It is certain, in any case, that ignorance, allied with power, is the most ferocious enemy justice can have.

—– James Baldwin

We live in a world in which we need to share responsibility. It’s easy to say ‘It’s not my child, not my community, not my world, not my problem.’ Then there are those who see the need and respond. I consider those people my heroes. Discovering the truth about ourselves is a lifetime’s work, but it’s worth the effort.

— Fred Rogers

Evolutionary growth happens when the insignificant finally touches the transcendent. It is also true that through the understanding about what is NOT TRUE, and why it isn’t, that our native intelligence may finally connect with what might be true.  The search for truth is a lifelong journey, and we should never just rely on other people’s, or religion’s, understanding.

—-Elisha Scott

When I look at our culture, I see the rising waters of anguish and despair flooding through it. There are so many broken promises and  dreams, so many shattered expectations, so many lost possibilities, are these wounds are now defining the day to day life of far too many of our citizens. . Is a happy and fulfilled life even possible in times like these?  As most of us know, it’s not easy living right now, as we live in an  abusive society. The abuse of power has many manifestations, but the most distressing ones are the impacts upon our sacred values of  decency, equality, truth and meaning.  The abuse of each other, and now, of ourselves has become institutionalized and normalized within this sick culture of which we find ourselves living. We have to begin protecting ourselves from all that, to become healthy people, retain our sanity and our humanity, instead of being consumed by despair, fatalism and anger.

It’s not our fault that so much of our shared existence

FLAT FUCKING SUCKS. 

In the words of Michael Franti

“Life is amazing, and then it sucks, and then its amazing again”

Who amongst us does not want life to lean more towards AMAZING, rather than just sucking?

Things don’t often work out according to our best laid plans. If we seek out many of society’s treasured goals, we find that goal didn’t live up to our expectations. The problem is not our plans, expectations, dreams, or aspirations. They are sacred things and we must retain them. The point is that

it’s not solely our fault.

We have been let down, in ways we never should have been. We have been neglected, in ways that genuinely hurts and endures. Our possibilities shrank not because of something we did, or didn’t do — but for a much, much bigger reason. Much of it was beyond our control, and therefore, the fault is not solely ours, but once we can see what other options are available to us, we can find our reservoir of hope…

I can no longer keep silent in the face of the injustice, ignorance, oppression, and collective darkness masquerading as the light within our culture.  In this time when divisiveness seems to rule the United States, wars, or the threats of war, dominate the news cycles,  when heartless Americans use guns to bully and terrorize others, and politicians, policemen,  and judges victimize our most innocent of citizens, it is difficult to feel the miracle of life that is constantly with us. Yet, to not have that more loving, peaceful, and spiritually guided experience is to live a life devoid of the greater meaning available to us as human beings. Without a collectively shared intention to honor each other’s dignity, and the dignity of ALL LIFE on our planet, the oppression of our spirits and the continued destruction of our planet will remain the guiding forces dominating mankind, until our tragic, and unnecessary self destructive end.

We all must speak out against the injustices of the world, and attempt to be inclusive of all those who suffer, as this is an act of compassion, empathy, and spiritual justice. But, finding the courage to speak out brings the risk that the speaker will be seen as yet another voice of oppression against those already burdened by their own unique version of suffering, and who have not yet claimed their own personal power and moral responsibility. Wisdom dictates that I avoid becoming the voice for a resentment, injustice, or the grievances of others, unless I have already experienced the difficult truth behind their pain. But, I have lived a life inclusive of this intense pain and suffering, and I know this path intimately, having nearly sacrificed my life at thirty years of age to its cumulative effects, as it manifested through my life..

Our country, our world, and ourselves are all out of balance.  And we are not remedying this matter through our politics, or our religions.  Men, and women, tend to clamor for politicians and religious leaders who do not challenge them, and who continue to support them in their complacency and ignorance. The election of Donald Trump is the perfect example, and he has become the symbol for all of the ills of our culture. To the extent that the men within our culture continue to practice his unholy principles of engagement with the world and the women and men within it, they also share in his disease of mind, body, and spirit. Men seek to run in packs with others of similar mindsets, and they remain a most powerful, deadly force to be reckoned with.

