As I read, and hear about, the early death syndrome of the White American male, which may yet still capture me, I now know that our spiritual and economic systems are flirting with catastrophic collapse. For me, I layered myself with all manners of philosophies that suggested that I should ignore my personal human emotions, and all of the so-called dark energies that plague us, through the labelling, judging, and condemnation of all of these energies. Maya, or illusions, or cultural hypnosis, are terms coined by the “aware” that help us to understand that what appears to be in the “real world” may not actually be there, and to be aware of the potential of our minds to project out of our own unenlightened ignorance our misunderstanding of life, and our actual relationship to it.
Evil does exist, and I will not allow the “wise ones” and their dismissive theories on evil to discourage me from confronting that force, both within myself and within my American culture. It takes a force of will FAR transcending those that the absolutist philosophies of unconditional love promote. If I lived in a spiritual “ivory tower”, then these philosophies might serve my needs. Why would any sane man create more Fake News, deny what they see, and gloss it over with Universal Love, whatever that means? I no longer need permission from “higher powers” to deal with all of our difficult emotions directly and honestly.
In March of this year, two good friends suggested that anger IS hate, and should be eschewed at all costs. That statement to me, If I now said it, would be identified by my Spirit as showing lack of discernment. A lifetime of oppression, of not being heard, having cries of pain and suffering ignored because of some sort of prevailing philosophy, thus ignoring major energy centers of who I AM, creates energy field corruption and damage. How can a young woman, or man, not respond with anger and fear while being sexually abused by yet another Toxic Man, and his own distorted theories of how life should be? Extrapolate that to our entire country, where millions of our fellow Americans, or, more accurately, our fellow human beings, be they African-American, Hispanic, Muslim, Hindu, Sikh, or whatever label we want to foist on another child of God, continue to be persecuted and oppressed by the dark philosophies spawned by other Patriarchal ideologues.
The key is to place these so-called dark energies in the service of understanding and love. Enlightened anger IS wisdom, and if we deny our anger about the oppression we have experienced, or that which is persecuting the innocents of the world, our access to vast sacred energy centers will continue to be blocked away from us, by those who inadvertently become part of the control mechanism that we are attempting to become liberated from.
Alcoholism, depression, mental illness, murder, suicide, participating in the continued destruction of our sacred Mother Earth, and other manifestations of disempowered male energy is the end result. And, this is NOT yet another spiritual theory, this is the ACTUALITY of my life. Sitting in meditation, and or quoting other “spiritually enlightened individuals” may have brought me a temporary measure of peace, but this whole process became yet another “opiate”, and it never brought the change required by my spirit for its own emergence into its own unique wholeness.
Thus, my story continues, sans spiritual teachers. I am guided from within, and I am whole because of that. And, my world will never be the same, and we are a better humanity because of that. Somebody has to act as a bridge between highbrow spiritual theories and/or realizations, and the damaged, hurt, misunderstood, persecuted, abused, sick and ill, and I AM THAT, along with countless millions of awakening abused people around the world. This is how my awakening world now spins, around the reunification of all rejected energies of our Holy Spirit (the spirit of wholeness that still resides within all of us, even in the “least of these” people, who may still reside in their own personal hell).
In the exact words of my own Holy Spirit:
“No teacher will affect my salvation, I must work it out for myself”.
As I save myself, I save my world, and I improve your world, as well.
It is worth the trauma, and the drama, and the tears, and the fears.
Don’t trust me on this one, practice these principles in all of your own affairs, and watch your own spiritual garden grow into ultimate fruition. My own “blossoms” may become the headstone decorations for the grave that will house my body, but I could not be fulfilled until I allowed All of my buds to bloom, to see what their true nature is, and how best to utilize these energies for the greater good of all.
“There is an inmost center in us all, where truth abides in fullness;….and, to know, rather consists in opening out a way where the imprisoned splendor may escape, then in effecting entry for a light supposed to be without.”
