirit, Grandfather Great Spirit, The One, etc.)primary ways of getting our attention. In the absolute, there is little difference between what we experience through our dreams and through our so-called waking reality. Awake or asleep, internally we respond in real time to what we witness as if both experiences have equal footing in reality. So could God/Truth be trying to tell us something while we are sleeping?

Key Takeaways:

  • Dreams possess transformative powers, offering avenues for personal healing and self-discovery.
  • Dreams can provide windows into past lives, offering insights and lessons for our present existence.
  • Channeling spirits through dreams can provide a profound connection with tspiritual realm.
  • Personal experiences and interpretations of dreams and spirit connections contribute to an individual’s spiritual growth.

    As we navigate the beautifully complex realm of dreams, spirits, and past lives, let us embrace the mysteries that unfold before us. Each dream, each spirit encounter, and each realization serves as a building block in our spiritual journeys. So, let us continue to explore, learn, and grow, as we unravel the extraordinary possibilities that lie within the mystical realm.

Here are seven spiritually significant dreams that may be more than meets the mind’s eye…

1. Visitation Dreams

It’s common to have a visitation dream after a loved one passes. The deceased often appear in bodily form, healthy and luminous, in order to communicate an important message: “I’m okay.”, or “There is nothing to fear about death”. I have had several of these dreams over the years, with my most recent experience revolving around the recent death of a good friend.

2. Prophetic Dreams

Our brains have built-in predictive hardware and algorithms, so it should be no surprise that we can prophesize, in both iur awake and sleeping times. Many people have had a “dream that came true.” Our dreams may use our past experiences to produce a probable series of future events—showing us patterns that help us make better choices when we’re awake. I have had several dreams that have predicted EXACTLY events that were to happen, yet they remain unreliable predictors of the future, because the future is always changing, depending upon changes made in the present.

3. Warning Dreams

God—and our body—can sometimes speak in dreams to warn us about imminent danger, especially regarding health. We may dream of a specific body part or even receive a verbal warning. In a 2015 study of women diagnosed with breast cancer, 83 percent had dreams that were more vivid than normal. And 44 percent reported hearing specific words like “breast cancer” or “tumor.”

4. Healing Dreams

These are the internal creations that bring us from an “out of balance” place into “harmony and balance.” They often involve a mystical encounter. I have experienced many healing dreams, I had one amazing dream with my deceased grandpa Henry which, to this day, inspires and confounds me.

5. Heavenly Dreams

According to a 1989 study, more than half of healthy young adults who dreamed of death spent a significant amount of time in that dream in heaven. These dreamers sometimes go down a tunnel or pathway and arrive at heavenly destinations. They also frequently encounter deceased loved ones. I have had dreams where I have heard the songs and sounds of the “angels of heaven”, carrying a message of beauty beyond my ability to describe or define.

6. Mutual Dreams

A mutual dream is when two people—typically in separate locations—dream of the same thing at the same time. According to a 2017 study, shared dreams are 80 percent identical on average. They often occur between close friends or relatives. Interestingly, 4 percent of these dreams are shared by strangers. A most profound realization and insight may come to the dreamer, that the collective mind of man dreams through individuals, and individuals dream through the collective mind of mankind. We are one, after all, you and I.

7. Projection Dreams

In 2007, I was able to see that my sense of self had to include the much more expansive collective self that we all share as being conscious members of the human race.  In a dream, I was shown how all of us may project ourselves into another human beings’ experience in our dream world, and experience their version of reality for a moment or two.

If you have ever awakened from a dream, shaking from the experience of living in a very real, but alien, life experience, you have walked across the mysterious threshold into a higher dimension of understanding our self. Wisdom and insight are available through our “dream channels”. Atheists and agnostics have the same capacity as the saints, as far as the ability to access dream wisdom goes. We are much closer than we presently believe, and our beliefs keep us more separate as a human beings, than together as spiritual beings..

Whose Life Is It Anyway?  Revisiting the Mysteries of Consciousness

Could dreams be the portals to other people’s lives? Could they even link us to our own past lives?

Dreams have always been a fascination for humanity. They are the theater where our subconscious mind performs, weaving stories that can be both mundane and extraordinary. But what if these nightly narratives are more than just figments of our imagination? What if they are, in fact, gateways to other dimensions of experience—perhaps even to past lives?