  • What happens to a society that remains out of balance within itself?
  • What happens to a culture dominated by the oppressive effects of toxic men parading around in their emperor’s new clothes of mistaken self- identifications?
  • What happens to a culture where the majority of its citizens remain staunch adherents of world destructive capitalism and pseudo-religious misunderstanding?
  • What happens to a civilization where women and indigenous people are oppressed, and their holistic wisdom, is neglected in favor of self serving ideology?
  • What happens to a man, a culture, and a world defeated by the dark energy of unhealed masculinity?

As we witness our families, watch the news and read the newspaper, we can see the tragic answers are the creation and promotion of cultural and individual insanity, with its resultant suffering..  This insanity continues to expand and explode all around us, with lies being propagated by our spiritual and political leaders, and ultimately becoming accepted by the naive, and the stupid. Mass murders, early deaths, suicides, drug addiction, alcoholism, abuses of woman and children, racism, extinction of species, destruction of our ecology, and all of the damaged relationships that fail to find healing will continue to predominate within the collective mind of mankind until we make conscious contact with intelligence, love, and sanity.

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Our world is filled with an infinite supply of life affirming meaning, if we can just tune into it, and our whole self  Yet, news in recent years has been dominated by references to the actions of people living meaningless lives as indicated by the opioid epidemic, alcoholism, gun violence, murder, mental illness, poor diets insufficient exercise, and suicide have become major contributors to the upswing in mortality rates, These factors are a small part of the real story, and I continue to address the disease of Spirit that has targeted Americans and the people who I have known who have been struck down by it. I have seen, and I believe at the deepest level of my own being, that disease in the mind of mankind is directly related to disease within the body of mankind. This is a difficult but essential truth to contemplate and to perceive: our society has created many of the conditions for our early demise through our lack of shared meaning and values..

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There is so much suffering in the world, and it brings a universally humbling, painful reality. Human suffering and evil are two spiritually destructive forces that humanity has dealt with each moment of its existence. Failure to address these issues directly and consciously only leads to more suffering, and enhances the collective perception of the presence and growth of evil in our world. Many causes of suffering are preventable, however, and they have their origins within our broken, unhealed minds and a non-supportive culture unwilling to embrace the possibility for change. Suffering comes in many forms, and has many causal agents.  Yet suffering eventually touches all of us, through its many different manifestations.  Suffering may arise

  • as a direct result of trauma experienced at any point in life
  • through living a meaningless life, with a resistance to change and evolution
  • through an action of intentional hostility by others
  • through incurable diseases of the body, or of the mind.
  • spontaneously as a reaction to the vicissitudes of life.
  • from an inability to do what is right.
  • through the  witnessing horrific acts of violence.
  • from the inability to reconcile the belief in God with one’s own grief and loss.
  • from becoming addicted to substances that were designed to take our pain away.
  • from the perceived inability to speak one’s truth
  • from not having one’s voice heard in the face of oppressive powers
  • from contemplating the continuation of our daily pains into a distant, unknown future.
  • from continued bullying or threatening behavior from peers, employers, religions, politicians, or family members

There is no mystery to me as to why some people choose suicide, continued ignorance, or continued addictions over becoming more consciously aware. In 1986, my choice was for continued addictions and, ultimately, suicide, until I awoke to the potential for healing in my life in 1987, after beginning my search for a Truth that could sustain me. The potential for recovery is only that, a potential, unless one develops a conscious intention to break free from the tight grip of grief, loss, and heartbreak. Pain, and suffering, without any hope for healing, brings anger, despair, depression, loneliness, and suicidal ideation. Yet, where is real hope to be found?

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Those who do not want to stay grounded in their own unconsciousness, but instead want to understand why they are not soaring upward into the new, unexplored dimensions of love, being and doing, will find value in this work. For in the complete seeing of the old, the damaged, the diseased, the suffering, and the distraught, will the door of true insight be opened to a new way of being in our minds, hearts, and in the world.  Yet, we must see, not only what our own mistakes might be, but understand what the erroneous fundamental conditions supporting our culture, and our collective consciousness, are, for all of these forces work to keep us from our greater good.

While being an unconscious man, I have been a contributor to this disease of the spirit, and to the overall relationship dysfunctions within the world. I have been subjected to the same family and cultural forces of oppression and repression, spawned by cultural and family mutual control dramas,,which daily contributes to crazy making communication and behavior between all of us. Being a family man, I have taken note of the mutual blame game and scapegoating that is continuously circulated which serves as justification for each individual holding onto their own version of our cultural disease.  All of this just leads to more suffering by innocent family members, friends, acquaintances, community members, and myself.