― Robert Browning
Please, save yourself.
HumpT DumbT sat on hate’s wall,
HumpT DumpT is about to have a great fall.
All of Mercer’s illicit trillions, and all of Putin’s criminal henchmen,
Will not be able to put Trump’s regime back together again.
It is all unraveling now for those who have attempted to overthrow our government, and destroy the sacred values of our country. The Great Bully and anti-Christ (meaning: to be against the greater good that loving all of humanity brings to our world), Donald Trump is about to be exposed as a traitor, and a pathetic minion of the Great Satan, which are the singularity points (or “black holes”) of wealth, which has begun to destroy the very fabric of our world. The concentration of wealth into the hands of the very few causes the entire economic universe to swirl around their dark intentions, and just like the black holes in outer space, these economic black holes suck everything into them and will not allow light to ever escape. Thus, we are all subject to the psychic, spiritual, social, and economic imbalances that result from the absence of light.
Anger is appropriate in these times. Constructively using this energy for the good of the people requires understanding, however. We are beings of energy, GREAT ENERGY, but that energy gets pushed away every time we fail to recognize that anger may be one of our most important spiritual assets available. There is a vast difference between anger and hatred, and those who confuse the two, in the name of their own disempowered belief systems, have given themselves permission to not rise up publicly, and to speak out against those who are attempting to oppress, dominate, and control us. Anger can inform our Passion, and give us access to that extra energy needed to rise up, and speak out. Sitting back on our hands, and developing spiritual philosophies that allow us to ignore what we are viewing is tantamount to creating more FAKE NEWS, and normalizing that which is insanity. We can’t dismiss what is going on, and deny our hearts and spirits, when there are millions of disempowered citizens who cannot defend themselves, or speak out against the oppression, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY HAVE THEIR RELIGIOUS AND SPIRITUAL LEADERS CONTINUING TO FOIST DISEMPOWERING BELIEFS, AND PHILOSOPHIES, UPON THESE UNSUSPECTING ADHERENTS. Though their hearts may be in the “right place”, this is not the time for more disempowering agendas from those who have already given themselves permission not to stand up and be counted .Righteous indignation and anger may not be for everybody, but those who have been inspired by these powerful energies can harness them for the greater good of mankind, and, for themselves.
In the timeless words of Bob Marley, come the words of a real spiritual warrior:
Get up, stand up, stand up for your rights
Get up, stand up, stand up for your rights
Get up, stand up, stand up for your rights
Get up, stand up, don’t give up the fight
Preacher man, don’t tell me
Heaven is under the earth
I know you don’t know
What life is really worth
It’s not all that glitters is gold
‘Alf the story has never been told
So now you see the light, eh
Stand up for your rights, come on
Get up, stand up, stand up for your rights
Get up, stand up, don’t give up the fight
Get up, stand up, stand up for your rights
Get up, stand up, don’t give up the fight
Most people think
Great God will come from the skies
Take away everything
And make everybody feel high
But if you know what life is worth
You will look for yours on earth
And now you see the light
You stand up for your rights, jah
Get up, stand up (Jah, Jah)
Stand up for your rights (oh-hoo)
Get up, stand up (get up, stand up)
Don’t give up the fight (life is your right)
Get up, stand up (so we can’t give up the fight)
Stand up for your right (Lord, Lord)
Get up, stand up (keep on struggling on)
Don’t give up the fight (yeah)
We sick an’ tired of-a your ism-skism game
Dyin’ ‘n’ goin’ to heaven in-a Jesus’ name, Lord
We know when we understand
Almighty God is a living man
You can fool some people sometimes
But you can’t fool all the people all the time
So now we see the light (what you gonna do?)
