Insight, Black Holes and White Light

.Know thyself, and thou will know the Universe, and the Gods-—Attributed to Plato, and also to the Oracle at Delphi All that we now see, and will ever see, unto eternity, is our Self. And, how does one eliminate the causes, within our consciousness, of the emotional and spiritual equivalents Read more

Trauma—-Moving From Darkness Into Light

The adventure continues. Far too many people just don’t realize what is going on under the “hood” of their consciousness. Does the motor run a little rough? Even if it does not, it may be time to take a look.  While you are looking  at it, you may want to Read more

Donelle Mae Flick Paullin ( 2/18/1955—-11/20/2022)

          My first love, and first wife, died on the day of my birthday, November 20, 2022.. I just confirmed it this evening after our return from the beach, We knew each other since 1972. Married in 1979 after living together for four often times troubling Read more

The Search For Truth, Spiritual Evolution, Healing, and Purpose–A Multi-Media Experiment

The Search For Truth, Spiritual Evolution, Healing, and Purpose–A Multi-Media Experiment “He Was Just Waiting For A Better Day”—-Owner of the Punjab Tavern, 1986 Be mindful, oh Mankind, of all those painful secrets that you must keep From a suffering silence you never awaken, dying without hope in a troubled Read more

Book #8: Chapters 4, 5 Collaboration With Melinda Copp

Note:  Chapter 5 will be added to considerably as work progresses by Melinda Chapter 4 : Approaching Trauma More Consciously “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung Like most of us, I have had many traumatic events Read more

Book #8: Author’s Note, Introduction, and Chapters 1 through 5-Melinda Copp Collaboration

AUTHOR’S NOTE: “He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man”-—Samuel Johnson “We speak about losing our minds, as if it is a bad thing.  I say, lose your mind.  Do it purposefully.  Find out who you really are beyond your thoughts and Read more

Notes On Book #8 (parts to be included in Introduction): On The Turning Away

“We speak about losing our minds, as if it is a bad thing. I say, lose your mind. Do it purposefully. Find out who you really are beyond your thoughts and beliefs. Lose your mind, find your soul“—–Vironika Tugaleva . “I am only responsible for what I say, not for Read more

Chapter 3: Finding Yourself In The Collective Consciousness (Collaboration with Melinda Copp)

Chapter 3:  Finding Yourself in The Collective Consciousness When I look at our culture, I see the rising waters of anguish and despair flooding through it. There are so many broken promises and  dreams, so many shattered expectations, so many lost possibilities that these wounds now define the day-to-day life Read more

Epilogue, Book #8: Capturing Lightning In A Bottle

THE DREAM: At 9 years of age I had a most amazing, realistic dream.  This was during a period of time when I slept very little, as I usually got to sleep no earlier than midnight, no matter how early I went to bed.  I lay in bed and reviewed Read more

Book #8: Chapters 1 and 2: Melinda Copp Ghostwriting Bruce Paullin

Mystics (or Spiritual Empath, which I am) true Saints (the Catholic Church, and the LDS movement have destroyed the credibility of the name), and Prophets (prepare for crucifixion!) have a difficult time reaching the general public.  I was unreachable as a younger man, FOR SURE! Why the Holy Spirit subjected Read more

Introduction (Book #8: in collaboration with Melinda Copp)

Introduction (below) completed It will change substantially when the book is completed in April. Melinda Copp is attempting to make my writings more readable by the general public. She took nearly 180,000 words previously written, and condensed them down to this package. She has 800,000 more words to condense down Read more

Class Reunions

I forgot my phone ( conveniently) for this Sunday’s all 1970’s class reunion for Rex Putnam High School. This was the final day of three days of celebrating my sister Pam’s and Kathy Stephens-Leech’s 50 year class reunion. I have had almost zero contact with high school peers ( class Read more

Ayahuasca, Mushrooms, LSD: Businessman’s Spirituality?

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-pleasure-is-all-yours/202208/could-the-biggest-game-changer-in-mental-health-be-plant?fbclid=IwAR3g0Mph5x93D1PDXaoXytSKra57TQhJ2tB1McDKLlt_zewTanXen87iFkA In the early 1970’s, I used LSD (lysergic acid diethylamide) close to twenty times. The trip would last up to 12 hours. I was also introduced to DMT, which was called “the businessman’s LSD” because it only lasted about 2-3 hours, and who has time for an all day Read more

Melinda Copp (editor and ghost writer) and Me

The process has begun. It may take nine months to bring this project to fruition. Melinda Copp will be using 1,000,000 (of the total 2,000,000 words that I have written down) to choose from for the first book. There is no ” channeling” here, it is a mature spiritual work Read more

Professional Editor Now Helping Me

My blog site has garnered  very little interest in the last four years (123 treasured subscribers). while continuing to be the forum for most writings from me. I now have an editor who is going to take some of the writings, and convert them into at least seven books.  This Read more

Book 8: Our Trauma, The Conspiracy Of Silence, And Our Healing Potential

This has not yet been edited, but here it is, for only the adventurous, and the truly curious among us. 666,311 word total, well over 700 pages.  Photographs did not make it to semi-final version, but I will see what I can do. Contents: Chapter 1:  Troubleshooting And Repairing Broken Read more

The Reincarnation Of Robert Kelly Clements?

Are dreams potentially portals to other people’s lives? Perhaps even to past lives? The following post will appear in a future book, written by some unknown writer. In April of 1987, after I had been sober for about one month after 16 years of hell, I had a series of Read more

Walking, Running Down The Road On Empty, and Writing

We ran into Bruce Fleming this morning, who was one of my running/road racing buddies from 20-26 years ago, on the Aldercrest portion of the walk! He recognized me as he raced by (unlike me, he still has good eyesight, and good running legs, too!).. The last time I saw Read more

Book 8: Chapter 2: Disrupting The Conspiracy Of Silence

“Our lives begin to end, the moment that we become silent about things that matter” —-Martin Luther King, Jr. Choose wisely, oh mankind, the painful secrets that we must keep, if we choose to silently suffer, we will not awaken, but instead die anxious, lonely and asleep —- Elisha Scott A Read more