To My Mentally Ill Stepdaughter-An Exercise in Futility?

One evening, a Cherokee elder was teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy. “It is a terrible fight, and it is between two wolves. This battle that goes on between Read more…

Chapter Two: Trauma ( lots of duplication)

Be mindful, oh Mankind, of all of the painful secrets that we must keep, For, by our suffering silence, we will not awaken, but just die alone, powerless, and asleep. —–Elisha Scott . Like most of us, I have had Read more…

Chapter 8: Enlightenment

Now the earth was formless and void, and darkness was over the surface of the deep. And the Spirit of our healed heart was hovering over the surface of the waters. And our healed Heart said, “Let there be light,”  and Read more…

Beryl Donald Paullin (4/17/1927-9/15/2017)

Had my father survived, he would have been 98 years old. And, it would not have been a very happy life, because dementia was really taking a toll on the poor man. The last conversation that I had with my Read more…

Chapter 3-Book #8: The Mystery Of The Path Between You And Me

Life’s journey is forever like a dotted line pathway.  It is the quality of our connections with each other that fills in the space between the dots.  Empathy is the major vehicle for our consciousness to transcend our apparent differences, Read more…

Chaptes 10-13, Book #8: Some Special Sights Along The Way Of Love-(Major Edit Required)

-Enlightenment,Prayer, Dreams, Visions, Mysteries, and Histories . I do not look to the darkness for the light. I found my own light, a light that dispels the darkness of others, and of my historical self.  This book has been my Read more…

Prologue: Mythology, Religion, Liars, The Conspiracy Of Silence, And The Cloak Of Invisibility

“I don’t blame the circumstances, I do not blame the place and time. When I had the choice between right and wrong, I could not quite make up my mind “—Peter Yarrow, from lyrics to Arkansas Introduction:  Mythology, Religion, Liars, Read more…

Vanquishing The Conspiracy Of Silence (Book #8-95% complete)

“Introduction “I don’t blame the circumstances, I do not blame the place and time. When I had the choice between right and wrong, I could not quite make up my mind “—Peter Yarrow, from lyrics to Arkansas Mythology, Religion, Liars, Read more…

Chapter 14 The Conspiracy Of Silence, Voices Lost and Found

Part One: Marty, Me, and The Lost Voice Marty (left) and Me, on a Columbia River Gorge hike in 1998 Over the years, I have become deeply disturbed by the developments within our shared world, within my individual consciousness, and Read more…

There Is Something Fundamental Here (excerpt-childhood trauma revisited)

  Does love come to, from, or through us, if it ever comes at all? Why does the racing, turbulent, “monkey mind” develop, causing deprivation of peace of mind and the absence of sacred silence? Why do many decent, caring Read more…

Uncle Worth and The Rocking Chair (revisited)

. The intersection of family history and  my birth in November of 1955 has created some interesting, and, at times, amazing stories for me. My Uncle Worth died in February of 1955, 9 months in advance of my own birth. Read more…

Tigers and Vaccines

Religions that forbid vaccines are steeped in superstition, misanthropy, and are practicing forms of atheism. Who, or what, do these unfortunate, misguided souls believe created the conditions within the consciousness of mankind to evolve enough to create vaccines to control Read more…

Chapter 9: Insight and Mindfulness

Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners. —Eric Hoffer What if a real miracle was trying to happen in our lives, and too few people cared or were not even aware enough to attempt Read more…

Chapters 4-6, Book #8: Two Experiments Within Our Consciousness, And A Meditation

Chapter 4 Beauty, like supreme dominion Is but supported by opinion  ——Benjamin Franklin, Poor Richard’s Almanac, 1741 . We don’t see things as they are. We see things as we are. ——Anais Nin . . Why is our world so Read more…

Chapter 9: Recovery, Mastery, and the Mystery (needs edit, of course!)

“Our lives begin to end, the moment that we become silent about things that matter” Martin Luther King, Jr. All human beings should consider joining a recovery program, as we are all challenged and threatened by our human condition. And Read more…

Chapter 1(alternate), Book #8: Defender Dan, and Growing Up In 1960’s America

Defender Dan  With our final insight into the true nature of Consciousness and God, and our identity embedded within this creative principle of the Universe, we see that we can become either agents of a loving, regenerative force, or, in Read more…

Viruses And The Pandemic Of Humanity

Yes, I know, few like the reminder. The greatest, most dangerous virus to ever hit our Sacred Planet Earth is the toxic male human being running in large groups, the ” men whose breath is in their nostrils”. Men, without Read more…

Chapter 2: The Common Knowledge Game, and The Lemming Effect

  Each and every one of us has the capacity to be an oppressor. I want to encourage each and every one of us to interrogate how we might be an oppressor and how we might be able to become Read more…

Book #8-Needs Extreme Edit, No Working Title

One evening, a Cherokee elder was teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy. “It is a terrible fight, and it is between two wolves. This battle that goes on between Read more…