We gonna stand up for our rights (yeah, yeah, yeah)
So you better
Get up, stand up (in the morning, git it up)
Stand up for your rights (stand up for our rights)
Get up, stand up
Don’t give up the fight (don’t give it up, don’t give it up)
Get up, stand up (get up, stand up)
Stand up for your rights (get up, stand up)
Get up, stand up
Don’t give up the fight (get up, stand up)
Get up, stand up
Stand up for your rights
Get up, stand up
Don’t give up the fight
And in the words of another great spiritual warrior:
“I come not to bring peace, but a sword!”,
as he, too, tried to break down the patterns of social, economic, and religious injustice of the day.
“In as much as you have done this unto the least of these people, you have also done this unto me”
Jesus of Nazareth
Donald Trump’s “anti-spiritual playbook” is now available for all open eyes to see.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #1:
I am the center of the Universe. The rest of humanity is here either for my pleasure, for my profit, or for my disdain. I may attend a church occasionally, so that I can create the impression that I worship a higher power than myself. But, I already know that there is no higher power but me. HUMILITY IS NOT AN OPTION FOR ME, and is only for the poor and weak amongst us.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #2
Truly loving another human being is a sign of weakness, and thus I must continue to suppress all such impulses so that I can achieve my selfish goals. I will carry on a campaign of hatred, judgement, and condemnation of all people unlike myself, all the while claiming to represent their interests at the highest level of my being. The ignorant minions of my world will eventually associate my hateful behavior with their now corrupted understanding of what love is, thus damaging the hearts and souls of all who follow me. My schizophrenia will now become normalized, as others continue to model and support my behavior.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #3:
People are only valuable if they can be monetized. If I can’t make money from my relationship with people, then I don’t need them.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #4:
Never admit that I am wrong. Always blame somebody else for my problems. The admission of guilt is a sign of weakness, and only for those who do not have sufficient monetary and legal power. I don’t need your forgiveness for my mistakes, because, as far as you should be concerned, I do not ever make mistakes.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #5:
Never spend any time in self-reflection or meditation. I am already perfect, I always have been perfect, and everybody else needs to change to accommodate my needs.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #6:
If I can’t get my way with another human being, then I will either bully them into submission, attack their name and character, and/or impugn their dignity, until they either submit, or are discredited by my allies.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #7:
Everybody unlike myself is to be distrusted. Relationships built through mutual trust and collaboration are threatening to my goals, and should not be cultivated, as only alliances of hate and distrust are capable of bringing me to my goals.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #8:
Women are not to be treated as equals, and are better suited for exploitation for sexual purposes and economic gain.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle # 17:
If I can’t get my way through truth telling, then the telling of lies becomes my most potent weapon. The more outrageous the lie, the better, to hypnotize the ignorant and inattentive elements into doing my dirty work for me. If I am caught in a lie, then it is only your misunderstanding of my point, and not what I said, that is wrong
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle #22:
If there is no war currently in progress, then I must start creating the conditions for the next one, and position myself so that I can maximize profits and visibility for myself.
POTU$ Toxic Masculinity Principle # 25
If hate against other countries is currently antagonistic to Autocratic and Kleptocratic goals, then direct hate against the minorities, or other marginalized groups within my own country that cannot defend their self.
This list is the abbreviated list, as aspects of his personal philosophy covers the entire range of darkness, which would require more writing on my part than this troll deserves from me. Perhaps you would like to add your own favorite observation?
Trump’s term in office is revealing the worst aspects of the unhealed American male soul. Stay tuned for his complete lesson plan that shows how truly dark and corrupt this man really is. And, by inference, all people who support him are in collusion with his anti-humanity values.
If he represents Jesus to the ignorant/sleeping portion of the Christian element of our society, then the corruption that has been built into that cult of ignorance and superstition is now exposed for everybody to witness.
‘And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
Anais Nin
We all must find a way to release our “imprisoned splendor”. Emotionally dishonest, hiding, shame based behavior, hateful, misogynistic, racist, irrational, anti-earth and anti-animal, and immoral agendas promoted by the existing POTUS, and tragically practiced by millions of our fellow Americans, will not lead to recovery and healing, period. We are all negatively impacted by the continued resistance of others to the unfoldment of healing, and love.