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My male heritage and my experiences as both a son to a often times toxic father, and working with many damaged men in the electrical trades and in general employment, provided the background for much of my understanding . Patriarchy, as expressed through men as a collective consciousness, is mostly responsible for creating the present day conditions of our diseased world. Men in power would rather have our neighbors, wives and children assaulted, raped, overdosed through drug use, or murdered through gun violence, than to promote and enforce healing changes. Thus, we need more women in positions of power and influence, and men need to get in touch with their potential for toxic behavior and attitudes, and begin to make necessary course changes in their hearts and souls.  Yet both men and women are directly influenced, and often controlled like puppets, by the vary collective consciousness that we all access, and share.

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What,  then,  is collective consciousness?  Wikipedia states:

Collective consciousness, collective conscience, or collective conscious is the set of shared beliefs, ideas, and moral attitudes which operate as a unifying force within society. In general, it does not refer to the specifically moral conscience, but to a shared understanding of social norms.

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Collective consciousness has a source in our ancestral and genetic predispositions, and all of the answers that our culture, our families, and all of our individual selves have dreamed up to some of the great questions of life.  The answers have become part of our philosophy, our history, our religion, the substance of our hopes and dreams, and the foundation for all of our nightmares.  This is the seed consciousness behind the development of our sense of self, where our own answers to the important questions of life give rise to fragmented interpretation of life, and of the universe.  Incomplete and inaccurate answers become the unstable foundation for our journey through collective consciousness.And, while the marionette continues its controls over us, we have little hope to hear the silenced voice for our Mother Earth, the Universe, and our own unique sense of wholeness.

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We are not alone in our  ignorance and misunderstanding.  We will see later how intimately connected collective consciousness is to the common knowledge game, which I will go into in great detail in a later chapter. Do we know what new questions to ask of ourselves, questions that will place us on a new, healthier path of the evolution of our consciousness?  Our best answers to these questions point to foundational facts that most of us encounter or employ in our efforts to meet the needs for economic security, establish our place in society, relieve stress and keep ourselves at least marginally happy, and pursue family fulfillment, including ones sexual gratification.

Questions that I have pondered:

  • Why does suffering exist, and why does it visit me so often?
  • Who and what am I?
  • Is happiness, joy, and freedom possible in my life?
  • What am I really looking for, and will I ever find it?
  • What really is prayer?
  • Does religion have relevance anymore?
  • Can there be any truth. love, or justice to be found in the 21st century version of American Christianity?
  • What happened to the moral and ethical authority once touted as being endemic to Christianity?
  • Does religion hinder or help a modern-day seeker of God?
  • What is a “well lived life” and how do I achieve it?
  • What is good mental health, or what does it mean to be normal?
  • Who are my “people”, and where are they located?
  • Why do people cling to certain groups of people, and reject all others, and why do I feel rejected so often?
  • Why don’t people get along better with each other, and why have I become so isolated?
  • Will I ever fit in?  Will anyone ever notice me?
  • Why don’t I feel peace of mind?
  • What is death, and what does it mean to die to myself?
  • Why does our society and much of the world’s population continue to not experience peace of mind, with beauty, wonder, and the innate internal integrity of our (potentially) divine nature, and what might I do to attain these qualities?
  • Why is history defined predominantly by male energy, and why does my own life story spin so tightly around the male gender and its destructive byproducts?
  • Why do some men become spiritually and emotionally disfigured by their desire for sex?
  • What is the role of objectifying people in ignorance, racism, xenophobia, homophobia, and sexism?
  • Can men ever completely overcome objectifying women in their relationships with them?
  • Why do some men exercise excessive emotional control over their partners?
  • Why do I not feel satisfaction when I achieve the goals that I have set up for myself?
  • Why do I not feel joy when others achieve greatness, or accomplish great things for themselves?
  • Why do I sometimes feel threatened by others’ successes?
  • Why do I internally try to hold others back from success and positive social acknowledgement?
  • Why do I always seem to “self-destruct” right at the moment when I am about to achieve great success?
  • Will I ever completely understand myself, and others?
  • What is oppression, and what is my relationship to it?
  • What is repression, and why do I participate in it?
  • Why is expressing real human emotions such a double-edged sword, and why are my feelings so hard to identify sometimes?
  • Why are some people always so angry, indifferent, detached, or depressed, and can these people ever see me for who I am?
  • Why is anxiety the defining feeling of this age, and why is it so hard to heal from it?
  • Where is the love that I feel is missing from my life?
  • Why don’t I feel more love for myself or for others?
  • Why do I continue to experience poor self-esteem?
  • Why is our culture so focused on youth and physical appearance?
  • Why am I so self-conscious, and will I ever be accepted for who I am?
  • Why do I feel that I have to always be competitive, or “better than the others” just to fit in?
  • Why is competition and greed, as presently coupled with Capitalism, the predominant economic system in our world?
  • Why does shame and guilt control so much of my life’s experience?
  • Is it possible to speak or live a lie long enough that we no longer can accept or believe the truth?
  • Is a person’s silence because of an absence of opinion, or from a fear of speaking the truth?
  • Why can’t some people be more emotionally and spiritually present for others?
  • Why do people feel that they need to engage in mutual “control dramas”?
  • Why do people endlessly pursue entertainment and/or use drugs and alcohol to excess, and ignore their own personal transformation and healing?
  • Why is just more knowledge or repetition of someone else’sunderstanding so much more important than intuition, wisdom and insight to most men and left brained dominated women?
  • Why is collaboration such a dirty word for a national political process?
  • Why do I have no desire to contribute to society in a more generous and meaningful way?
  • Will America Ever Fully Awaken?

