Looking back, everything worked out just fine, I think. Pursuing a woman overly concerned with appearances could not have brought long-term happiness to me, and there was little reason to hope that a love relationship with Masha would have worked. Read more
Evergreen High School Class of 1973 Photograph of Donelle Mae Flick (Paullin) My first wife, Donelle Mae Flick Paullin, suffered from what psychiatric professionals labeled as paranoid schizophrenia. I struggled mightily to help, and to understand her, over the many Read more
Bruce Oliver Scott Paullin —- The Early Years What is in a name, anyway? I was given a name that had links to family members through both my mother’s and my father’s lineage, thus the two middle names, Oliver and Read more
The oppression by our culture of our mentally ill continues to distress me. The repression of the basic human spirit by our culture, and by many of those practicing their “mental health” professions, sometimes borders on witchcraft. On that Read more
“Being male is a matter of birth Being a man is a matter of aging. Being a gentleman is a matter of choice” —Vin Diesel There has been so much discussion in the last several years about the differences between Read more
Choose wisely, oh mankind, the stories and secrets that we keep For by our choices, we may awaken, or just die alone and asleep —-Bruce Paullin Our lives are like a story that we write to ourselves. Enhanced meaning and Read more
It may not be “common knowledge” for all Americans, yet in certain extreme religious circles, as well as within diseased individuals or secular tribes of dysfunctional people, some men just want to watch the world burn. The execution of Kashoughi Read more
“Our lives begin to end, the moment that we become silent about things that matter” Martin Luther King, Jr. When I became sober, I did not have a whole lot to talk about, except while with other “recovering” individuals. And, Read more
But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth Read more
Prologue Chapter 1 – To Find Our Voice Chapter 2 – Beginning The Journey Towards Consciousness Chapter 3 – A New Formation of Words And Flying With The New Flock Chapter 4 . Insight ,Black Holes, And Healing Chapter Read more
This story is a thumbnail sketch of my friendship with Randy Olson. I first met Randy Olson when I was in fifth grade, after he moved up to Oregon from California. He lived about 3/4 of a mile down Oatfield Read more
Truth, My Friendship With Marty, Seizures, and Death Life Is Better With You What value is a story, if it is never told? What value is love, if it is never shared? What is the value of speaking, if Read more
Previously I attempted to develop the concept of what “God” is, as far as insight and mindfulness is concerned. The historic and religious term “God” can be a major impediment to people’s understanding and willingness to pursue a change in Read more
Powerlessness and silence go together. We … should use our privileged positions not as a shelter from the world’s reality, but as a platform from which to speak. A voice is a gift. It should be cherished and used. —- Read more
Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners. —Eric Hoffer What if a real miracle was trying to happen in our lives, and too few people cared enough or were not aware enough to even Read more
“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung “The unexamined life is not worth living” Socrates “The unexamined life” , or the life lived unconsciously, refers to a Read more
Anxiety, Marijuana, and the Path Towards Healing This chapter is directed towards the developing minds, and hearts, of all ages, who as yet have not achieved the fulfillment of their physical and emotional growth processes. It has been established that Read more
Psychedelics, Healing Potential, and Religious/Spiritual Experience I debated whether to place this chapter in the “Damaged” section, or the “Healing and Recovery” section of this book. It all depends on the state of mind, and intentions, of the person using Read more
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson The Sound of Silence (Original Version from 1964) (musical interlude) It remains no mystery to me as to why many people Read more
It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable. — Maya Angelou Beginning on May 24th, and extending through July 21st, 1987, I Read more