Celebrating the Life of Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin

Today marks what would have been my mother Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin’s 95th birthday. Reflecting on her life fills me with deep gratitude and sorrow. She was not only a loving mother but also an unwavering pillar of support in my life. Through her actions and guidance, she left an indelible mark on me and everyone who knew her. This tribute is a celebration of her life, her love, and the invaluable lessons she imparted.

Corinne’s early years were filled with love and support from her family. She shared a special bond with her younger brother, Wayne—one that was incredibly strong and nurturing. Her grandparents, who were relatively well-off, adored her just as much as her own parents, who had less financial stability. One vivid memory I have is visiting her grandpa in Salem. He was quite elderly by then, sitting in a commode chair. Mom asked me to kiss him, a kiss that would leave an enduring impression on me. His funeral was the first I attended, marking a poignant moment in my young life.

Mom’s work ethic was unparalleled. She held various jobs over her career, each adding a unique layer to her experience. Starting at the original Fred Meyer store in downtown Portland, she moved on to National Insurance, General Tool, Grandma’s Cookies, The Oak Lodge Fire Department, and Murphy Logging, among others. Each role showcased her versatility and resilience, and she always managed to bring her unique touch of dedication and love to the workplace.

If God’s love were to be personified, it would likely resemble the unconditional love my mother showed me. From nourishing me as a child to healing my wounds and protecting me from nightmares, her love was a constant presence. She shared her wisdom freely, even when I didn’t always heed her advice. She was my protector, especially from the harsher discipline meted out by my father. One memory that stands out is her crying hysterically as my father raised his belt. Her love was a sanctuary, a place where I always felt safe.

Losing my mother was one of the most challenging experiences of my life. Learning to live without her has been a difficult journey, filled with moments of grief and reflection. The importance of treasuring memories cannot be overstated. They serve as a comforting reminder of her enduring love and presence in my life, even though she is no longer physically here.

Mom taught me many valuable lessons that have shaped who I am today. She was a motivator, always wanting the best for me. Her guidance helped me steer my life in the right direction, even when I took her for granted. Moving into my parents’ neighborhood in 1995 allowed us to spend more time together, creating memories that I will cherish forever. Despite her being overshadowed by my father’s exuberant nature, her quiet strength and wisdom never went unnoticed.

My mother, Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin, was a remarkable woman whose love and wisdom have left a lasting impact on my life. Her legacy lives on through the lessons she taught and the love she shared.

I encourage you to share your stories of maternal love and the lessons you’ve learned from those you’ve lost. Let’s honor their memory and celebrate the incredible influence they’ve had on our lives.

Today, on what would have been her 95th birthday, I celebrate my mother’s life and the immense love she gave. Her presence may no longer be physical, but her spirit continues to guide and inspire me every day. Happy Birthday, Mom. I love you.


Bruce

Presently, I am 67 years old, and I am learning how to live the life of a retired person. I am married to Sharon White, a retired hospice nurse, and writer. Whose Death Is It Anyway-A Hospice Nurse Remembers Sharon is a wonderful friend and life partner of nearly 30 years. We have three grandsons through two of Sharon's children. I am not a published writer or poet. My writings are part of my new life in retirement. I have recently created a blog, and I began filling it up with my writings on matters of recovery and spirituality. I saw that my blog contained enough material for a book, so that is now my new intention, to publish a book, if only so that my grandsons can get to know who their grandfather really was, once I am gone. The title for my first book will be: Penetrating The Conspiracy Of Silence, or, How I Lived Beyond My Expiration Date I have since written 7 more books, all of which are now posted on this site. I have no plans to publish any of them, as their material is not of general interest, and would not generate enough income to justify costs. I have taken a deep look at life, and written extensively about it from a unique and rarely communicated perspective. Some of my writing is from 2016 on to the present moment. Other writing covers the time prior to 1987 when I was a boy, then an addict and alcoholic, with my subsequent recovery experience, and search for "Truth". Others are about my more recent experiences around the subjects of death, dying, and transformation, and friends and family having the most challenging of life's experiences. There are also writings derived from my personal involvement with and insight into toxic masculinity, toxic religion, toxic capitalism, and all of their intersections with our leadere. These topics will not be a draw for all people, as such personal and/or cultural toxicities tends to get ignored, overlooked, or "normalized" by those with little time for insight, introspection, or interest in other people's points of view on these troubling issues. There also will be a couple of writings/musings about "GOD", but I try to limit that kind of verbal gymnastics, because it is like chasing a sunbeam with a flashlight. Yes, my books are non-fiction, and are not good reading for anybody seeking to escape and be entertained. Some of the writings are spiritual, philosophical and intellectual in nature, and some descend the depths into the darkest recesses of the human mind. I have included a full cross section of all of my thoughts and feelings. It is a classic "over-share", and I have no shame in doing so. A Master Teacher once spoke to me, and said "no teacher shall effect your salvation, you must work it out for yourself". "Follow new paths of consciousness by letting go of all of the mental concepts and controls of your past". This writing represents my personal work towards that ultimate end.