But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth to express unless we have gone into those rooms and Read more…
Truth, My Friendship With Marty, Seizures, and Death Life Is Better With You What value is a story, if it is never told? What value is love, if it is never shared? What is the value of speaking, if nobody is even willing to listen? According to the introduction Read more…
Powerlessness and silence go together. We … should use our privileged positions not as a shelter from the world’s reality, but as a platform from which to speak. A voice is a gift. It should be cherished and used. —- Margaret Atwood There has been an epidemic of white middle-aged Read more…
Psychedelics, Healing Potential, and Religious/Spiritual Experience I debated whether to place this chapter in the “Damaged” section, or the “Healing and Recovery” section of this book. It all depends on the state of mind, and intentions, of the person using the chemicals whether such an experience is to be considered Read more…
PART ONE: INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more…
We will either heal together as a country, as a world, and as individuals, or we will all die alone —–Bruce Paullin PART 2: THE PATH THROUGH COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS In this time when the anti-Christ seems to rule the United States, and when heartless terrorists, capitalists, and politicians victimize our Read more…
Happy Birthday to my first wife, Donelle Mae Flick Paullin, who is 63 years old today. This story is not a happy message, and I have really edited it down to keep it a short, painful, disjointed story. I have not heard from Donelle for over 20 years now, since Read more…
MIND (a poem) The Master Power that molds and makes, And Man is Mind, Evermore he takes the tools of thought And shaping what he wills, Creates a thousand joys, A thousand ills, He thinks in secret But in comes to pass, Environment is but his looking-glass. James Allen (As Read more…
The following message is dedicated to my Best Friend from 1986-1987, Steve, and to: My Search For Truth I am going to take a “walk on the wild side” for this message. This is an excerpt from my memoirs and represents part of a real life experience, with Read more…
The dead cannot cry out for justice. It is a duty of the living to do so for them. – Lois McMaster Bujold This is the third part of my continuing series on “Silence”. There has been an epidemic of younger, white, middle class men who have been dying at Read more…
This is the second part of my continuing series on silence: We arrived at the Oregon coast, at Cannon Beach, on a partly sunny Monday afternoon. We were quickly greeted by our very long-term dear friend from Arizona, June and her ten-year love interest, Michael (are you ever getting Read more…
This is the first of a series exploring the reasons behind my participation in The Conspiracy Of Silence She considered herself a minister, and a teacher, and a leader, for those on “the spiritual path”. She was quite the planner, and was also studious, and read everything readily available Read more…