Right now, the outside world no longer sees us as the bastion of freedom. Those who have found their freedom must speak up for the freedom of all others, even those trapped in their own personal or cultural dungeon of the day, who do not know how to speak up for themselves yet..
To the extent that the sleeping arms of American Christianity continues to support this blight, is a measure of the healing needed by members claiming allegiance to their sect, clan, or tribe. Their worship to their “Santa Claus” god is a disturbing outcome of superstition and ingrained cultural ignorance.
Personally, and realistically, I should have little hope for the rest of humanity, especially for the men within the American culture. I see how absolutely difficult, err, nearing impossible it was for me to sort through the billions of lies our “American religion” and my racial, gender, and family history and culture saturated my consciousness with, as well as the legion of lies that I created to hide my own sense of disconnect and disease so that I could try to “fit in”. There is no fitting in with chaos, or with hate, and unless one has developed the capacity to transmute this negative energy through insight and love, the victim becomes yet another drone, or minion of the oppressors.
My voice, along with many millions of my fellow Americans, will not be stilled. The continued overthrow of our government, and the monetization and dehumanizing of all that are unlike the rich and powerful will not be tolerated.
RESISTANCE IS NOT AN OPTION, IT IS AN IMPERATIVE!
Please, save yourself
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
Anais Nin
We all must find a way to release our “imprisoned splendor”. Emotionally dishonest, hiding, shame based behavior, hateful, misogynistic, racist, irrational, anti-earth and anti-animal, and immoral agendas promoted by the existing POTUS, and tragically practiced by millions of our fellow Americans, will not lead to recovery and healing, period. We are all negatively impacted by the continued resistance of others to the unfoldment of healing, and love.
Right now, the outside world no longer sees us as the bastion of freedom. Those who have found their freedom must speak up for the freedom of all others, even those trapped in their own personal or cultural dungeon of the day, who do not know how to speak up for themselves yet..
To the extent that American Christianity continues to support this blight, is a measure of the healing needed by unevolved members claiming allegiance to their sect, clan, or tribe. Their worship to their “Santa Claus” god is a disturbing outcome of superstition and ingrained cultural ignorance.
Personally, and realistically, I should have little hope for the rest of humanity, especially for the men within the American culture. I see how absolutely difficult, nearing impossible it was for me to sort through the billions of lies our “American religion” and culture saturated my consciousness with, as well as the legion of lies that I created to hide my own sense of disconnect and disease so that I could try to “fit in”. There is no fitting in with chaos, or with hate, and unless one has developed the capacity to transmute this negative energy through insight and love, the victim becomes yet another drone, or minion of the oppressors.
Please, save yourself.
More than once, certain members of our human race have had “mountain top” experiences, where true insight has been gained into understanding life, love, and both the ephemeral, and eternal, natures or aspects of reality, or That One. That One becomes the source for all future understanding and engagement with the world.
That One could see the unity of all creation, and how all systems of thought tend to separate us from each other, rather than unite.
That One saw how the limits of love shared was typically tribal in nature, and rarely extended beyond the imaginary boundaries of their perceived communities.
That One saw how organized religion had become a tool for the political powers of the day, and no longer existed to serve the needs of the spirit, but instead to follow the dictates of those male power figures who inaccurately, and sometimes falsely, interpret the scriptures to control people, and arrange selfish outcomes.
That One saw how the rich and powerful within the religion used its truth to dominate and control others.
That One saw these religious power figures actually monetize their brethren, to see how their “flock” could bring them wealth through their superstitious tithes, or offerings to their “God”.
That One saw that the poorest in spirit occupied the most fertile ground for healing, yet were the most separated from any benefits of their religion.
That One saw that the religious power of the day was corrupt beyond repair.
That One saw that all sense of religion needed to be “born again”.
