Chapter 12 – Damaged, Part 3: Donelle Mae Flick (Paullin)

The oppression by our culture of our mentally ill continues to distress me.   The repression of the basic human spirit by our culture, and by many of those practicing their “mental health” professions, sometimes borders on witchcraft.  On that Read more…

Chapter 6 – A Brief Introduction To The Differences Between Men And Women

“Being male is a matter of birth Being a man is a matter of aging. Being a gentleman is a matter of choice” —Vin Diesel There has been so much discussion in the last several years about the differences between Read more…

Chapter 27 – Recovery And Healing, Part 13: Life, Love, Healing, Mystery, and Death

Choose wisely, oh mankind, the stories and secrets that we keep For by our choices, we may awaken, or just die alone and asleep —-Bruce Paullin Our lives are like a story that we write to ourselves.  Enhanced meaning and Read more…

Chapter 9 – Some Men, and Religions, Just Want To Watch The World Burn

It may not be “common knowledge” for all Americans, yet in certain extreme religious circles, as well as within diseased individuals or secular tribes of dysfunctional people, some men just want to watch the world burn. The execution of Kashoughi Read more…

Chapter 3 – A New Formation of Words And Flying With The New Flock

“Our lives begin to end, the moment that we become silent about things that matter” Martin Luther King, Jr. When I became sober, I did not have a whole lot to talk about, except while with other “recovering” individuals. And, Read more…

Chapter 19 – The Miracle Experiment, Part 5: Anger, Love, and War

But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth Read more…

TITLES-Chapter Headings

  Prologue Chapter 1 – To Find Our Voice Chapter 2 – Beginning The Journey Towards Consciousness Chapter 3 – A New Formation of Words And Flying With The New Flock Chapter 4 . Insight ,Black Holes, And Healing Chapter Read more…

Chapter 9 – Randy Richard Olson

This story is a thumbnail sketch of my friendship with Randy Olson.  I first met Randy Olson when I was in fifth grade, after he moved up to Oregon from California. He lived about 3/4 of a mile down Oatfield Read more…

Chapter 24 – Recovery and Healing, Part 10 Seizures

Truth, My Friendship With Marty, Seizures, and Death   Life Is Better With You What value is a story, if it is never told? What value is love, if it is never shared? What is the value of speaking, if Read more…

Chapter 18 – Recovery and Healing, Part 4 Higher Power

Previously I attempted to develop the concept of what “God” is, as far as insight and mindfulness is concerned.  The historic and religious term “God” can be a major impediment to people’s understanding and willingness to pursue a change in Read more…

Chapter 1 – To Find Our Voice

Powerlessness and silence go together. We … should use our privileged positions not as a shelter from the world’s reality, but as a platform from which to speak. A voice is a gift. It should be cherished and used. —- Read more…

Chapter 5 – Insight And Mindfulness

Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners. —Eric Hoffer What if a real miracle was trying to happen in our lives, and too few people cared enough or were not aware enough to even Read more…

Chapter 4 – Insight, Black Holes, And Healing

“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung “The unexamined life is not worth living” Socrates  “The unexamined life” , or the life lived unconsciously, refers to a Read more…

Chapter 23 – Recovery and Healing, Part 9, Anxiety

Anxiety, Marijuana, and the Path Towards Healing This chapter is directed towards the developing minds, and hearts, of all ages, who as yet have not achieved the fulfillment of their physical and emotional growth processes. It has been established that Read more…

Chapter 21 – Recovery and Healing, Part 7 Psychedelics

Psychedelics, Healing Potential, and Religious/Spiritual Experience I debated whether to place this chapter in the “Damaged” section, or the “Healing and Recovery” section of this book.  It all depends on the state of mind, and intentions, of the person using Read more…

Chapter 14 – Damaged, Part 5, The Underworld, and the Search For Truth

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson The Sound of Silence (Original Version from 1964) (musical interlude) It remains no mystery to me as to why many people Read more…

Marsha (Masha), Meditation and Healing

It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable.  — Maya Angelou Beginning on May 24th, and extending through July 21st, 1987, I Read more…

Chapter 22 – Recovery and Healing, Part 8, J.Krishnamurti

  Jiddu Krishnamurti’s Teachings, and the Mystery Within Me While both attending college in the early 1980’s, and in my early stages of “awakening” in 1987, I had read several books by important authors on atheism, philosophy and a few Read more…

Chapter 8 – The Common Knowledge Game

The Common Knowledge Game (CKG) is a newer name for a form of consensus social understanding used in collective consciousness since humans became social animals.  The CKG informs our understanding of our own lives, how we see others, and how Read more…

Thanks For Speaking Out, Dr. Christine Blasey Ford

This is only an exercise in writing for me, and I may as well be posting this to my bathroom wall, but I am back from vacation, so in the interests of personal consistency, and in speaking my truth, it Read more…