I get questioned from time to time about why I need to write about doing personal inventory and remaining “mindful” around the impact of Toxic masculinity upon my life, and upon the human race in general. Some perceive that I must have anger or hatred motivating me for “attacking” our Read more
I am deeply disturbed by the present developments within our shared world, within my individual and our collective human consciousness, and the points of connection between the self and other, through language, religion, and philosophies that create oppression, repression, and personal and social disease. Starting within myself, I have seen Read more
I never chose this uneven life path of recovery from trauma, life chose it for me. I choose how to deal with the sights along the way, however. The amygdala in our brains under duress from trauma creates new paths, leading in unhealthy directions, when these issues that arise Read more
Belief, faith and irrationality need not travel together as companions hopelessly chained together on the road to “salvation”. Evangelicals have a strong tendency to conform to worn out modes of thought and understanding, and are quite slow, as a religious culture, to adapt to the awakenings that are happening in Read more
Brain Damage (Written by Roger Waters of Pink Floyd) The lunatic is on the grass. The lunatic is on the grass. Remembering games and daisy chains and laughs. Got to keep the loonies on the path. The lunatic is in the hall. The lunatics are in my hall. Read more
After the recent death of my father, on September 16th, I have had the privilege and challenge of going through and sorting a lifetime worth of writings and papers from my parents, and from myself. After reading some of my mother’s personal writings, I was struck by the pain that Read more
Throwing A Blanket Around The Moment, And Walking Away, As a baby, my parents placed a blanket around my baby body, and deposited me in a car in their garage so that my father could get at least 5 hours of sleep a night. Crying babies and sleep do not Read more
Notes to myself Trump, and the NRA’s ideas around guns, are filled with holes, BULLET HOLES. I have written extensively about Toxic Masculinity, and there is a direct relationship between the damaged American Male, and the incidence of gun marketing, distribution, sales, use, murder and terrorism within our country. Read more
There are those purporting to be “spiritual teachers” and advisors, who are admonishing their followers to abhor using human emotions with their dealings with the public. Specifically, I am frequently hearing that a “requirement for maintaining spiritual integrity” is to NOT EXPRESS ANGER, in any form, and instead to substitute Read more
Fire and Fury This sounds and looks like some of the hateful, judgmental descriptions of God by the “ancients” in some sections of the Old Testament. Someday even the ignorant, and the religiously ignorant, will start to understand the real God, and then we can move collectively towards a Read more
Grandfather Great Spirit, A Story Of Recovery On March 22, 1987, I finally made the decision to live. My grandparents provided their loving presences, and home, for me for four days, while I detoxified from sixteen years of drug abuse and alcoholism. Over the course of my lifetime, they had Read more
Many types of “knowledge” actually breed division and separation between human beings. It is easy to tell the difference between the teachers just by feeling within our own inner chambers of consciousness how their message impacts our hearts. Eventually the teacher presenting the highest learned “truths” of the day will Read more
As I read, and hear about, the early death syndrome of the White American male, which may yet still capture me, I now know that our spiritual and economic systems are flirting with catastrophic collapse. For me, I layered myself with all manners of philosophies that suggested that I should Read more
The following is an epic collection of thoughts about and experiences of my life. Master Teacher Of The Light More than once, certain members of our human race have had “mountain top” experiences, where true insight has been gained into understanding life, love, and both the ephemeral, and eternal, natures Read more
If it weren’t for the incredible spiritual strength, and wisdom, of my life partner, Sharon White, I would not have been able to have, what some people call, the following “cathartic event”. It was on a Thursday morning in February, and I was preparing to go to the Pilates Read more
Winter of 1991 I met my wife Sharon in 1989. We shared a common passion of finding and expressing the joy and truth in life, and we meditated and prayed together for many, many hours together, especially early on in our relationship. The fruits of one of our shared Read more
The year was 1987, and I was still quite new to the path of healing and transformation. I had left my old life behind, and I was open to the experience of spiritual connection, and mastery. I had developed quite a meditation practice, eschewing committed relationships with others in order Read more
What is oppression, and what is my relationship to it? What is repression, and why do I participate in it? What is good “mental health”? Why do people continue to experience poor self-esteem? Why are some people always so angry, or depressed? Why can’t some people be more emotionally and Read more
The writing that follows was inspired by my long term friendship with a man diagnosed with terminally malignant melanoma. His energy is now devoted to just getting through the day with as much peace of mind, and with as little chaos, as is possible under the absolutely overwhelming conditions of Read more
Here is a simple truth, which is extremely complicated for many of us to understand. What we are witnessing in our political arena is the playing out of common human “archetypes” upon the “screen of our world’s mind”, and upon our own individual psyches. The “evil, dark king”, the “repressed, Read more