But you can’t get to any of these truths by sitting in a field smiling beatifically, avoiding your anger and damage and grief. Your anger and damage and grief are the way to the truth. We don’t have much truth to express unless we have gone into those rooms and Read more…
Prologue Chapter 1 – To Find Our Voice Chapter 2 – Beginning The Journey Towards Consciousness Chapter 3 – A New Formation of Words And Flying With The New Flock Chapter 4 . Insight ,Black Holes, And Healing Chapter 5 . Insight and Mindfulness Chapter 6 – Differences Between Read more…
This story is a thumbnail sketch of my friendship with Randy Olson. I first met Randy Olson when I was in fifth grade, after he moved up to Oregon from California. He lived about 3/4 of a mile down Oatfield Road from us, and we rode the same bus to Read more…
Truth, My Friendship With Marty, Seizures, and Death Life Is Better With You What value is a story, if it is never told? What value is love, if it is never shared? What is the value of speaking, if nobody is even willing to listen? According to the introduction Read more…
Previously I attempted to develop the concept of what “God” is, as far as insight and mindfulness is concerned. The historic and religious term “God” can be a major impediment to people’s understanding and willingness to pursue a change in heart, enhanced spirituality, and/or recovery from addiction. “God” sure did Read more…
Powerlessness and silence go together. We … should use our privileged positions not as a shelter from the world’s reality, but as a platform from which to speak. A voice is a gift. It should be cherished and used. —- Margaret Atwood There has been an epidemic of white middle-aged Read more…
Many of the insights of the saint stem from their experience as sinners. —Eric Hoffer What if a real miracle was trying to happen in our lives, and too few people cared enough or were not aware enough to even attempt to look for it? This indifference or ignorance is Read more…
“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung “The unexamined life is not worth living” Socrates “The unexamined life” , or the life lived unconsciously, refers to a life lived by rote under the rules of others without Read more…
Anxiety, Marijuana, and the Path Towards Healing This chapter is directed towards the developing minds, and hearts, of all ages, who as yet have not achieved the fulfillment of their physical and emotional growth processes. It has been established that the use of marijuana by human beings under the age Read more…
Psychedelics, Healing Potential, and Religious/Spiritual Experience I debated whether to place this chapter in the “Damaged” section, or the “Healing and Recovery” section of this book. It all depends on the state of mind, and intentions, of the person using the chemicals whether such an experience is to be considered Read more…
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson The Sound of Silence (Original Version from 1964) (musical interlude) It remains no mystery to me as to why many people choose continued addiction, or suicide over recovery and healing. Invisible Read more…
It is this belief in a power larger than myself and other than myself which allows me to venture into the unknown and even the unknowable. — Maya Angelou Beginning on May 24th, and extending through July 21st, 1987, I had a series of three spiritual “events” which, to this Read more…
Jiddu Krishnamurti’s Teachings, and the Mystery Within Me While both attending college in the early 1980’s, and in my early stages of “awakening” in 1987, I had read several books by important authors on atheism, philosophy and a few of the important religions of the world, including Christianity, Buddhism Read more…
The Common Knowledge Game (CKG) is a newer name for a form of consensus social understanding used in collective consciousness since humans became social animals. The CKG informs our understanding of our own lives, how we see others, and how to use it’s often times twisted knowledge of poor self-esteem Read more…
This is only an exercise in writing for me, and I may as well be posting this to my bathroom wall, but I am back from vacation, so in the interests of personal consistency, and in speaking my truth, it is time for me to present some political and social Read more…
“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” ― C.G. Jung I wrote this chapter as a direct reaction to my relationship with my father, my father’s friends over his lifetime, my male friends and acquaintances over my lifetime, and my Read more…
I would like to write a bit about my mother, Corinne Beatrice Henry Paullin. She was one of the finest, most loving and reliable persons in my life. I never doubted her love or caring for me, or for our family. She loved her younger brother, Wayne, as much or Read more…
My Father, Beryl Donald Paullin My “search for Truth” would take a long detour through my relationship with my father. I never had much desire to write about the “search for truth” that I had undertaken in the 1980’s, let alone the rest of my oft-times irrelevant, isolated life. Why Read more…
Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. PROLOGUE/INTRODUCTION Presently, I am 62 years old, and I am Read more…
PART ONE: INDIVIDUAL CONSCIOUSNESS Conspiracy of Silence —-(definition from Wikipedia) An agreement, either formal or tacit, between two or more parties not to discuss some matter nor to reveal any information concerning it, especially in order to avoid blame, embarrassment, or other discomfort. “Our lives begin to end, the moment Read more…