I once kept a dream journal, a practice that became profoundly more meaningful after I misplaced it for over a decade. When I rediscovered it, one entry, in particular, stood out—a series of dreams I had in April 1987, shortly after achieving sobriety. These dreams were unlike any others, leaving an indelible mark on my psyche.

In the first dream, I was an early teenager named Bobby Clements, hanging out with a group of friends. The second dream saw us enlisting for WWII, promising the recruiter we would serve, only if we could be kept together. Finally, in the third dream, I was piloting an aircraft with my friends as crew, flying into anti-aircraft shelling. The turbulence was fatal, and the dream ended with the certainty of our imminent demise.

The name Bobby Clements haunted me. I researched extensively, traveling to Philomath, Oregon, but found no concrete information. Decades later, my sister, a firm believer in reincarnation, discovered Robert “Bobby” Kelly Clements of Nova Scotia. His story mirrored my dreams.

This personal experience aligns intriguingly with the findings of the Division of Perceptual Studies at the University of Virginia School of Medicine. Their work on children recalling past lives offers compelling evidence that challenges the conventional boundaries of individual experience and the linear progression of life.

These case studies suggest that consciousness may not be as individualized and isolated as traditionally thought. Instead, they propose a shared human repository of experience, accessible through dreams or other means. This notion invites us to reconsider our understanding of identity and experience.

If dreams can indeed serve as portals to past lives or other people’s experiences, the implications for our understanding of consciousness are profound. It suggests a level of interconnectedness that transcends the physical boundaries of life and death. This perspective could revolutionize how we approach mental health and well-being, offering new avenues for healing and self-discovery.

While the concept of reincarnation has long been relegated to the realm of religion and philosophy, the empirical evidence gathered by institutions like the University of Virginia demands a broader interpretative lens. Rather than dismissing these phenomena as pseudoscience, we should encourage rigorous exploration.

Psychometry and telepathy offer additional pathways to understanding these experiences. The possibility that individuals can access memories, emotions, and experiences of others—whether living or deceased—suggests a collective consciousness that defies current scientific explanation.

The reluctance to bridge the gap between the empirical and the experiential often hinders our understanding of phenomena that don’t fit neatly into established scientific paradigms. By acknowledging the potential of dreams as portals to past lives and by rigorously studying these phenomena, we inch closer to grasping the essence of consciousness itself.

In a world where the known and the unknown dance around the edges of scientific understanding, the work of institutions like the Division of Perceptual Studies serves as a beacon. It guides us toward a future where the exploration of consciousness and the interconnectedness of our lives are not just acknowledged but celebrated.

Could your nightly dreams be tapping into a shared human consciousness? The exploration is just beginning. Let’s walk this fascinating path together, challenging conventional thinking and encouraging spiritual growth.

I researched Bobby Clements substantially for two months (prior to advent of the internet) later in 1987.  I drove to Philomath, Oregon with my wife Sharon, researching the Clements family there, but came up short.

Several decades later, my sister took up the search for me.  My sister is a STRONG BELIEVER in reincarnation, and she has memories from her own past life experiences.

In her research, she came up with Robert “Bobby” Kelly Clements, of Nova Scotia, Canada.. Robert flew a Lancaster bomber for the RAF out of England, and he was allowed to hand pick his crew, according to the records. He picked his five Nova Scotia friends!

His story was identical to what I saw in the three dream sequence, according to the family reports that she had read about “Bobby”, too.

Umm, Bobby was an electrician prior to his enlistment.  As an eight year old, I wanted to become an electrician more than anything, save becoming an Air Force pilot.  I had a full ride scholarship to the Air Force, was in the ROTC at the U of Portland, then dropped out due to my first wife’s severe health issues.

I eventually retired, as an electrician, in 2016,.

I tried to commit suicide in 1986, when I finally realized that my childhood dreams of being, first an Air Force pilot, and then an astronaut, were never, ever to be realized in this incarnation.

Eerie!

Here is my letter to my sister, acknowledging the experience:

Pam,
     Fascinating to see the photographs, and to hear his story.
Sounds like a match!  It is so sad, but it explains so much about
my childhood attraction to bomber planes (I built every version of WWII bombers available in plastic model kits)
12 O clock high, the program about B17 bombers over Germany, was one of my childhood favorites.
The three dreams, on three consecutive nights, were unsettling.
I have ultimate respect, and empathy, for these warriors.
I am also quite saddened.
Thanks!
Love,
your little brother.

