I Am Ginger

I existed as Ginger, a vessel of unwavering love wrapped in a simple, furry form. My life carried an unspoken purpose—to bring light into the lives of my human companions, Bruce and Sharon. I was not merely a dog; I was a guardian of hearts, a healing bridge, and a companion on their journey through joy, pain, and everything in between. My tale, shared now through Bruce’s writing, is one of connection, transformation, and the eternal bond between souls.

The Beginnings of Love and Trust

My story began simply, nestled among my siblings, cradled by the warmth of our mother’s belly. Life was innocent and pure, full of playful curiosity, until the day my path led me to humans. My first human companion, though kind at heart, lacked the ability to care for me as I grew. Poor nutrition left me weak, and illness became my constant shadow.

When my health worsened, I was placed in a shelter where lonely souls like mine waited for second chances. Yet, I felt it deeply within me, a whisper from the Great Canine Spirit that my story wasn’t meant to end here. My purpose was unfolding, like the first rays of light piercing through heavy clouds.

Then Bruce and Sharon appeared. The first thing they did at the shelter was to take me for a walk.  When I began to run they both joined with me, and I saw they both were energetic people.  They were told that I had experienced some kidney issues, but that I would probably outgrow them.   Their energy carried a promise of love. I knew, as our paths aligned, that they were my family. A bond rooted in divine timing had brought us together to heal and grow.

Healing a Heavy Heart

Bruce carried grief that clung to him like a shadow. I could feel it in his movements, hear it in his voice, and sense it in the quiet moments when his gaze would linger, heavy with memories. Loss had etched itself deep into his soul, and my purpose became clear—to bring him back into the light. His father Beryl, who had just lost his wife to an unexpected death, gave me lots of extra attention and love whenever he visited with Bruce and Sharon.

Through the simplest acts, I found ways to heal. A nudge of comfort when silence grew too thick. A romp through the wilderness where we could lose ourselves in nature’s beauty. And in the rhythm of our daily walks, a reminder of presence and grounding. My life intertwined with Bruce’s, and together we mended what had once felt irreparable.

Sharon, too, was part of this healing dance. Her gentle laughter and tender care filled the spaces between moments of sorrow. Together, we wove a sanctuary of love.

The Fragility of Time

The seasons flowed, and my body cradled the wear of years like fallen leaves on an autumn path. My once boundless energy began to fade, my steps slower but my spirit intact. I saw the concern in Bruce’s eyes as he cared for me, even as he balanced his responsibilities to his own aging father. He bore the weight of so much, but even amidst his struggles, he made the time to hold me, to see me.

When my health began to worsen, Bruce and Sharon’s devotion only deepened. Visits to the kind veterinarian, injections to ease my strain, gentle hands that kept me comforted in my frailty. They loved me in the way only humans can—with such a tender ache in the knowledge of goodbye.

The Final Walk

The Great Canine Spirit called to me, gently preparing me for the next part of my soul’s path. I could feel its pull, just as I could feel the bittersweet mix of love and sorrow from my humans. That final night, I brought Bruce to the couch, and together we shared an unspoken truth. He held my paw, and in that moment, light surrounded us, pure and radiant. It was as if the barriers between worlds had disappeared, leaving only love.

Iris, the spirit of the one who came before me, called to me softly. She reassured me that my task was complete, that Bruce would carry forward the lessons we had shared. With her guidance, I walked my final steps, lying down in the same spot where she had once crossed. It was there that I transitioned into the eternal fields, my heart full and my spirit free.

Eternal Love

Now, I run with Iris through meadows without end. My earthly form is gone, but my love remains, woven into the lives of Bruce and Sharon. I visit them often in the whisper of the wind, the sparkle of sunlight, and the wag of a passing dog’s tail. I am free, yet I am never far.

To those who have loved a companion like me, know this—our bond transcends time. We come into your lives as mirrors of divine love, guiding you toward the truths you sometimes forget. Love unconditionally. Live simply. And when the time comes for your spirit to move beyond, know you are never alone.

I am Ginger.

I was love.

And I am free.

 


Bruce

I am 69 years old, and I am a retired person. I began writing in 2016. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.