That One came down from the mountain top to bring the good news to the people, that they did not need their religion anymore to keep them philosophically imprisoned.
That One then advised the world:
If their “religion” does not allow for them to love another as themselves, then discard those dark aspects of their religion, honor the underlying spirit of love, and affirm the dignity and value of the human being through the healed human heart (which is the source of all true religion).
That just might mean removing the log from our own eyes (even if the log is our very own religion), before attempting to remove the splinter from another (yes, this is the inventory step).
It means stop monetizing humanity for business purposes.
It also means separating the Church from the State.
It means taking personal inventory, and when wrong, promptly admit it
It means lying, cheating, stealing, destroying, murder, greed, selfishness, destroying the animal and plant kingdom and the like are antithetical to the spirit of love which has created this universe, therefore they are unacceptable patterns of behavior only reserved for those who have chosen to stay asleep..
You know who That One is, because That One lives today, and it is not just Jesus. That One has existed since the beginnings of the illusion of self, and other, and the illusions created by competing philosophies. That One has the voice for God, for Truth, for Love, and Life, bubbling up inside of their hearts, just waiting to be listened to, and obeyed. And That One understands all too well the difficulties in bringing Truth and Love to the masses, because in the masses is where corruption of thought gets institutionalized and normalized, instead opting to bring it to humanity one person at a time.
And, to those whose hearts are hurt by the Trump phenomenon, crucifixion feels almost real, even today. White supremacy and the evil attached to it, and now its linkage back to American Christianity through its illusory link with Trump, has sown the seeds of its own destruction. But, it may take a generation or more for that to happen I am afraid. With Bannon professing apocalyptic visions of our future, I hope that we collectively refute this evil notion, and all of the ignorant, dangerous people who support it, before Trump and Bannon lead us into their preconceived Armageddon..
This truly is a most fundamental dialogue, discussion, argument, investigation into the very nature of consciousness, and how we name objects and subjects, and understand reality itself. Those whose backgrounds are quite superstitious and irrational are now trying to dominate the collective understanding of reality, by destroying it and offering alternative illusory postures that have great hypnotic appeal, with ALMOST NO RELATIONSHIP TO GOD, TRUTH, OR LOVE, WHATSOEVER.
Writing to Facebook is an interesting proposition. I usually feel like a lone voice in the wilderness calling out to deaf people, and then I get some amazing responses, occasionally, that let me know that people still love me (though not my words sometimes-Hi Sharon!). The point is to keep speaking out against the oppressive forces of the day. The chances of changing anybody’s mind on the Trump’s American Alternative Christianity team is almost zero, so it is about reigning them in, publically repudiating them, and making sure that the rest of humanity understands the dark, evil intentions of this mindset, and administration.
My “Christian Sermon” for the day will be quite brief.
The story of the prodigal son IS THE STORY of Jesus, and is, potentially, our own story as well.
It is more than unfortunate that Christianity has created another Idol to worship, a ‘golden calf’ to carry around and show off to others, while claiming pseudo-righteousness for themselves.
Please, pseudo-Christianity, don’t pray for me, or for those like me. I will accept your prayers only when the real truth finds you in your darkness, and then you will know who really needs your “prayers”.
Save yourselves, as your superstition, and ignorance, continues to persecute and oppress all others unlike yourself.
Wake up, wake up!
Marijuana, as another form of oppression:
This message is not for adult family and friends who have the maturity to make their own decisions on how to best spend their time and spiritual resources. I have intended this message for developing minds, and hearts, of all ages, who as yet have not achieved the fulfillment of their physical and emotional growth processes. It has been established that the use of marijuana by human beings under the age of 22 are at risk for stunting their emotional growth and development. It has also been shown that discontinuing use does enable the repressed nervous/emotional systems to unfold in more natural ways that promote continued growth, into a delayed maturation, but it is maturation nonetheless..