To answes all of these questions successfully would require a 5000 page book, and they would be suitable to few people anyway. My intention is not to provide a universal answer, but to stimulate interest and curiosity within the reader to pursue their own answers. I will indicate a path for a more holistic approach to the answer for some of these questions, and my answers may have a more universal application than just my limited life experience.  We must keep in mind the profound impact that our parental upbringing, and our immersion in our culture over the duration of our lives, has upon any potential superficial answers that we might give.  It is of utmost importance to understand the fundamental dynamics of our own unique sense of self, and how we may not answer these questions in such a way that honors a more fundamental, and unknown, spiritual essence that we all have.

I have attempted meditation upon my own source of pain and suffering, and what came to me was how most of what I know about myself, and my reactions to the world, was created by my fundamental relationship with my parents, and then with my culture.  Missing from this was any accommodations to my relationship to my world, the universe, or any concept of a higher power.. My sense of self in my early years revolved around internalizing many of my parents’ attitudes. I was acutely aware of what my mother and father expected from me, what I could or could not give back to them to attempt to please them, and my defense mechanisms for managing the fallout when I failed to please them. Beginning early in my life, I also developed the desire to protect them and myself from the results of the conflict that arose in our house, either when I made yet another mistake, or when father overreacted to any situation that brought a sense of fear or threat into the home environment. I developed a need to balance whatever energy was being over expressed at any particular moment, and I was very unskilled at those kind of efforts.

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With the death of my father in 2017, it ended the era of subservience to his needs, and the need to protect my mother from my perception of his aggression towards her.. It also ended the era of incomplete grieving for my own mother’s death in 2009.  I had to immediately support my mentally deteriorating father when mother died, and I had never completely worked through the grieving process. I was finally an “orphan”, and all of the entanglements that kept me wound around their lives were now physically removed. With my fathers’ spirit no longer overshadowing my own life, I was allowed to develop more fully into whatever, or whoever I am.

For me this was an extraordinary release, because the formation of my sense of self was influenced by parental bonding issues just after birth, and through my first 4-5 years. Being placed on “formula” right after birth, and being placed in a chilly car in the garage at night so that my father could sleep better, as I was a “damned crying baby” left me as a young being feeling abandoned, and lonely, from the beginning. Though I loved my parents, I certainly did not want to grow up and be like them. Yet, I was not able to offer to my developing self a viable alternative to being like my father, being extremely limited creatively, and my resultant dull, though at times insightful, personality reflected that darkness. Yet, I had assembled my sense of self to the best of my ability, while being assisted by an internal self creation mechanism that neuroscientists and psychologists are still studying, understanding, and defining..

In our world, there are countless examples of “self organizing systems”, and all creatures, and the minds of those creatures, are examples of that miracle in action. The evolution of all of Earth’s creatures appear to be primarily organized through the pattern created by the history of the species, and it’s interactions and successful adaptions with its earthly environment.   The DNA appears to carry much of that history as a guide for the self-replicating pattern within all ccells.There may even be a unique, and perhaps even shared life force field for each creature, which Rupert Sheldrake has named the morphogenetic field.

