FOOTBALL is everywhere, yet again.  It is the season to rally around our favorite teams, be they high school, college, or professional.  We tend to support the “home” teams (go Ducks, Beavers!)
I never had a home professional team, being from Portland, Oregon, and growing up in the pre-Seattle Seahawks era. Local TV always played the Oakland Raiders
(remember Daryl Lamonica, George Blanda, Fred Biletnecoff, etc.?-umm, probably no)
How about  the Los Angeles Rams
(remember Roman Gabriel, the toeless kicker Tom Dempsey, etc?  Yeh, probably not, too).
What about the other perenial loser, the San Francisco 49er’s, prior to Joe Montana?

My father loved George Blanda, an old (45 years) place kicker who would sub for Lamonica if he got injured. Dad rooted for the old guy like he was rooting for himself, though George was a bit older.

My (two) wives, Sharon White being the second,  never watched football, though I did most every Saturday and Sunday, until about 11 years ago.

My father and grandpa Henry were the ones who got me started watching football when I was young. As a child, I saw that it was important to be interested in football, if I wanted to share extra time with my father and grandpa. When dad’s dementia became severe after my mother’s death in 2009, he just could not keep track of what was going on on the football field. I would put the important Oregon Ducks college football games on, and though they might be vying for a conference, or National championship, Dad would just fall asleep during important games, and show little interest, otherwise, in the huge spectacle of football.

I rarely watch football anymore.

I sometimes wish my father was still here to see me, even if he needed to fall asleep so often. My father was the best game in town, and quarterbacked an excellent family team. Conversationally speaking, Dad threw a spiral pass that could knock a person out, if it hit the chin.  He also put a lot of bad English on some of his throws,  just to see who he could rile up with his intentional, but wobbly passes.

It was really tough watching the retired family quarterback shrivel up and fade away, though.

Guess who, or what I miss the most, now?

Youth, and a sense of our complete, healthy family, are long gone.  My present home team never had a draft (no children for me), nor did the players traded to it find their best position (step children stop hating–when?). Why are my bull’s eye spiral passes always dropped by daughter-in-laws and/or son-in-laws?

I have begun my own run to Life’s final end zone, with a wife, sister, scattered cousins who dont call, my father’s deteriorating 94 year old sister Susie, Susie’s cat Sassy, who now lives with us, a few dear friends, and a strong intention to finish my life full of run, while also not fumbling the ball.. .

Enjoy your own game, while also  trying  to provide a little color commentary along the way for your fans, be they adoring, or otherwise..

The best, and the healthiest, fans rally around both the home, and the away, teams.

There is only One team, if we are in the true Spirit of Love.

My grandpa Henry joined the All-Star team in January of 1990.  My father joined that most special, and inclusive,  team on September 16, 2017.

I belong to a fabulous Spiritual team.  My life has been a miraculous game, and run, so far.

I can almost hear the “Divine  Broadcaster” calling my name.

” He’s at the 30, jukes a defender at the 20,  . , just one more tackler wearing a surgeon’s mask to evade at the 10 yard line,  then . . .. .he leaps across the goal line!

Touchdown!

Like my grandfather, and my father, there will be few fans left in Life’s stadium to cheer my efforts, and to see me cross the goal line.

I will soar up to the heavens, and dunk the football over the goalposts, anyway.

I will then begin my new walk through Eternity.

Save me a seat in the Broadcast Booth, Dad!

I might have found a little supportive color commentary for the next game.

Categories: Musings

Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.