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The Transformative Power of Childhood Dreams

Lake Titicaca Peru-Bolivia-South-America

Dreams are windows to our innermost selves, providing glimpses into our subconscious minds and offering profound insights into our waking lives. In early childhood, dreams can be especially powerful, shaping our understanding of the world and our place within it. I now explore one such dream that has remained a guiding force throughout my life, shedding light on the influence of cultural and familial perspectives, the concept of self-awareness and spiritual awakening, and the remarkable experiences that can arise from a quest for answers.

At the tender age of eight, I experienced a dream so vivid, so real, that it has stayed with me to this day. During a time when sleep was elusive and nightmares were all too common, this dream stood out as a beacon of self-discovery and transformation. In it, a priest returned to his village in the high mountains, having received a directive from “on high.” He gathered the villagers and instructed them to cast every golden figurine and sacred symbol into the lake, then face the “evil one” without any protection or care from their gods.

The priest himself stripped bare, summoning the forces of darkness and engaging in a fierce battle with an unknown adversary. His energy waned as he struggled to overcome the dark force, and just as he collapsed, the face of the evil one began to materialize before him, revealing an undeniable truth—it might be his own.

At the time, I lacked the knowledge to fully comprehend the dream’s significance. I turned to my older sister, Pam, who at ten years old already claimed knowledge of reincarnation and psychic experiences. Her insights, though partial, provided some answers but left many mysteries unresolved. This familial exchange highlights the crucial role of older siblings and family narratives in shaping our interpretation of dreams and the beliefs we carry into adulthood.

The dream also marked the beginning of a deeper self-awareness and spiritual awakening. The priest’s struggle against the dark force can be seen as a metaphor for the battle between good and evil within ourselves. The realization that the face of the evil one might be his own reflects a profound understanding of personal identity and the duality of human nature.

Three years later, while studying World Geography in the 7th grade, I encountered the Incan civilization and Lake Titicaca, a sacred lake on the border between Peru and Bolivia. This discovery ignited a sense of familiarity and an insatiable curiosity about the Incan people and their lore. I devoured every book I could find on the subject and dreamed of one day traveling to Peru to seek answers and experience its culture firsthand.

In 2014, I finally fulfilled that dream by traveling to Peru, where I had a remarkable experience that resonated deeply with my early dream. This journey of self-discovery underscored the importance of physically visiting places that feature in recurring dreams and the potential for these experiences to offer a sense of closure or deeper understanding of oneself.

My dream at eight years old was more than just a fleeting vision; it was a catalyst for a lifelong quest for knowledge and self-awareness. It taught me that dreams have the power to transform our understanding of the world and ourselves, and that the pursuit of answers can lead to remarkable experiences that resonate deeply with our earliest memories and interests.

If you find yourself grappling with dreams that challenge your understanding of good and evil, or personal identity, consider the possibility that they may be guiding you toward a deeper truth. Embrace the journey of self-discovery, seek answers, and allow your dreams to illuminate the path to spiritual growth and understanding.

Are you ready to explore the transformative power of your own dreams? Connect with a community of dream analysts and spiritual seekers, and begin or continue your journey of self-discovery. 

May 12, 2016 Dream

My wife Sharon has known June Thomas since the 1970’s when they were neighbors in southwest Portland. I have always loved June. I have known June since 1990, when she was married to Victor (Victor died in 1996). We have spent many, many hours vacationing together, with several great hiking trips together, and one great rafting adventure through the Grand Canyon in 2014.. I sometimes had the feeling that June was some sort of spiritual sister of mine, perhaps a feminine variation of my soul, because we had so much in common. I actually lived with June in her Tacoma home for four months in 2003, when I was relocated to the Puget Sound Naval Shipyards for an electrical installation job where I helped to install a server farm for the US Navy.

June and Sharon in Las Vegas, 2017

I would like to share an interesting dream that I had in May of 2016. June, who now lives in Tucson, Arizona was visiting her sick brother Dale in Medford, Oregon, for a week in May of 2016. On a Friday evening in May, I awoke from a strange, disturbing dream. In the dream, I had fallen in an unfamiliar bathroom, and had become trapped between the toilet and the wall. When Sharon awoke, I told her about the unusual dream. It was so real to me that I was a little shaken up. Later that morning, June called Sharon, as she frequently does in the morning. June related to Sharon that she was still at Dale’s house, and that his health was not good. In the middle of the night, Dale had gone to the bathroom, fallen, and became trapped between the toilet and the wall!!! As I look at my life’s history, I am amazed by the dreams from its Mystery COINCIDENCE?

