In 1972, Scott Ferguson, who was a classmate with me at Rex Putnam High School, drove to Seaside, Oregon with a group of five friends for a wild weekend. He had an old VW Beetle, yet it made it to the beach OK. Tony Mecklem, Scott, Randy Olson, and I stayed on D street in Seaside, at Tony Mecklem’s beach home.
 
We took strong mescaline (or LSD) one evening. I was so messed up, yet Scott offered me the opportunity to learn how to drive a stick shift on the beach, north of Seaside. I could not refuse, and I learned how to drive his Beetle, even while under the influence of a strong psychedelic drug.
 
His Beetle died later that evening, losing its transaxle. Nobody blamed me, nor should they have, because the vehicle was so fucking old. We walked away from the disabled vehicle near Main street in Seaside, and then two dudes came up to us, and asked us about the Beetle. Well, it just so happened that these new friends were Beetle experts, and they offered a free repair, if we ga ve them some drugs.
 
No Problem!
 
They ended up driving all the way to Portland, jacked up a Beetle, stole the transaxle, and returned to Seaside to repair Scott’s vehicle. It was such a serendipitous event, and we were all WOWED by the timing of it.
 
Scott later joined the military shortly after his graduation from high school. I saw him while he was on leave, and he then accused me of
 
BEING THE DEVIL
Doming from a man who just returned from the US military, it sounded to me like he was a victim of SERIOUS PROJECTION.
 
I don’t know what ever happened to Scott, but he sure had a negative reaction to me.
 
All that we see, and will ever see, unto eternity, is ourselves.
 
I hope that Scott has a higher opinion of himself now.
 
(excercpt from Book #8)
Categories: Musings

Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.