In recent years, genetics and epigenetics continue to be studied, and mined for the great knowledge about our predispositions to certain characteristics, and behaviors. Epigenetics is the study of how our behaviors and environment can cause changes that affect the way our genes work.  Yet, for humans,  epigenetic research has recently shown that some of these patterns may not necessarily be unchangeable, but may be  open to suggestions from changing the external environmental, or even making attitude and/or lifestyle adjustments.  Unlike genetic changes, epigenetic changes are reversible and do not change our DNA sequence, but they can change how our body reads a DNA sequence. Up to 5 percent of our genes may be amenable to epigenetic suggestions, or adaptations, and the future may show that many more genes may be turned off, or on, depending on the need of the organism.  And, in a most encouraging development, there are scientists now proposing that as individual human beings, we may be an integral part of the Bigger Self that is organizing, or reorganizing, our own consciousness, and have greater influence upon our own biological system.

Our consciousness has a self-organizing principle, as it organizes itself into our unique personal sense of being, while also categorizing data, accruing knowledge, and forming perceptions.. The uncertainty of self-organization in consciousness is a great mystery of life, though we now know that a healthy integration revolves around how well the impressionable being feels accepted by, and connected to the environment that the human body travels through. Thus, happier, self-loving ordered senses of self arise, and are supported, by myriads of “successful” interactions with its social and physical environment. First and foremost is the beings’ acceptance and integration into the primary family cell, or group. If we do not get the requisite positive feedback from our parents early on, we face tremendous odds against forming a happy, well-adjusted self organizing principle, or ego.  And the enlightening 1995 Kaiser study of adverse childhood experiences shows the deleterious effects on our health as adults from damaging parental behaviors, either through omission or commission,  or other traumatic environmental influences when we were children.

Coping mechanisms such as passive/aggressive behavior became my normal response to the daily challenges of life. Toxic masculinity, or, more precisely, an unskilled capacity to relate to people in a peaceful and mutually accepting manner, was to become a defining characteristic of my life. I had internalized and normalized an incomplete composite creative advisor, or as I call it now, a trickster of who I thought my father and mother were, which were to become a source of self-talk and feedback for me as a child, and then as an unconscious adult.  The same process occurs for our social self, too.  There is another identity within us, virtually independent of. our inner parental feedback creations, which we create internal cultural advisors.

As an individual within a culture, I applied the same unskilled balancing mechanism within consciousness, where I would weigh and measure societal needs of me, and others that I love, with whatever my personal needs may have been.  Argh, there were two misunderstandings attempting to assert control within my mind at any particular point in time, so no wonder I felt out of control over so much of my own life, while feeling divided, fragmented, and so unsure of which direction to point my life towards.!  In several recovery programs, this fragmentation is called the committee, and we all need to do some ferocious work to get that fucking committee to permanently adjourn!  There is no peace of mind, otherwise.

We must not normalize and internalize what our failed society is, and make it part of the unchangeable forces within our consciousness.. We must not bear the burden of our society’s pending collapse.  It’s easy to internalize the failings of a society that literally fails to provide security to its innocent citizens, from its insouciance in the face of 2nd Amendment fanatical gun owners, its failure to provide adequate healthcare for all, its failure to provide the majority of its citizens sufficient resources for daily living and then their retirement, its failure in providing affordable education, its failure to insulate women from wayward religious patriarchal zealots who want to control all of our bodies according to their beliefs, and all of the other oppressive nonsense that our society supports, and often touts as being for our own good. 

While we are under control of this diseased culture, we have internalized our society’s failures, and have mistaken its failures for our own.. Society’s job was to co-parent us with our own parental influences, and to provide a sound foundation of support for us in this way, and it failed at that. We dare not internalize its failings, or the oppressive qualities of this abusive culture will become part of who we are.. Maturity is preventing the suffering that we, ourselves  have experienced.What is the growth of a soul, really? When we mature — when we really learn our life’s lessons, then we come to have one overriding purpose in our lives. To prevent suffering. But not in any random way. To prevent and limit precisely the suffering we ourselves have experienced. This is the mark of a mature soul — and only a mature soul is capable of adult forms of happiness, like fulfillment, meaning, purpose, grace, truth.