Are dreams really just fantasies? Do we have the capacity to extend our awareness beyond the limits of our five senses? Well, I know the answers to those questions, but your answers may be different.

Finding Meaning in Dreams and Loss

Grief and loss touch all our lives at some point, often leaving us searching for meaning and understanding. In 2017, I experienced a dream that profoundly impacted my perspective on life, health, and spiritual connection. This dream involved my dear friend Marty, who tragically succumbed to malignant melanoma three months later. Here, I share this dream and its significance with the hope that it resonates with those in grief support groups, cancer survivors, and spiritual seekers.

On a quiet April morning, I awoke at 2:45 am with an overwhelming sense of a higher power. It felt as if Marty, his wife Sharon, my wife, and I were gathered together in a moment of profound connection. I asked for a blessing for all of us, seeking solace and clarity.

I then entered a dream state, finding myself in a noisy industrial plant. There was an electrical system that needed reconditioning. Wearing soundproof headsets to block out the industrial noise, I was “told” to remove the security lock from the electrical panel. Marty and Sharon were witnessing my work, along with others who had already completed their tasks, leaving their tools in a nearby dumpster.

The industrial setting, the need for cooperation, and the presence of discarded tools were all rich in symbolic meaning. It was clear that my subconscious was communicating a message about trust, letting go, and navigating life’s overwhelming noise.

The dream’s symbols were clear to me:

  • Electrical System: Representing the complex and often overwhelming nature of our lives and health.
  • Security Lock: Symbolizing the need to release control and trust in a higher power or the process of life.
  • Soundproof Headsets: Reflecting the necessity to shield ourselves from the distracting noise of our minds and daily activities.
  • Cooperation and Discarded Tools: Signifying the importance of integrating our efforts with others and recognizing the cumulative nature of collective work.

The core message was about letting go of control, trusting in the process, and allowing others to support and guide us. This is particularly relevant in times of health crises and emotional turmoil, where the instinct to control and guard oneself is strong.

For those in grief support groups, cancer survivors, and spiritual seekers, this dream’s message holds universal truths. The process of healing and finding resilience often requires letting go of control, trusting in the support of others, and having faith in the greater process of life.

  • Grief Support Groups: The dream encourages you to trust in the communal support and shared experiences within your group.
  • Cancer Survivors: It highlights the importance of letting go of guilt and understanding that illness is not a personal failing.
  • Spiritual Seekers: The dream speaks to the need for faith in a higher power or life’s inherent wisdom, even when surrounded by chaos.

This dream has profoundly influenced my journey of healing and finding meaning in loss. It has taught me the importance of trust, both in myself and in the process of life. By letting go of the need to control every aspect, I have found a clearer path to peace and acceptance.

My higher power had ultimate confidence in Marty, seeing his innocence and potential despite his illness. This realization helped me view him and his struggle with compassion and hope.  Watching him lose hope and pursue Oregon’s Death With Dignity was initially quite a shock to me, but I understood his dilemna.

Reflect on your own experiences and the messages you receive, whether through dreams, intuition, or the support of others. Trust and faith are powerful tools in navigating life’s challenges. Your inner strength and resilience, supported by a higher power or life’s inherent wisdom, can guide you through even the darkest times.

If you find solace in these reflections, I invite you to share your thoughts and experiences with others you love and trust. Together, we can find meaning and healing in our shared journeys.

The Transformative Power of Dreams and the Eighth Chakra

In 1992, while living in the serene Rock Creek area with Sharon, I experienced a dream so profound that sharing it now feels like an act of love and trust. To this day, Sharon is the only one who has heard it, and that was merely because she woke me up from this incredible dream. This dream, a vivid tapestry woven with threads of light and love, continues to shape my spiritual path and understanding of the higher self.

The dream took place in my grandfather’s home, in the very bedroom where I spent countless nights as a child. A “fierce, fiery cluster, or orb, of pure light and love” hovered above me. This entity, though formless, was unmistakably my grandfather. In shamanic terms, I had encountered my eighth chakra, yet in my dream state, I recognized it as my deceased grandfather. This orb of light exuded an overwhelming love that beckoned me towards it.

I felt an irresistible pull to merge with this love light. However, I knew that my physical body was too weak to withstand the intensity of this energy. Undeterred by the potential destruction of my body, I began to rise, eager to join with the light. At that moment, nothing mattered except the profound connection I felt.

