The Windshield Wiper

I get questioned from time to time about why I need to write about doing personal inventory and remaining “mindful” around the impact of Toxic masculinity upon my life, and upon the human race in general. Some perceive that I Read more…

A New Easter Sunrise

I am deeply disturbed by the present developments within our shared world, within my individual and our collective human consciousness, and the points of connection between the self and other, through language, religion, and philosophies that create oppression, repression, and Read more…

Depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks

I never chose this uneven life path of recovery from trauma, life chose it for me. I choose how to deal with the sights along the way, however.   The amygdala in our brains under duress from trauma creates new Read more…

Belief, Faith and Irrationality

Belief, faith and irrationality need not travel together as companions hopelessly chained together on the road to “salvation”. Evangelicals have a strong tendency to conform to worn out modes of thought and understanding, and are quite slow, as a religious Read more…

Brain Damage

Brain Damage (Written by Roger Waters of Pink Floyd)   The lunatic is on the grass. The lunatic is on the grass. Remembering games and daisy chains and laughs.  Got to keep the loonies on the path.   The lunatic Read more…

Disease, Death, Spiritual Recovery, and Poetry

After the recent death of my father, on September 16th, I have had the privilege and challenge of going through and sorting a lifetime worth of writings and papers from my parents, and from myself.  After reading some of my Read more…

DEATH’S BULLET HOLES

Notes to myself   Trump, and the NRA’s ideas around guns, are filled with holes, BULLET HOLES. I have written extensively about Toxic Masculinity, and there is a direct relationship between the damaged American Male, and the incidence of gun Read more…

Do not be deceived.

There are those purporting to be “spiritual teachers” and advisors, who are admonishing their followers to abhor using human emotions with their dealings with the public. Specifically, I am frequently hearing that a “requirement for maintaining spiritual integrity” is to Read more…

Electrician Dream Of Healing With Marty, May 1 2017

Marty,   You are quite welcome.  I anticipate that the process will take a bit of time to work so that it is apparent to you.  Daily, or hourly, practice might be appropriate, unless your spirit tells you otherwise. We Read more…

Fire and Fury

Fire and Fury   This sounds and looks like some of the hateful, judgmental descriptions of God by the “ancients” in some sections of the Old Testament. Someday even the ignorant, and the religiously ignorant, will start to understand the Read more…

Further Explorations In Collective Consciousness

What is ‘prayer’, and why can it be so unsettling to many people?   SOME SPECIAL SIGHTS ALONG THE WAY OF LOVE   “Prayer” is a word that points to something so simple, normal, and natural, yet the word points Read more…

Chapter 29 – Grandfather, Great Spirit, Thank You: A Parable Of My Life (Epilogue)

Grandfather Great Spirit, A Story Of Recovery On March 22, 1987, I finally made the decision to live. My grandparents provided their loving presences, and home, for me for four days, while I detoxified from sixteen years of drug abuse Read more…

Knowledge and Google Search Algorithms

Many types of “knowledge” actually breed division and separation between human beings. It is easy to tell the difference between the teachers just by feeling within our own inner chambers of consciousness how their message impacts our hearts. Eventually the Read more…

Anger, Spirituality, Toxic Masculinity

As I read, and hear about, the early death syndrome of the White American male, which may yet still capture me, I now know that our spiritual and economic systems are flirting with catastrophic collapse. For me, I layered myself Read more…

Marty and Me Again

July 24, 2017   I am feeling a little challenged this morning. The challenge comes from being fully present for a married couple we have known and loved for a generation. A “two months to live” diagnosis for the husband, Read more…

Master Teacher Of The Light-An Epic, Disjointed Tale Of Disease, Recovery, and Healing

The following is an epic collection of thoughts about and experiences of my life. Master Teacher Of The Light More than once, certain members of our human race have had “mountain top” experiences, where true insight has been gained into Read more…

1992 Hood To Coast Race and A Drive From Ft. Steilacoom, Washington

  In 1992, I was still in communication with my ex-wife, Donelle.  At this point, she was in the mental hospital at Fort Steilacoom, Washington.  She was committed yet again in 1990, and was languishing in there when I visited Read more…