Throwing A Blanket Around The Moment, And Walking Away, As a baby, my parents placed a blanket around my baby body, and deposited me in a car in their garage so that my father could get at least 5 hours of sleep a night. Crying babies and sleep do not Read more…
Notes to myself Trump, and the NRA’s ideas around guns, are filled with holes, BULLET HOLES. I have written extensively about Toxic Masculinity, and there is a direct relationship between the damaged American Male, and the incidence of gun marketing, distribution, sales, use, murder and terrorism within our country. Read more…
There are those purporting to be “spiritual teachers” and advisors, who are admonishing their followers to abhor using human emotions with their dealings with the public. Specifically, I am frequently hearing that a “requirement for maintaining spiritual integrity” is to NOT EXPRESS ANGER, in any form, and instead to substitute Read more…
Fire and Fury This sounds and looks like some of the hateful, judgmental descriptions of God by the “ancients” in some sections of the Old Testament. Someday even the ignorant, and the religiously ignorant, will start to understand the real God, and then we can move collectively towards a Read more…
Grandfather Great Spirit, A Story Of Recovery On March 22, 1987, I finally made the decision to live. My grandparents provided their loving presences, and home, for me for four days, while I detoxified from sixteen years of drug abuse and alcoholism. Over the course of my lifetime, they had Read more…
Many types of “knowledge” actually breed division and separation between human beings. It is easy to tell the difference between the teachers just by feeling within our own inner chambers of consciousness how their message impacts our hearts. Eventually the teacher presenting the highest learned “truths” of the day will Read more…
As I read, and hear about, the early death syndrome of the White American male, which may yet still capture me, I now know that our spiritual and economic systems are flirting with catastrophic collapse. For me, I layered myself with all manners of philosophies that suggested that I should Read more…
The following is an epic collection of thoughts about and experiences of my life. Master Teacher Of The Light More than once, certain members of our human race have had “mountain top” experiences, where true insight has been gained into understanding life, love, and both the ephemeral, and eternal, natures Read more…
If it weren’t for the incredible spiritual strength, and wisdom, of my life partner, Sharon White, I would not have been able to have, what some people call, the following “cathartic event”. It was on a Thursday morning in February, and I was preparing to go to the Pilates Read more…
Winter of 1991 I met my wife Sharon in 1989. We shared a common passion of finding and expressing the joy and truth in life, and we meditated and prayed together for many, many hours together, especially early on in our relationship. The fruits of one of our shared Read more…
The year was 1987, and I was still quite new to the path of healing and transformation. I had left my old life behind, and I was open to the experience of spiritual connection, and mastery. I had developed quite a meditation practice, eschewing committed relationships with others in order Read more…
What is oppression, and what is my relationship to it? What is repression, and why do I participate in it? What is good “mental health”? Why do people continue to experience poor self-esteem? Why are some people always so angry, or depressed? Why can’t some people be more emotionally and Read more…
The writing that follows was inspired by my long term friendship with a man diagnosed with terminally malignant melanoma. His energy is now devoted to just getting through the day with as much peace of mind, and with as little chaos, as is possible under the absolutely overwhelming conditions of Read more…
Here is a simple truth, which is extremely complicated for many of us to understand. What we are witnessing in our political arena is the playing out of common human “archetypes” upon the “screen of our world’s mind”, and upon our own individual psyches. The “evil, dark king”, the “repressed, Read more…
A black hole is a region of space/time exhibiting such strong gravitational effects that nothing—including particles and electromagnetic radiation such as light—can escape from inside it. The theory of general relativity predicts that a sufficiently compact mass can deform space/time to form a black hole. The boundary of the Read more…
Happy Birthday to my first wife, Donelle Mae Flick Paullin, who is 63 years old today. This story is not a happy message, and I have really edited it down to keep it a short, painful, disjointed story. I have not heard from Donelle for over 20 years now, since Read more…
MIND (a poem) The Master Power that molds and makes, And Man is Mind, Evermore he takes the tools of thought And shaping what he wills, Creates a thousand joys, A thousand ills, He thinks in secret But in comes to pass, Environment is but his looking-glass. James Allen (As Read more…
The dead cannot cry out for justice. It is a duty of the living to do so for them. – Lois McMaster Bujold This is the third part of my continuing series on “Silence”. There has been an epidemic of younger, white, middle class men who have been dying at Read more…
This is the second part of my continuing series on silence: We arrived at the Oregon coast, at Cannon Beach, on a partly sunny Monday afternoon. We were quickly greeted by our very long-term dear friend from Arizona, June and her ten-year love interest, Michael (are you ever getting Read more…
This is the first of a series exploring the reasons behind my participation in The Conspiracy Of Silence She considered herself a minister, and a teacher, and a leader, for those on “the spiritual path”. She was quite the planner, and was also studious, and read everything readily available Read more…