In the physical world, my body was convulsing, and Sharon, perceiving my distress, woke me up. The disappointment I felt upon waking was indescribable, as it tore me away from this remarkable experience. Yet, the dream left me with invaluable insights and a deep sense of gratitude— “Grandfather, Great Spirit, Thank You,” resonated within my mind and heart.

This dream marked the beginning of my understanding of the eighth chakra as the doorway between the immortal soul and the earth-bound personality. I realized that to host such high vibrations of love, my physical and mental bodies needed to be dramatically strengthened. This realization propelled me on a path of intense physical training, culminating in my near-elite athlete status by the age of 46.

Fast forward to 2017, and the scenario from my dream played out in my real life, minus the presence of my grandfather’s light. In my fervent desire to share my story of hope and healing, I encountered an incredible surge of energy that brought immense insight, and physical and psychological suffering. I knew that if this energy was not channeled correctly, it might destroy my body.

Even now, I hesitate to speak of it, as there is no guarantee my body will endure. I am sixty-eight years old, after all. Despite accessing an incredible energy field, in 2017, the exoerience drained me of much life force. But it drove me to the deepest levels of my consciousness, where I finally unearthed early childhood traumatic wounding.

The eighth chakra, often referred to as the soul star chakra, is the gateway to our higher self. It connects us to the divine and facilitates the flow of spiritual energy into our physical being. Accessing and strengthening this chakra can lead to profound spiritual awakening and transformation.

However, this process is not without its challenges. The physical and emotional toll of integrating higher vibrations of love and healing can be immense. It requires perseverance, self-care, and a balance between spiritual aspirations and physical limitations.

Dreams, like the one I experienced in 1992, have the power to guide us towards our deepest desires and spiritual connections. They offer a glimpse into the higher realms and provide insights into our true potential. By paying attention to our dreams and the messages they carry, we can unlock new dimensions of growth and transformation.

My journey has taught me that the path to spiritual awakening is both rewarding and challenging. It requires a willingness to confront and transcend physical and emotional limitations. It demands perseverance and a relentless pursuit of self-discovery.

Through my experiences, I have come to understand the immense human potential for growth and transformation. By aligning our physical and mental states with higher vibrations of love and healing, we can achieve a more profound understanding of ourselves and the world around us.

The dream I experienced in 1992 and the subsequent events in 2017 have shaped my spiritual path and understanding of the eighth chakra. They have taught me the importance of self-care, balance, and perseverance in the face of profound spiritual awakening.

To all wellness enthusiasts, spiritual seekers, and thought leaders, I encourage you to explore the transformative power of dreams and the potential of the eighth chakra. By doing so, you can unlock new dimensions of growth and transformation and achieve a deeper connection with your higher self.

For those seeking guidance and support on this journey, I invite you to connect with me and explore the possibilities of spiritual awakening and self-discovery together.

In gratitude and love,

Bruce Paullin

Rocking Chairs, Psychometry, and Rocking Lives 

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The intersection of family history and  my birth in November of 1955 has created some interesting, and, at times, amazing stories for me.

My Uncle Worth died in February of 1955, 9 months in advance of my own birth. His photo is included here.  He was married to  his wonderful wife, Aunt Effie (who also died before I had any awareness, when I was less than a year old). My grandparents dearly loved their Uncle Worth and Aunt Effie.  My mother and my uncle Wayne.also adored their great aunt and great uncle.

When I was 4 years old, my grandfather Henry showed me the chair in the pictures. I immediately recognized it, and claimed it as my own.

I remembered fashioning every piece of it by my own hands, and assembling it together myself.  In the “memory” I had fashioned little wood dowel extensions from several individual parts to place into pre-drilled holes to serve as nail equivalents.

How could I have possibly done that as a 4-year-old?

Of course my mother guffawed, and stated that it was a store-bought chair that my grandfather had owned since he was young. I “knew better” and to this day, the memory of the chair, and its actual presence in our home, both haunts, and comforts me.

It is now known that Uncle Worth was the original owner and builder of the chair, and that he passed it down to Grandpa when he was a little boy.

I still sit down in the chair on occasion, and I feel a mysterious,beautiful peace and a sense of completion when I sit in the chair.

Either reincarnation is real, or, as a child, I possessed the occult gift of psychometry.

Looking at my history, I remain firmly seated in Life’s Mystery.


Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.