I was an awkward teenager of 15 years of age. I was smaller than my peers (I was actually advanced one year into first grade at the age of 5), and I felt quite out of place in high school. I was occasionally bullied by others, and my circle of supportive friends was quite limited. I had no idea who “my people” were, though I had still had 3 or 4 quite socially compromised fellow travelers who had been my friends since 5th grade. I was truly a “stranger in a strange land”, and the anxiety around this social adjustment was quite high.
I had no desire to use drugs at the time, as I still was repulsed by the behavior of my sister, who, through her own drug use had become an outsider within our own home family structure. She still hung around, when she was not running with her other friends, or hanging onto her latest boyfriend. But her resistance to my parents disrupted my own distorted sense of what a healthy family setting should look, and feel, like.
It was my sophomore year at Rex Putnam High School, and, as usual, I was not fitting in too well. I remember a high school science class where the teacher was so disturbed by my “aloof and judgmental” behavior that he called me out in class, and called me a “pseudo-intellectual”, and then laughed when he then announced that I would not know what that means. Well, I recited the definition from my memory of what that offensive word meant, smirked at him, and then sat down and became quiet. Yes, not only did I not fit in, others perceived that I did not fit in, as well.
One late fall Friday night, my friends Tony M and Randy O found me at a football game, and said that I needed to try something with them. I went with them, and when we drove off of the campus, Randy brought out a couple of “joints” and told me what they were. Well, I wanted nothing to do with it at the time, but the peer pressure was high, so I went along with it. I did not get “high”, though they did, and they seemed to be enjoying themselves, though I could not understand how.
I tried the stuff three more times, because I became curious how a substance could change somebody so profoundly that they appeared to be enjoying themselves in public, which was an unknown concept to me. Then, the damage began. I actually became “high”, and nothing was ever to be the same again. For the first time in my life, it did not matter that I did not “fit in”, and my sense of social dis-ease left, and my own poor sense of self-esteem evaporated in a cloud of intoxicating smoke. Thus, the oppression of my human heart and soul became normalized in my own life, through the continued usage of the drug.
The drug brought an artificial sense of peace of mind, and kept me from being so hyperactive mentally (yes, I was quite the precocious person, with an almost photographic memory). But, over the course of the many years of use, I lost many of my basic abilities to feel my emotional heritage, and draw from my internal intellectual resources. Through the process of normalizing the oppressive qualities of this drug, I became almost immune to the distress going on around me, let along to remain consciously aware of the distress building up within my mind, and body.
It took until I wandered alone in the dark underbelly of Portland’s criminal drug subculture in the year 1986, to finally realize that pot was not for me. Even in my most desperate time, I came to realize that the use of pot was preventing me from accessing resources necessary for my survival in amongst the other “dark warriors” of our local criminal underground. “Dancing” with undercover federal agents and hit men from biker gangs made me quite aware of the limitations imposed upon my nervous system and mind by the use of pot. I had to have a much more sensitive awareness to remain nimble, in the face of the threats faced there. I had to develop enhanced, nuanced social interactive skills, lest the dullness of response that pot induced within me would create indefensible vulnerabilities. Yes, light comes to those who have lived in life’s darkest recesses, and sometimes the light burns the brightest there, as well.
Oppression comes in many forms, my fellow travelers. Some of these forces we do have control over. My message to my grandchildren is to be aware of ALL FORCES THAT ATTEMPT TO REPRESS OUR BEAUTIFUL SPIRITS, EVEN IF WE DO NOT PRESENTLY RECOGNIZE THEIR INNATE VALUE. Once again, this message is not for adult family members and friends, who are mature enough to make intelligent decisions for their own lives.
Marijuana is now legalized, and normalized, within our West Coast culture. It is being taxed by the government, and private citizens are profiting greatly from its production and distribution. What kind of world are we creating, where oppression of the human spirit is being celebrated, and profited from? Yes, this is the American Way, which is not the way of my Spirit. Enough said.
How does your Spirit fly?
Please, save yourself.
