Relapse, Recovery, And The Portland Water Bureau My relapse from drug and alcohol abstinence is difficult for me to document, as this story represents a particularly disturbing period in my life, a period when I limped away from recovery and its attendant Grace. There is an “old saw” in the recovery Read more
PART ONE: INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more
But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth to express unless we have gone into those rooms and Read more
PART ONE: INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more
Chapter 9-24: The Shadow of the Patriarch Toxic Masculinity and the Awakening of the American Soul “Being male is a matter of birth. Being a man is a matter of aging. Being a gentleman is a matter of choice.” —Vin Diesel For thousands of years, the shadow of destructive male Read more
Chapter 27 (final?): Breaking the Silence — May 24, 1987 and the Restoration of the Human Heart There are dates that mark the calendar, and there are dates that divide a life into before and after. May 24, 1987, was such a date for me. It did not arrive with Read more
Chapter 9-26: Healing the Fractured Soul: Integrating the Divine Feminine in a Patriarchal Paradigm Have we constructed a towering monument to our own spiritual starvation? For millennia, the architecture of human consciousness has been heavily dictated by a patriarchal paradigm. This framework has molded the masculine experience into an archetype Read more
This got edited WAY TOO MUCH The Untamed Divine Feminine: An Archetypal Awakening True empowerment rarely emerges from the polished sanctuaries of modern comfort. It rises from the soil, rooted in the uncompromising, cyclical reality of the natural world. For centuries, the patriarchal paradigm has painted the archetype of the Read more
Chapter 26 (3): Healing the Patriarch Within: A Personal Account of Spiritual Rebirth, the Divine Feminine, and Freedom from Toxic Masculinity I sometimes say that I have lived two complete lives. The first life began long before I had words for it. In many ways, it began in inherited pain: Read more
Chapter 18: Toxic Masculinity and Rebecca Solnit-The Algorithm of Authority It began, as these things often do, with a man explaining a woman’s own book to her. He was oblivious, cocooned in the unassailable certainty that his knowledge was not just relevant, but paramount. This was in 2008. Rebecca Solnit, Read more
Don’t forget: Part VII: The Toxic and the Divine Masculine and Feminine (with Transitions) Chapter 26 (version 1): Healing the Patriarch Within A Personal Account of Spiritual Rebirth, the Divine Feminine, and Freedom from Toxic Masculinity I sometimes say I’ve lived two whole lives. The first began long before I Read more
Chapter 9-30: Toxic Femininity, Patriarchy’s Marionettes, and the Wounded Spirit Just as ancient wisdom speaks of a collective shadow, a Maya that veils reality, so too does a subtler, yet equally pervasive, illusion operate within the feminine psyche. It is an intricate web woven not from overt aggression, but from Read more
Chapter 9-30: The Untamed Divine Feminine: An Archetypal Journey Through Sovereign Resistance True empowerment rarely emerges from polished environments, manicured retreats, or institutions built upon the foundations of patriarchal control. It rises from the dirt, rooted in the uncompromising, visceral reality of the natural world. Society has long sought to Read more
Chapter 40: How to Embark on a Journey of Insight, Mindfulness, and Cosmic Connection As we stand upon the sacred terrain of neuroplasticity, we must recognize that the biological rewiring of our minds represents only the threshold of a much vaster odyssey. The conscious repetition and tender dismantling of our Read more
Chapter 39: Discovering New Paths of Consciousness Oh marionette’s dancing image on the screen of the world’s mind, With its conditioning in control, what possible freedom can you find? When the mind is finally released from those binding, choking strings, A healed, sovereign life is created that liberated intelligence Read more
39 and 40 overlap, too much repetitiveness Chapter 39: Discovering New Paths Of Consciousness (latest) The paths of consciousness often lead us on an odyssey where the quest for truth is as formidable as it is fulfilling. Have you ever found yourself startled by your own reflection in a window, Read more
Chapter 27: The Three Minds: Understanding Your Cosmic, Collective, and Individual Self Have you ever felt torn between who you are, who society expects you to be, and something far greater calling from within? This tension isn’t accidental. Humanity operates through three distinct yet interconnected layers of consciousness: the cosmic Read more
Version 1: The Silent Prison of the Male Ego: Waking Up from the Patriarchal Illusion What keeps so many men—and, by extension, so many societies—bound to a system that diminishes women while also deforming the inner lives of men themselves? Patriarchy is often discussed as if it lives primarily in Read more
As the slowly shifting desert sands of time Create ever taller dunes for all lost souls to climb, It is within this arid, barren world of little reason or rhyme A search for Truth must begin, to find the water of Love sublime. Oh seeker of truth, God’s high mount Read more
Consider chapter 26–I am that I am, Part 2, as a good insertion into insight-follow new paths…… Chapter 38: July 21, 1987 Master Teacher of the Light Back in 1987, I was just starting out on the tricky, often unpredictable journey of deep healing and personal growth. I had made Read more