 

If enough people do rise up and rebel against the prevailing order (disorder) of the day, dramatic and positive change can be made. This is, in fact, how all evolutionary change is to be successfully made in a diseased, structured society like our own. When a living system becomes infected with toxins, it must rid itself of the offenders, lest the disease spread, and destroy the entire system. The compromised system must fight back with love’s most powerful antibodies

Domestic violence, sexual abuse, and patriarchal attitudes are a set of learned behaviors with the emphasis on exerting unhealthy power and control over others, and can be unlearned — but it takes consistent work on the part of the person who caused harm well beyond the immediate crisis.  Complex ideas about gender roles and expectations are often at the root of abusive behavior, many times having been instilled from childhood.

Gentle confrontation with the offending person is a first step towards healing.  The person may be unaware of his negative influence over others, or may feel powerless to do anything about it.  Counseling can be the next step towards healing,  though it would take the mutual accountability through the controls exerted by the common knowledge game for the rest of our population to move towards change.  It takes ongoing attention and progress checks from the community, family members, and friends to ensure a true change of behavior.   And, people who harm others should allow justice to be determined by the survivor. The perpetrators should publicly own up to their behavior, apologize, and describe how they’re trying to change. This is how we change norms around the conspiracy of silence that permeates domestic violence — by showing others using harm that accountability is necessary and healing is possible.

Creating the basic conditions that support emotional and spiritual growth might be beneficial to the entirety of our human race. Men, and women have basic needs regarding personal safety, security, and placement within the society. Here are some simple, and not so simple, human needs coupled with spiritual intention:

  • To belong, to feel safe while belonging, including the desire to help and protect others while helping oneself,
  • To speak up, and feel like we really were heard, and not have our spirit layered over with others’ errors in reasoning and judgement,
  • To be able to listen to another at the deepest level possible, and be present in the spirit of understanding, cooperation, and collaboration.
  • To feel whole, and to be able to recognize that wholeness, not only within ourselves, but within all others, even those living in alternative realities.
  • To love all others, as well as to be accepted, and loved, with as few conditions attached as possible. Unconditional love was never meant to be reserved just for a mothers’ love for her child, so it is a great evolutionary objective to attempt to be a channel for it.
  • To evolve, for if we do not, we become subject to the forces of friction and chaos inherent within a closed mind, and system, resulting in higher physical and mental disease and dysfunction.

FAILURE TO HONOR THESE NEEDS WILL RESULT IN THE CONTINUATION OF OUR PRESENT DAY CULTURAL CHAOS AND DYSFUNCTION, WITH LITTLE POTENTIAL FOR OUR NATIONAL HEALING.

Make America Great Again?

Make America Great Again? Normalize that which should never have been acceptable? Get real, and start healing, fellow Americans! Greatness only comes after we, as a society, face our collective darkness and see how we have institutionalized ignorance, acknowledge its damaging impacts on others, makes amends to ALL we have harmed, and find integrity, and stay on a more humane path in the future.

The Buddha had his own ideas about what constitutes mental health, and by his definition anyone who isn’t well on the way to Enlightenment is insane. Quite how literally he meant it when he said “All humans are mad” is hard to say, but when he looked at ordinary people like us going about their daily business he saw a world out of balance — and a world that by necessity is out of balance, because it is composed of those same off-kilter individuals.  He viewed this imbalance as a form of perversion, inversion, and/or derangement  He understood that we, collectively, misunderstand the world that we live in, misunderstand ourselves, thus we all end up living in a virtual reality of delusion, confusion, and distortion.  What’s more, we largely share the same delusions, which mean that we don’t even realize that our minds are disturbed

As Krishnamurti suggests, it’s possible to think that we’re spiritually and mentally healthy because we share our mistaken values and understandings with those around us. Collectively, our ill minds create social circles, or society that is itself ill, and we consider ourselves healthy because we see our values reflected in our spiritually sick fellow travelers.

Jesus of Nazareth stated quite clearly that “My kingdom is not of this world”. Also he stated “Be in this world, yet do not be of it”. And, “Do not attempt to remove the sliver from each other’s eye, before first removing the log from your own eye”. Finally, he also stated “Straight is the way, and narrow is the gate, and very few there are who will enter in”. “Truly I tell you,” Jesus also said, “unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

The Buddha, Jesus Christ, Krishnamurti, and even Fred Rogers are dead, yet we all can still become a hero for healing and transcendence.

To become a healing hero, we must first understand what has us under control, before we can learn how to let go of what controls us.

Categories: Musings

Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.